All Rants

Sometimes I feel like only positive connection between me and my father is the fact that he provides for me but even in that he always uses that money as a way to threat constantly even in normal conversations. So I feel guilty/insecure for asking for his money. He is 44 years older than me (boomer generation) and there are so many things we don't agree with each other. I am normally extremely peacefull person and my friends joke about if I ever get angry but I can't communicate with him without arguing or yelling because he starts the conversation with yelling over nothings (even at public) or he doesn't take it seriously otherwise.

Okay so all of you are 13………..

It just funny, that I was leaving school and now I'm leaving my religion. Basicly I'm a dumb atheist now.

Am i even worthy of being loved

So theres this guy i like but i know he doesnt like me back and its genuinely eating me up because hes super nice but ever since my friends said something to him it feels like hes been slipping away more and more. I it really sucks because i just got cheated on a few weeks ago, and its been a rough week also because hes been ignoring me one day then hes giggling at my jokes another. i give up on dating and boys completely. i don't know if im hurting from the breakup or the hard rejection.

Does it really bad to forget the worship? I'm not even that good to facing the god. I always feel that I don't be able to talk to the god, I just full of sin. Like, I'm even say that I'll go to the hell because I'm not that close to the god anymore. My mother always force me to comeback, but I just be quiet not even angry at her. I know that I was wrong, but in the other side, I was really sorry to her. I just do everything just for her, I'm not doing the worship for my own good, but to make my mom happy after all. I'm sorry mom.

Pissed off id cooked dinner for me my lot him and his child, he pushed in served himself and his child huge portions so when it came to me having dinner there was nothing left, his kid ate 2 mouthfuls then asked for something else he then went and cooked her another dinner none of the food he purchased or provided then said I should of used my big girl voice

So far today I've been gaslit, had my head bit off, insulted, startled out of bed, and some people have plain been assholes. At this point it may as well rain meteors. Im done with people's shit. People can shove their shitty treatment and behavior and negativity up their ass. Wtf is wrong with this world right now? Clearly something. Like why is it so hard to have a drama free day where I'm not made angry? Yeah I'm long overdue for a vacation.

I’m starting to feel numb and beginning to forget everything.

Hi Tyler, it’s me. It’s been a while since we talked. You stopped talking to me, and eventually I stopped responding and double texting too. I guess we both slowly became strangers. Sometimes I hear the songs I used to listen to when I met you, and suddenly I remember everything. I remember our conversations, the laughs, and how you became my best friend before we eventually fell in love. I had such a great time with you, and even though distance and some personal things made it impossible for us to work out, I’ll always be grateful that I met you. You were the one that got away. Sometimes remembering you still makes me sad, especially knowing how we stopped talking. But despite everything, I still wish you nothing but happiness. I hope you achieve your dreams, stay healthy, take care of yourself, and find everything you’re looking for in life. I genuinely want to see you happy, even if I’m no longer part of that happiness. ILY -J

I crossed one of my boyfriend's boundaries; I got mad at him and let my emotions take over. Does that make it better? No, I know that. I know what I did was wrong, and I can't get it out of my head. The guilt I feel is a weight that's heavier than anything. I know it should be that way; I just idk. I let him down.

My parents gave me a tablet with 2 because I always cried and screamed the whole time, the first thing I did is coloring random drawings in an app, I don't really remember everything but when I was 6, I saw isabell from animal crossing doing a" QnA" or something, I was like "what's a QnA?, let's take a look! " when I clicked that..it's so disgusting so i won't explain it. i was interested for literally no reason, it always continued that I even grew up with it. I regret it. I literally hate myself of the top of my whole heart because of being weird. I didn't even stopped by 6 - 10 yo. I sometimes search disgusting things on Google but when I almost click on enter, I always throw my phone on my bed to stop it. that's why I sometimes wish I could die but I'm scared. I sometimes think I don't deserve to have a family, food, things I always wished for, a girlfriend, friends, almost everything. I don't deserve everything.

Not trying to be gross but like my period is so bad. It’s to the point that I use like 5 nighttime pads a day and 2 super sized tampons. That shit lasts like 3 days and when it slows down and gets lighter I have to use 3 nighttime pads. This shit is torture to the point that I get light headed and lowkey sick everytime my period comes around. I don’t even want kids bro get these ovaries out of me!!

I'm struggling with mental health right now and I don't know where to start to be free. I asked people to help me to get out of it but they couldn't or didn't cared, i tried to explain my problems to my trusted friends but they get upset, not helpful enough and ignore me like I don't exist. Nobody cares if i cry and suffer in this world. So I asked my girlfriend to be my "Therapist". Everything was fine, I talked about my problems, she listened and comfort me like hugging me and telling me that everything is going to be okay but one day, my girlfriend got so upset that I She even sent me death threats and blocked me for a while only because i pushed my pressures to her. Now I have nobody to talk about my problems. I always overthinking "what did I do wrong? Why was I like that? Why am I so dramatic and and and..." my life is a knotted paper that can't be fixed. Never.

Yesterday realized I gained ten pounds and now got third place in the hog show and just genuinely wanna kms

If you leave somebody a note, make it positive and uplifting. Not random unhelpful crap. Some of us are going through enough as is. What the fuck is wrong with people on here who do that?

I talk about what I go through. I get gaslit by fam saying otherwise defending the other person. I WOULDN'T FEEL HOW I DO IF I DIDN'T THINK THESE PEOPLE WERE IN THE WRONG OK?!! I received 2 seeming jabs by religious people this morning I don't think they should have said what they did. Ok. Fam is like "they're good people'. Obviously I know that, but you invalidated me. people do say thing's they shouldn't sometimes. It feels like it's attack me day tbh. If it's not that fam is irritable/edgy. I also get woke up by loud effing neighbors. So I havent slept good In a week plus thanks to those ghetto ass bunch who don't have the sense a donkey has. They're the type you'd probably see a tiktok of being a Karen at a McDonald's crashing out over a wrong food order being entitled and demanding. Sigh. It's so draining and frustrating.

I don’t know what I’m doing. I feel like I’m just spending every day worrying about the same shit, while refusing to do anything about it. I won’t take the jump and would rather just let things blow right past me and wallow in self pity after. I almost find some sort of enjoyment just being miserable and absent. I’m able to acknowledge it, yet refuse to do anything or tell anyone because it’d be too much of a hassle. It goes beyond just myself, into my relationships and every life. I let people who I really like pass me up because I’m too much of a coward to say anything. I do things last possible second and role over at the slightest bit of confrontation. I always end up saying sorry to people as soon as I get a bit of push back. I don’t know man I just feel like I’m letting my life pass me bye without doing anything. Days feel long and monotonous, weeks repeat and I can’t think of anything particular that really has been different. I struggle to remember things I really should. Idk

I pissed off a friend bc I called him out on making fun of someone we both know. I don't like said person, they're overall an asshole who acts superior to everyone, but I don't criticize him for the same thing as my 'friend' does. Our mutual is poor, and that's not his fault. It's one thing to say his personality is bad and he treats people unkindly, but it's another to mock him for needing rides bc he can't afford a car. (I too can't afford a car I just find a way to get to places myself without always relying on a ride. So this is personal to me). My 'friend' acts superior and better than everyone too, but somehow always hates when I call someone out for being a jerk or mocking someone when they don't know the whole story. I'm guilty of it too, but at least I'm able to apologize.

Therapy deniers when their adhd ruins their mental state to the point of being incapable of finding partner, due to their constant need of getting validation from different sources.