All Rants

Nissan is f@cking dogwater, bum-ass company with too many financial issues and too many f#cking recalls for their stupid cars. Motherf@ckers spent too much money circlejerking each other with money just to now have to lease their old headquarters. Nissan's like the Kevin Durant of the Big three Japanese automakers. Constantly snatching defeat from the jaws of victory. F@ckers had the Silvia, 300SX, and GTR, now they're dogwater. Their SUV division is the only semi-redeeming quality with the old Hardbody 720, X-Terra, Frontier and Titan. At least with Mitsubishi they have the decency to give up, Nissan is like some middle-aged dimwit who couldn't handle the misery of their life and is trying to make up for it.

i get lustful thoughts about femboys and i dont want to, everywhere i go at any time i imagine scenarios. I hate people but i dont want to, i feel so alone

I feel about as sexually appealing as a 1970s station wagon, or some Mitsubishi sedan from the 1990s. I need to get off of romantic hentai to compensate for loneliness and the fact I feel deeply alone. I think of settling in a relationship just not feel alone but it's not fair to the person or me. We should love each other. I hate the fact I want an attractive partner, despite not having any redeeming qualities

What's something a friend or family member did that hurt you but you haven't told them? While I was in the Philippines, one of my aunts said something that kinda hurt. I mean this was last year but I’ve only told my closest friends recently,stupidly bc of a truth or dare game but they were rly supportive:) Srry if this might sound kinda dumb. So we went somewhere to eat at an restaurant. And then she started talking to me that if I want to lose weight I should start eating less and not eat such junk food. She kept ongoing about how I’m fat and compared me to my cousin who’s always been the perfect one. And the she started talking to my other family members about my weight as if I wasn’t even there? Kept on going about my body and I go so uncomfortable. I was literally on the VERGE of tears Imactually shocked how I didn’t cry. I did tho in the car when we stopped so they could so shopping. Im such a sensitive person bro I hate it

I had a dream that rly hit. I’ve never told anyone before but it was basically how I was with my friend and we were all happy and laughing about smth when she said ‘You know… I’ve realized something. You always hide what you feel with a smile’ AND BRO THAT CAUGHT ME RLY OFF GUARD I WAS LIKE 😨 BC HOW DOES SHE KNOW. 😭😭😭 yeah it’s pretty short but thats it :D

I hate myself. I feel like I complain all about my life because of my overthinking. I tend to exaggerate things and go into a spiral and I just feel so hopeless. Thing is I never tell anyone because they also have a lot of things in their plate,most of my friend group isnt the best mentally, so I try to keep things to myself to not escalate things. But I hate it. And if I did tell someone what if they would judge me? What if they’d say oh you have it better than most people JIST be grateful for once. But im trying to be. I’ve been thinking to get anxiety meds but I’m too scared to ask my mum. I’ve wanted to kill myself and I’ve tried to self harm but I was too much of a coward to carry on. I cry alone and quietly so one notices. I don’t know why Im like this I miss my childhood :(

i’m so SO FUCKING TIRED IF MY FRIENDS i feel like not a single one of them would be considered my best friend and ive been growing more and more distant from them and lately ive they’ve made me feel like shit. the reason i’m writing this rn is because i was just talking to them and i said something and one of them who i used to consider my best fucking friend said “u have to understand___” and idk but this phrase genuinely triggers me. no way ur misrepresenting entirely what i said and make me feel like a shit person when it literally has nothing to do with what i’m talking about. i’m so fucking tired

I just graduated, but I still don't have a job. It's hard to apply for positions, and I've tried everything I can think of. No one seems willing to support me, and I feel depressed and stressed. I don't know what to do; I feel lost and am struggling to survive. My degree isn't helping at all, and I don’t know where to start. My savings are all dried up, and now my mom is unemployed. My brother has stopped attending school to work a low-wage job, but he is only using his earnings to support his own spending, which includes alcohol, drugs, and cigarettes. I'm going crazy every day, and we have no food left on the shelf. I don't know how to survive this fucking life. I'm so lost. I swear I don't usually rant online, but I'm full of problems and have no one to tell about my struggle. I just don't know what to do. I've been thinking of just ending it once and for all. Should I keep going?

i’m afraid to be medicated for my suspected mood disorder

Very embarassing posting here but I've forgotten how to vent in real life. Had to stop all contact with my dad. He's gone back into alcoholism and has become a violent, emotionally uncontrollable man slowly killing himself causing pain to those around him. He already died from it once (temporarily), yet he went back and I can't deal with it. There's still love because thats my dad, the guy I looked up to as a kid! But the lines between the dots on who he's become connected. This doesn't concern me much. I laugh about it, I've stayed levelheaded, thems the brakes. Shit sucks, we move. But it's making me recogniz my incapacity, my fear almost, in discussing my personal grief. I hate sympathy, getting told "damn that sucks" is worse than me processing it myself. At least when I talk to the void, I don't have to think about the voids social cues. I also don't want advice that you feel obligated to give. I wish non-spiritual meditations/reflections on these feelings were more common.

I'm testing this out for the moment. I deal with a crazy person who requires a crazy amount of labor and patience.

No one knows that I almost didn't make it to this year. No one knows that I harmed myself and was only keeping myself alive so that no one would have to miss me I'm better buy I'm so so tired. I feel like my friends are trying to avoid me and it's like they don't want to hang out. They won't tell me anything anymore, yet I will change if I'm in the wrong. I'm conflicted my friend is dating another friends ex who is terrible and is just being weird. I don't trust that guy she likes and I don't want to tell her cause she would be mad. And those two the friend and the friend who dating her ex I really care for. I just don't want to feel like a burden to my friends I wish they would take. My grades have been shit I've been so tired and forgetful.

The trauma I’ve endured is finally catching up to me, it’s happened so many times, it hurts so bad to not talk to anyone about it, the one person I do talk to about it plays it off as something funny. Which is fair because I always talk about it as a joke. But it hurts cause it feels like she doesn’t care that much and I know she doesn’t, she’s told she doesn’t. But I love her (not romantically) I’ve had so many sexual assault experiences (as a guy) and I know I’ve taken it better than most but I’m broken now. I just want my best friend to be less selfish. I want her to care. She’s all I got and if I can’t have her I don’t feel as if there’s any point in life. I can’t live like this anymore it’s a constant circle of hatred and jealousy and depression. I’m not going to kill myself but I just wish I was better.

I’m so upset right now yesterday was my moms birthday I don’t have a job or anything so my grandma normally orders her something she’s been running to her cult for months and has not gotten with me but once about my moms birthday and I never heard about it it’s important you know we LIVE with my grandma and she didn’t even go the day before and get her something didn’t order her a cake no thought was put into her birthday well we go to TJ MAX and my mom hates everything which she’s not going to say that I asked her multiple times what she wanted and she would say no or idk now she’s saying she wanted a lululemon thing and then I say well we can return it she says no I don’t want anything else from yall I’m trying to figure out how this is my fault I have NO MONEY NO CAR WHAT DID YOU WANT ME TO DO??? I done the best with what I had and then I told her what she got for Mother’s Day and she hates it too I don’t know what to do she didn’t even read my fb post she just looked at the picture

I feel like I'm in a constant loop when it comes to school. I go to class, do my work, talk to my friends, or go on my phone when the teacher isn't looking. I absolutely hate it there. At school, all I ever do is be silent, or I'm the one talking. But I always get interrupted every time. It's so annoying. I can't ever fucking talk without being interrupted, like come on, dude. Let me talk for once! I get that this sounds like im an asshole, but oh well.

Nowadays, people are too civilized to just call mental retoddation out for what it is. Mentally retoddid people such as myself, a William Topaz McGonagall of the world, suffer for it. I don't have ADHD, I'm just mentally retoddid and horrible to be around.

I have a lot of mental disorders which are adhd, depression, anxiety in general, half of my ptsd, sociopath behavior which my own biological mother gave me she tried to kill me and put a knife to my neck and said if I wanted to die so bad she help and my step dad gave me schizophrenia and the other of my ptsd and watched at me when I slept and raped me more twice and my mom knew and didn't care and touched my privates while changing me he changed me into small clothes I was 5 (small shorts which if I moved in a certain way, he'll see my privates and he knew I didn't sit correctly), and my biological dad my own dad hated me and doesn't want me he and my mom was fighting he wanted to rub cause while I was a baby and hit my head on the car door. I'm a teenager, my sociopath and my schizophrenia behavior is still confusing I don't know if I should hate it or like it, it's like my only escape it protects me, I know it's bad, it makes me hate myself. I live with my grandma it still hurts me.

Every morning when I wake up I’m upset I don’t own a gun because I want to end it. I’m truly worthless to society. I’m fat and extremely hideous by all standards. I wish I was never born. I’m a waste of skin and a waste of space. The only thing stopping me is imagining how embarrassing it would be to make someone clean up my disgusting mess a final time.

I live in Alabama. I am a solid citizen and found myself in jail. In July of 2020 a new neighbor moved in. She was a single mother and when I introduced myself to her, she said she and her young son would be living at this address. He moved in and he loved loud music and loud pipes. I asked the Foley, Alabama police to address it. They did but they ticketed the wrong young man. The man I wanted to address was never in serious trouble, but I was asked by the Foley Police to move to another area of the state of even another state. Then the Policeman followed up. Foley's police are not enforcing the noise ordinance so you might as well learn to deal with. In the last months of 2023, I decided to ask for help from the State Police. The noise stopped and I thought my battle of senior abuse from these neighbors were in the pass. On April 21, 2024 I went for a walk as I have done since 2002. Go on Youtube / Neeli Faulkner muredercreekmedia / select "ARRESTED FOR WALKING" No Rights Here

I feel tired, I feel like I wanna kill someone then kill myself...........Just Die 😭