All Rants

Social media is rotting people's brains.

i wish you'd stop fucking talking about it already.

I dont wanna do this anymore i have no reason to keep going im just a waste of space

so i have sh scars, and today i saw an old friends who i know has been through this as well. she has way more and bigger scars and maybe it’s controversial, but whenever i see her i feel like i should have more and more scars, or mine are not valid.

I'm trying to do things I like, but I just feel so detached from everything. Even my favourite games refuse to clear this fog of indifference. I want to feel emotions again. I want to feel like I have a purpose. I want to have desires. Everything I do is just for the sake of doing it, nothing more. It feels like the only thing I do is pass time. Even writing this, it is just to progress through the day. What happened to smiling, to wanting fresh air, to hanging out with friends? Other people seem so put together, with their pretty little lives and pretty little opinions. Then there's me: ugly, alone, and losing sight of happiness. Now, I'm going to go and continue to play games that make me feel the same as doing nothing. How wonderful.

Everyone who knows me, Tony? They want me to get my PhD. I hope you lose your job in the next year without my help.

they always say talk to a trusted adult but then you end up in the white padded room

killing all negativity ? nahh kiling fake friends yahh btw im not killing them cuz im still young to go to juvie ??

I'm literally the odd one out I cant do it anymore

I hate myself so bad. I don't know how to heal this high level criticism towards myself.

no one knows how much i cry just my pillow and blanket i cry thinking i wanna die but how i dont want it to be painful

I had intention to help my mom who had back pain on folding the clothes. But I didn't fold the clothes right away and it was on the floor. I was looking at my phone and I know I will fold those clothes. Then, she said "Don't fold there cause the floor is not that clean. If I fold clothes, I would have another clean cloth placed underneath those unfolded clothes" which I had never seen her does that. It's ruining my mood to help her a bit, so I immediately take all of those clothes to my room. And have it on the floor too but this one it is clean and assurable enough. I looked at my phone for a while, then she came and said "Let me take my unfolded clothes, you're not folding it right away, and it is in front of the toilet. It is not clean on the floor." And then she starts crying out of nowhere which makes like I'm an evil person there. Like I was literally trying to hold her from taking those because I really wanted to fold all of those clothes but she said my floor room isn't clean.

my parents have been refusing to get me a proper diagnosis for autism because I don't have the same symptoms as my brother, and they're only NOW giving me one but its not even for autism its for asperger's " oh but anon if you get diagnosed with asperger's that's an autism diagnosis!! " I get that. yes. but my mom's only saying I have Asperger's because she looked up asperger's symptoms in TEEN GIRLS and didn't even bother to look up autism symptoms in teen girls. she's only giving me an asperger's diagnosis because, like I said earlier, my symptoms don't line up with my brothers and its pissing me off the " you're not autistic, you don't have the same symptoms as your brother " argument is genuinely upsetting because its called autism spectrum disorder for a reason. symptoms of autism in women are different from symptoms of autism in men and its nsojnsjgfns i feel like im not being taken seriously.

do yu ever want to listen to ur brain? cuz i know i do , i have a besttie who is dirty minded and i was not , she taught me everything , while i was grounded cuz of school grades , my family went through my phone cuz i have the easiest passcode btw and saw our messeges and told everything! to my family when theres a family gathering like brooo its embarrasing for me , like i want to die , they even said whem iget , my period i should take pills to not get preggy like what the fuckkk !!! thats my private life bruh mind ur own bezzwax btw my bff or fake bff s a snitch

I'm such a fucking bitch jsuuducsijdhvsiud

my crush hates me and I'm sick of life

i look so happy but in the inside idk how to tell people but i fell so left out i always see videos of people having plenty friends . well , i have friends but i wanna just call them fake friends they back stab me again and again , it went on 3rd to 4th grade , not until i lost someone someone who i tell my feelings ,my day ,my anger on people i call him dad cuz his family , he adopted me from my mother cause we lived away from each other and my entire childhood was there , he suffered to a lot cuz he was sick after i knew he was gone already i sobbed everyday thinking i wabt to die , i skipped school for a week my class send me condolenses after just 1 month they back stab me again , i have a bff but she will just snitch on me. :((

(Tw) I hate being a teen. My room is always messy and my self expression is hated. My grades are going down and my closest friends keep being less available. I STARVE myself in a way of sh because i dont want anyone to mention any visible scars. I hate having academic expectations, I have dreams of my own, I know I can't reach them, yet I am still expected to. I hate myself for not being the person everybody wants me to be. I don't feel valid and every compliment feels like a lie. I just want everything to be alright. Even if I can fix this all myself, i know i wont do it. Because I just hate. I hate and I only blame myself.

MY DAD WONT LET ME CUT MY HAIR I SWEAR I WANT MY HAIR TO BE GONE AND I HAVE SO MUCH PROBLEMS IDK HOW TO TAKE CARE OF IT IM THE IRON DEFICIENT TEEN NOT HIM I HATE CONSERVATIVENESS SM HE SAYS ITS MORE FEMININE AND HE ALWAYS TRASH TALKS PRETTY WOMEN WHIT PIXIE CUTS N STUFF SCHOOLS STARTING SOON AND ILL BE THE KID WITH RATTY CRUSTY HAIR AND DANDRUFF AGAIN why cant i have nice things

Im so ugly I wake up every day feeling so ugly because my boyfriend never wants to have sex with me and it makes me want to cry