All Rants

Bro im actually so sick of periods omfg. Bcs why tf have I been cursed to suffer monthly anal cramps that feel like I'm being stabbed in my ass by a knife EVERY GOD DAMN MONTH????? Also, tmi but I js went to change my pad and I geniunely thought for a hot second I somehow fucking shat myself because of how nasty and dry my period blood clot looked. Im so sick of this I swear I'm gonna rip my uterus out

I am working fastfood as a manager to make money. I am trying to return to school and raise a 7 year old. I have never been so stressed in my life. I get no days off from mothering. Worst of all I have a verbally abusive Babyfather that tears down everything I do. Even how I make my money. I was 30 mins late getting home to watch my son and he bout had a heart attack. I can’t control Lyft or UBER. Like it’s out of my hands and although work is going good. My at home life is crumbling.

You’d rather cut off a close person than see her spiralling into agony. You said you wanted to work things out with me, yet your emotional state relied on her mood swings. There was no honesty in your words when your mind was constantly changing, and you literally proved it right just a few days ago. I’m not sure what made you cut me off out of the blue last August, but that one single action completely altered my perspective on you. Maybe you should hI have never contacted you last September, because honestly, things have taken a worse turn since then. If I had known what was happening, I wouldn’t have even bothered to come between the two of you. I can’t fathom the pain if I actually dated you and you’d abandon me all of a sudden without any explanation. I have wasted so much of my time and energy on some online stuff. Maybe try taking accountability for your own actions.

Today's my birthday. 14. I feel weak and like shit. I had to do a see something say something for my friend. I want to die. I think I ruined our friendship. Fuck. Im gonna do it. Im gonna kms. I won't live another year people. I just wont. I cant. Im gonna be 14 forever. I have the knife. The pills. The rope. 3 ways. One of them is sure to work

I feel an ever growing anxiety, I'm always stressed I passed from getting sad and cry to yell and get mad at the most little things, I've got heavy stuff on my shoulders, some proyects with wich I cannot graduate and they're stupid as heck, like I never heard of anyuone needing this to get graduated but now it seems I have to and I really don't feel great and I feel so anxious like there's a constant dread as if I was gonna die tomorrow I can't get anything done, not even my passion proyects, I distract myself with so much dumb stuff in hopes to calm myslef down but it's so damn stressing when I feel this physical ache, this ache to do anything but I can't bring myself up to do it, I overthink day and night and I have no one to talk about any of this becasue my firends don't even wanna hear me talk about the slightest of my problems, not even my parents seem to listen, my head is constantly burning itself dumping thoughts non stop it's awful. I'm constantly asking what is wrong with me

I had an appointment for my pills today "Has he had any self harm episodes?" -doctor "No" -mom I literally had a meltdown because I couldn't cut through my skin earlier this week

Sometimes I just sit or lay on my bed and think about how much of a horrible child I am, I constantly wish I was better in every way possible. I wish I could be skinnier, kinder, smarter, prettier and more motivated. I feel like I'm such a screw up and I know I'm a screw up, I've known all my life that I am. My eating has gotten worse, my mental health has gotten worse and my hygiene too. Sometimes I wish I was able to shapeshift or something because I feel like with how much I hate myself that's the main thing weighing my mental down. I've had so many problems with eating since I was younger and still to this day it still affects me so much, I just wanna feel beautiful but I know I'm not beautiful, I always feel like a pig with makeup up. I also know I'm a horrible child as I can't do anything at all, my parent asks me to do things and I don't do anything, I wish I was a better child to them. I hate everything about myself to the point I'm losing myself in that hate I can't get out it

Everyone has their battles. I know that. But I feel like I'm fighting a war. There's multiple fronts. The fight to be seen and loved and cared about. The fight to not hate myself. The fight to keep living even though I don't want to. The fight to believe in something and have faith when I feel completely alone. I don't think there's a word for how completely alone I am. I could stand in a crowded stadium full of people, and I could know every single one of them. I could care about each and every person. But I wouldn't be a single persons first pick. I wouldn't end up with anyone. I wouldn't end up in any groups. I would stand there, surrounded by masses of people, but still standing by myself. I don't think it's me. I don't think it's my fault. I try my best every single day to help others. I just don't think it's working.

i fucking hate myself so much im a fucking issue my parents dont trust me with anything and i cant even be myself around them cuz they always want the smart verison not the 16 yr old one. im tired i dont want to be here i want to be gone somewhere else i feel stuck. my friends r acting weird and i cant tell them shit without saying that i feel depressed but im not the one who should be depressed i have a good life, good friends (techincally), and good marks, im smart and have no good reason to feel like this.

You know you love her when you’re ready to cut off a close person just to keep her sane

I love myself so much but I hate people because they bother me. I married myself so no one can ever speak to me ever again. I hate people because they say humans are social creatures. Whatever. I hate humans and all humans do is show me their negative side and or they are unkind, this is why I married myself. Being self partnered is the best thing that ever happened to me. I am glad I don't have friends and I am glad I am not romantic with other people. I hate men and I hate women. I hate anyone who was interested in me. No one will ever love me as much as I love myself.

I don't hate myself, I love myself but I hate people who approach me and claim they are angels and then tell me they were assigned to me but all they do is stand there and whisper insults. Wtf is that? That's not normal behavior. They claim I call them a bitch when I never asked them for help. Then they have the nerve to say they love me so much and or that I am loved. Wtf. I am sick and tired of these weirdos who have mental health issues and they bother me. She also complains and judges me for what I have.

This person who claims to be an angel said that she is trying to help me and I never asked and she complains I call her a bitch. SMH, which doesn't make sense because she bothers me and I never asked for her help. Then she tells me get over it. She so fucking stupid. She is ugly and I don't want to listen to her.

why makes a person force another one to believe in god? That's a bitchy thing to do because I never asked this person to come in my life and talk to me. Let alone force belief in God, Jesus and or angels on to me. WTF. She is an ugly person because when I get mad or upset she tells me to get over it and she tells me to cut it out. It seems weird. I don't like her and she is an ugly person and she still talks to me. She tells me to change my attitude. She is a fucking selfish pathetic bitch. I hate her and we aren't friends. She is annoying. She is not an angel but she claims she is one. WTF. That's bullshit. Angels aren't real. I hate her and I am sick of her bothering me. She doesn't love me. Wtf. She is a monster because she bothers me. She keeps saying this bullshit about she was assigned to me. Whatever. She is evil and she isn't loving because she says cut it out, she judges me for what I have and she says get over it. She is a bad person.

Why couldn't you be ready too? I was ready. Why did you do that just to say that we were always just friends? We weren't. You knew we weren't. So many times you did things friends don't do with each other. You're weird. But I still want you. But... you're still 'thinking' about it. But I know you aren't. I know you already made up your mind and honestly so have I. I have always loved you and I always will, whether you see it as Platonically or Romantically, I don't care. I just know I love you. (You weren't Reddie 🎈)

When you’re feeling horny and you can’t do anything about it anymore so you js give up Byex

What do you know of NYC? Though ghetto, strolling through the neon lights of Times Square around 1:00 AM was a completely different experience. The city‘s filled with Art Deco skyscrapers, streets smelling like Italian restaurants, drugs and piss; and the historic design of Grand Central Terminal reminded me of Fontaine’s Armillary Sphere, along with constant wails of police sirens. It is a beautiful city with urban grit.

How come it's always constantly being told to ask for help when you need it, and when you need it, suddenly everyone is unavailable? I need help to go over a particular spot on my homework where it's just questions I wrote during class for a major project upcoming and somebody needs to answer them in order for me to get a baseline idea basically. I ask my dad, he thought I meant the full assignment so he went to lay down because of the heat today. Fine, whatever. I asked my cousin to call me after dinner to help me out with it over the phone. We both agreed at about 8 o'clock. She's a no show. I mean, thanks a lot. The other day I thought I missed the bus and everyone who I tried to contact just magically became unavailable. On a completely unrelated note, it's starting to seem that my best friend might be replacing me. We still talk and yet it seems like it's forced interaction and that she may be hanging around someone else who she favors more over me.

Hi. I like a boy, and I have for years. I am a Child of God, and I have been since I was born. I was baptized, I was put in Bible study, I went to Catholic school, and I've been taught that same-sex love and marriage is forbidden for many years. My entire life, I never believed it was wrong, I just pretended to agree with those around me. I believe that you don't love that person because of their gender, you love them because of their personality, their, way of living, the way they look, the way they dress, and the way that they are so beautifully them. Gender shouldn't come in between that. To the man I've loved for so long, I will not be meeting you in heaven. I am a sinner, and you are not. I am going to hell, and you are not. I am deeply sorry. I wish I could change it, but I cannot. You are so beautiful. I'm sorry Mom, Dad, God, Jesus, my sister, my two brothers, and my best friends who haven't caught onto it yet. I wish God loved me.

im so mad rn. i toldy ex that im asexual in the beginning of our relationship. I also told him that i have problems with it and that i feel guilty for "making" him give up that side of his for me. AND THAT BITCH SAID IT WAS OKAY. Well... 10 months, a lot of reassurance and a lot of "are u sure you dont want any sex, it would be fun to try one time, what it you like it"later, he tells me that he actually cant live without it.😃 explode.