I feel like I don't belong anywhere, in my friend group, school, family, nowhere. Im an agnostic, in an extremely religious household, i go to a school where most people believe that religion, and all my friends follow that religion aswell. My family would probably kick me out, socially ostracise me, disown me, or worse; kill me/marry me off. I hate how I have to pretend to follow a religion, just because i had the misfortune of being born in a certain area. I can barely go out, I have to cover my hair or else i'll 'never let out the house', im in a skin which doesn't belong to me. Whenever I vent to my friends about how strict my mum is (not that im an agnostic, im too scared..), they're so dry, they don't know what to say, only replying with 'damn' 'bruu' because they're so damn indoctrinated in the idea that religion can do no wrong. Bc for them it's 'perfect', and all the non-believers are js 'dumb and ignorant'. I feel so alone, i wanna leave this place so bad and never return.

Why does a lotta society think that men in feminine clothing is bad but women in masc clothes is good?? And those same people stand for “gender equaliry”, like hello?? if we just change the genders for an example, it’d sound SO like yk, saying “boys shouldn’t wear skirts/dresses” is the same as saying “girls shouldn’t wear pants/suits” but in the opposite gender, or smth like that? Why, society??

I fucking hate mormonism. I'm sick of it. I'm stuck in fuckass utah, 95% of my family is Mormon, and God they make sure I know it. It's been nearly a year since I've left that disgusting, vile cult and I'm going insane. I wish I could save my 2 younger sisters and just grab them by the shoulders and shake them and tell them that they're in a cult, and that life out here is so much better than they can comprehend right now, that they've been brainwashed for years, how eerily similar it is to the well known scientology cult, and that they need to R U N . And now, the cult leaders lately have been essentially telling the members that if they have a family member or loved one that's "strayed off the path", then they're(the members)aren't being faithful enough, aren't a truly devout member, and that if they truly fucking drown in all the teachings and doctrine and practices, then one day the "strays" will come back. I just want them to see outside. It hurts that I can't save them rn.