i made the biggest mistake of my life. a month ago, i broke up with my boyfriend of two years. i did this because i was in a really bad space, and i thought that maybe it was the relationship that was draining me and making me feel so sad all the time. but over these past few weeks, i realized that i wasn't suffering much. because i had him. without him, i hate being sober. i just thought that maybe we wouldn't work out since im so independent and he wasn't my ideal type. everything he did annoyed me... he was so submissive and agreeing. i just wanted him to be his own person. but i miss him. i critiqued him so heavily when all i needed to do was stop expecting so much out of him. recently, he's shown signs of moving on. and i just can't let go. i miss him. i wish i couldve hugged him one last time or something. and we agreed to be friends, and idk how to just be friends with someone i loved for so long. i just want him back. hes my baby