I have literally nothing. But I say this is a self aware way. I know better, I have a roof over my head, and food in my stomach, but a lonely life. My father is in jail, my mother, a psyche ward, my brothers homeless, and my sister,,, the outlier who had to leave to be the best she could be in her own place with her own family. I'm so, alone. The family build on trauma bonds that I grew up with, won't be there at my graduation that I will never have since I haven't left my house for classes for a year and a half. I'm so useless and lonely, and ugly, fat, and stupid. I have no redeeming qualities, and feel like a fraud online where I don't need to show my face. It just makes it so hard to choose not to self destruct even more.
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