Currently have a cold, feeling pretty useless. Still in school so it makes me feel even worse when I have to skip days and ask my friends for what we did. Obviously, I am not getting sick on purpose and I do try to work hard at school work, but missing one day makes me want to miss more, but I also don't want to bother my friends every time. Also took on an internship so I feel the need to be there every week. Just imagining the workload I missed makes me nauseous. I don't mean to be emotional but I can't help but cry, even when I'm mad and not necessarily sad. I can't help but think about how my teachers will react when I do go back to school. this rant is all over the place, www. Sometimes I just wish someone would ask me if I'm doing well on a random, normal Monday.