My parents gave me a tablet with 2 because I always cried and screamed the whole time, the first thing I did is coloring random drawings in an app, I don't really remember everything but when I was 6, I saw isabell from animal crossing doing a" QnA" or something, I was like "what's a QnA?, let's take a look! " when I clicked that..it's so disgusting so i won't explain it. i was interested for literally no reason, it always continued that I even grew up with it. I regret it. I literally hate myself of the top of my whole heart because of being weird. I didn't even stopped by 6 - 10 yo. I sometimes search disgusting things on Google but when I almost click on enter, I always throw my phone on my bed to stop it. that's why I sometimes wish I could die but I'm scared. I sometimes think I don't deserve to have a family, food, things I always wished for, a girlfriend, friends, almost everything. I don't deserve everything.
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Not trying to be gross but like my period is so bad. It’s to the point that I use like 5 nighttime pads a day and 2 super sized tampons. That shit lasts like 3 days and when it slows down and gets lighter I have to use 3 nighttime pads. This shit is torture to the point that I get light headed and lowkey sick everytime my period comes around. I don’t even want kids bro get these ovaries out of me!!
I'm struggling with mental health right now and I don't know where to start to be free. I asked people to help me to get out of it but they couldn't or didn't cared, i tried to explain my problems to my trusted friends but they get upset, not helpful enough and ignore me like I don't exist. Nobody cares if i cry and suffer in this world. So I asked my girlfriend to be my "Therapist". Everything was fine, I talked about my problems, she listened and comfort me like hugging me and telling me that everything is going to be okay but one day, my girlfriend got so upset that I She even sent me death threats and blocked me for a while only because i pushed my pressures to her. Now I have nobody to talk about my problems. I always overthinking "what did I do wrong? Why was I like that? Why am I so dramatic and and and..." my life is a knotted paper that can't be fixed. Never.
Yesterday realized I gained ten pounds and now got third place in the hog show and just genuinely wanna kms
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If you leave somebody a note, make it positive and uplifting. Not random unhelpful crap. Some of us are going through enough as is. What the fuck is wrong with people on here who do that?
I talk about what I go through. I get gaslit by fam saying otherwise defending the other person. I WOULDN'T FEEL HOW I DO IF I DIDN'T THINK THESE PEOPLE WERE IN THE WRONG OK?!! I received 2 seeming jabs by religious people this morning I don't think they should have said what they did. Ok. Fam is like "they're good people'. Obviously I know that, but you invalidated me. people do say thing's they shouldn't sometimes. It feels like it's attack me day tbh. If it's not that fam is irritable/edgy. I also get woke up by loud effing neighbors. So I havent slept good In a week plus thanks to those ghetto ass bunch who don't have the sense a donkey has. They're the type you'd probably see a tiktok of being a Karen at a McDonald's crashing out over a wrong food order being entitled and demanding. Sigh. It's so draining and frustrating.
I don’t know what I’m doing. I feel like I’m just spending every day worrying about the same shit, while refusing to do anything about it. I won’t take the jump and would rather just let things blow right past me and wallow in self pity after. I almost find some sort of enjoyment just being miserable and absent. I’m able to acknowledge it, yet refuse to do anything or tell anyone because it’d be too much of a hassle. It goes beyond just myself, into my relationships and every life. I let people who I really like pass me up because I’m too much of a coward to say anything. I do things last possible second and role over at the slightest bit of confrontation. I always end up saying sorry to people as soon as I get a bit of push back. I don’t know man I just feel like I’m letting my life pass me bye without doing anything. Days feel long and monotonous, weeks repeat and I can’t think of anything particular that really has been different. I struggle to remember things I really should. Idk
I pissed off a friend bc I called him out on making fun of someone we both know. I don't like said person, they're overall an asshole who acts superior to everyone, but I don't criticize him for the same thing as my 'friend' does. Our mutual is poor, and that's not his fault. It's one thing to say his personality is bad and he treats people unkindly, but it's another to mock him for needing rides bc he can't afford a car. (I too can't afford a car I just find a way to get to places myself without always relying on a ride. So this is personal to me). My 'friend' acts superior and better than everyone too, but somehow always hates when I call someone out for being a jerk or mocking someone when they don't know the whole story. I'm guilty of it too, but at least I'm able to apologize.
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Therapy deniers when their adhd ruins their mental state to the point of being incapable of finding partner, due to their constant need of getting validation from different sources.
Working on a data conversion and I have to deal with all these fucking Julian dates. For those unfamiliar they're the 4 digit year followed by the NUMBER of the day that year. So 12/31/2026 would be 2026365! Who the motherfuck thought this was a good idea?? Apparently Julius Caesar, since it's named after him. FUCK YOU Julius Caesar, you deserved to get knifed by the entire Roman Senate on the Ides of March. If YOU were "the noblest Roman of them all" then I shudder to imagine what the others were like. I'm GLAD Rome fell. Once more FUCK YOU Julius Caesar.
i hate how i can never control what piece of media i fixate on, like if i start fixating on something i cant just stop when said thing becomes problematic or if the fandom is weird, and i always feel really bad about it because sometimes i wonder if i make anyone uncomfortable with it… i never do anything weird, its just a fixation and try not to mention it too much because i know no one wants to listen to me ramble about the lore of a stupid stupid roblox game.. but they know i have a fixation on it… they know im part of the fandom… maybe that alone makes them uncomfortable around me… i dont even know why i tend to fixate on things so hard… and i dont think im neurodivergent, ive never been diagnosed, i just wanted to say that before someone might suggest it… and another thing is that i see this one ship as my fucking parents… they’re fictional criminals they’d hate me! and i legit see myself as one of my favorite characters, which is just stupid…
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Last night I cried so hard I couldn’t breathe and almost threw up. I don’t even know why, I have so much on my mind. I didn’t want to burden my friends with my problems, I don’t know how to talk about my feelings. I ruin all of my relationships, I feel like being groomed and SAd when I was so young has permanently affected and damaged my mind. I’m disgusting and filthy and I don’t know how to have normal relationships. I fall for almost anyone who gives me the slightest bit of attention knowing they don’t like me like that. I feel so empty inside, I have no passion or ambition to do anything. I’ve hardly gotten out of my bed for weeks, my hair is terribly matted, my sleep schedule is terrible, and I have no social life. I’m always sleeping or on my phone, I’m too scared to even go out in public. I finally cleaned my room but it made no difference in how I’m feeling, no one knows how I’m feeling. Everyone thinks I’m doing fine. Everyday I feel like I’m getting closer to killing myself.
I just failed a major exam. My scholarship depends on that exam. My family won't be able to afford tuition without it. We will probably have to borrow some money to our relatives.... I feel bad for my mom. She deserves a better daughter. I am physically shaking earlier when I received the news, its probably the first time I failed this badly. I don't know how to tell my mom. I can't get a job since my mom doesn't want me to. I also know I won't be able to handle being a working student. I'm not good at anything too.... They won't probably even check my resume. I wish I was smart and rich.
I do all of this to myself and I still have the audacity to feel bad and upset about it. I ruin every single relationship and friendship because for some reason I can’t even respond to messages half of the time. And yet I still want close relationships. I know I don’t deserve it. I don’t know how I can want to be around people and isolate myself at the exact same time. I just feel like an awful person, it feels like I annoy the friends I do still have. And I don’t know why I broke up with him, I felt like I still loved him and I still feel like I do. I want him back but I can’t express those feelings because I know he doesn’t feel the same. I did this to myself and it’s torturing me not being able to talk to anyone about it. I complained about him all of the time, I acted like he was annoying and terrible but now I realize it was me. I was the problem the whole time, I’ve always been the problem. I don’t know why I’m like this, I feel so empty inside.
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How dare you try to bully , silence and demean grieving parents who are trying to get answers about their SON unanswered murder. I hope u judges suffer worse than what they are sufferering how dare you question their motives and try to shame them for N family never back down i pray for your strength and let his killers come forward
Putang Ina! I feel like I have always been truly alone. I never felt like I was liked except for my Grade 4 teacher Ms. Aquilizan. My parents hate me, hate me being around. Like I repulse them with me just being there. They care about me and provide shelter and food and take care of me. Maybe they care about me or love me? But they don't like me. They hate me. They don't like hearing me talk or asking questions. So I just stop showing them that I am ever happy because I feel like deep inside they do not like seeing me happy and at peace.