All Rants

My mother seems like a narcissist and obviously doesn’t care how I feel. She doesn’t know how to understand me and gets offended or defensive whenever I try to tell her she’s making me upset, she will try to guilt trip me by saying how she buys me things and how my dad puts money into my account. I genuinely do care about others, I just can’t show my feelings at all. I’ve been thinking of suicide lately but it hurts me to even leave my boyfriend and friends behind. I don’t know whats to do. I’m just fourteen years old; a teenager who doesn’t deserve this. I know I spent a lot everyday on my account and that’s all on my fault, but she didn’t need to go that far. She hits me on the arm sometimes yet she keeps claiming she never hurts me or dares to lay a finger on me. I’m so stressed out.

Hey this isn't a rant I'm not trying to take up space on this app but for anyone who needs to hear this You matter. No no no I don't want that corny shit as "but I'm not good enough." Shut the fuck up you matter don't do it. It's not worth it and the second you feel your last breath leave your body your not thinking "I'm free" your thinking "I wanna go back" don't do it please you matter

Everyone is asking why I changes and saying I’m fat like idk if in even spouses to be alive rn I just wanna cry but I can’t so I sit here venting wanting to be comforted

Someone said I was creepily obsessed with Trump because I said life would be better if he was dead .. obviously they’re a trump supporter ew. I feel like everyone’s life’s would be better if trump died Which was crazy bc they said it on here of all places

I want my mom back. I barely knew her she died when I was 11. come back I barely knew you. The last thing she said to me was my name, (Cori), while she was having a stroke in the bedroom I’m sitting in right now. I still think about her everyday, like she’s still here. Everyone else got her but me. She liked my twin more than me. Everyone did.

Yes dad anyone can be depressed at any age.

No one likes me. No family, no friends, no one. I know my family worries about my mental health and just me in general. But I can’t help but think they think I’m doing it for attention or I’m just faking.

I want to make manga but can't draw, I'm passionate about it. Wish i was Japanese. JJK gojo six eyes technique. Demon slayer, katana slice, all demi gods must bleed. I wish i was a sperm cell in a Japanese woman pussy, and a Japanese man was my father. Japanese white genes are superior. I wish i was Japanese.

I feel so awkward when someone asks about my families religion/traditions. My family isn’t religious or do we have many traditions so it’s always awkward. Even when we do school projects I have to explain how it’s difficult.

im so fucking sick & tired of everything. Im 15, turn 16 this month but Ive need taking honors and AP classes and pushing myself to do good w/ a GPA Higher than 4.0 but im so burnt out rn, anyways ive been dating this guy for the 2nd time & my mom hates him right? Well i told her we're dating again & obvi she disapproves but also added a lil fun fact, shes not gonna buy me a car for my birthday bc im dating him, and tbh its not even about the car its the fact im 15 hes not going to be my forever person, I work so hard to be who they want me to be & make them (her) happy, i try so hard to please them but nothings ever enough no matter what & i just im so tired of being the person who they want me to be that I don't even know what I want for me.

i am so jealous of normal families. i've been getting into screaming and borderline physical fights with my dad at least twice a day now. through the worst shit of my life ive never had suicidal thoughts but ive never been in a state this bad i just want to end it and my brother starts screaming at me too telling me i should just get out and runaway and leave the house and my dad is manipulating everybody and everybody is against me i didnt do shit wrong i just calmly try to tell him how something he did bothered me and he starts yelling and losing it and bringing up a bunch of different things and he changes the story around and he believes things that didnt happen just so he can gaslight himself into thinking he's right. and im struggling in school i'm already failing half my classes and my teachers are telling my parents im not taking classes seriously im so burnt out i just cry every fucking night

I have never felt so beyond stupid in my life. I feel so unworthy and so incapable. I failed my first year of college last year. The ENTIRE DAMN THING. Literally every class. And I still found it in me to keep going. To try again. But now I'm putting in what I can and I just realize just how incompetent I am. What kind of stupid fuckass idiot works for three hours to only complete a third of a lab? It's not even anything crazy either. It's exel. MICROSOFT EXEL. It's only the second week of class. No, MONDAY of the second week of class. I feel like I don't deserve to be here. I feel like such an idiot. And I feel like an even bigger idiot for crying about it like a little bitch. I just want to go home and see my family. And maybe stop feeling like I can't do anything. I won't be able to survive this modern world without this degree. Im already giving up my time and hobbies and everything for this. Im committed. I put in the work. I just don't know why I still can't get anything right.

Bro im actually so sick of periods omfg. Bcs why tf have I been cursed to suffer monthly anal cramps that feel like I'm being stabbed in my ass by a knife EVERY GOD DAMN MONTH????? Also, tmi but I js went to change my pad and I geniunely thought for a hot second I somehow fucking shat myself because of how nasty and dry my period blood clot looked. Im so sick of this I swear I'm gonna rip my uterus out

I am working fastfood as a manager to make money. I am trying to return to school and raise a 7 year old. I have never been so stressed in my life. I get no days off from mothering. Worst of all I have a verbally abusive Babyfather that tears down everything I do. Even how I make my money. I was 30 mins late getting home to watch my son and he bout had a heart attack. I can’t control Lyft or UBER. Like it’s out of my hands and although work is going good. My at home life is crumbling.

You’d rather cut off a close person than see her spiralling into agony. You said you wanted to work things out with me, yet your emotional state relied on her mood swings. There was no honesty in your words when your mind was constantly changing, and you literally proved it right just a few days ago. I’m not sure what made you cut me off out of the blue last August, but that one single action completely altered my perspective on you. Maybe you should hI have never contacted you last September, because honestly, things have taken a worse turn since then. If I had known what was happening, I wouldn’t have even bothered to come between the two of you. I can’t fathom the pain if I actually dated you and you’d abandon me all of a sudden without any explanation. I have wasted so much of my time and energy on some online stuff. Maybe try taking accountability for your own actions.

Today's my birthday. 14. I feel weak and like shit. I had to do a see something say something for my friend. I want to die. I think I ruined our friendship. Fuck. Im gonna do it. Im gonna kms. I won't live another year people. I just wont. I cant. Im gonna be 14 forever. I have the knife. The pills. The rope. 3 ways. One of them is sure to work

I feel an ever growing anxiety, I'm always stressed I passed from getting sad and cry to yell and get mad at the most little things, I've got heavy stuff on my shoulders, some proyects with wich I cannot graduate and they're stupid as heck, like I never heard of anyuone needing this to get graduated but now it seems I have to and I really don't feel great and I feel so anxious like there's a constant dread as if I was gonna die tomorrow I can't get anything done, not even my passion proyects, I distract myself with so much dumb stuff in hopes to calm myslef down but it's so damn stressing when I feel this physical ache, this ache to do anything but I can't bring myself up to do it, I overthink day and night and I have no one to talk about any of this becasue my firends don't even wanna hear me talk about the slightest of my problems, not even my parents seem to listen, my head is constantly burning itself dumping thoughts non stop it's awful. I'm constantly asking what is wrong with me

I had an appointment for my pills today "Has he had any self harm episodes?" -doctor "No" -mom I literally had a meltdown because I couldn't cut through my skin earlier this week

Sometimes I just sit or lay on my bed and think about how much of a horrible child I am, I constantly wish I was better in every way possible. I wish I could be skinnier, kinder, smarter, prettier and more motivated. I feel like I'm such a screw up and I know I'm a screw up, I've known all my life that I am. My eating has gotten worse, my mental health has gotten worse and my hygiene too. Sometimes I wish I was able to shapeshift or something because I feel like with how much I hate myself that's the main thing weighing my mental down. I've had so many problems with eating since I was younger and still to this day it still affects me so much, I just wanna feel beautiful but I know I'm not beautiful, I always feel like a pig with makeup up. I also know I'm a horrible child as I can't do anything at all, my parent asks me to do things and I don't do anything, I wish I was a better child to them. I hate everything about myself to the point I'm losing myself in that hate I can't get out it

Everyone has their battles. I know that. But I feel like I'm fighting a war. There's multiple fronts. The fight to be seen and loved and cared about. The fight to not hate myself. The fight to keep living even though I don't want to. The fight to believe in something and have faith when I feel completely alone. I don't think there's a word for how completely alone I am. I could stand in a crowded stadium full of people, and I could know every single one of them. I could care about each and every person. But I wouldn't be a single persons first pick. I wouldn't end up with anyone. I wouldn't end up in any groups. I would stand there, surrounded by masses of people, but still standing by myself. I don't think it's me. I don't think it's my fault. I try my best every single day to help others. I just don't think it's working.