I’m ghosting my “friend” of 20 years and I don’t feel bad about it. It took me a long time and three therapists to get through that she is not a good person and certainly not a good friend. She does not care about me, sometimes I think she genuinely hates me. She isolated me from others, but slowly chipped away at my self-esteem - I was never good enough, she was always above me in everything, and I was just this awkward person she put up with… I carried that with me all my life, constantly doubting if people are just pretending to like me… but it was so hard to remove the past, those tiny fun moments I’d like to hope were genuine… I’ve made new friends now.. it’s hard as an adult but for the first time in 30 years I’ve experienced real friendship. It’s nice… I don’t regret this decision to finally breathe and shut out her noise. Life is far too finite to let toxic people use you to make themselves feel better. And trust that the people meant for you will find you.