Over the past few years of my life i have been debating on cutting all connections with my family and leave town and never EVER speak to them again. over the past few weeks have proven to me why i want to run away and take my two kids with me. All i ever do is show love and support but i don’t get that in return. what bothers me the most is how are you all going to be return/future missionary’s but so rude to people weren’t yall taught to express the words of god and to love one another. i gladly left that religion after high school because people don’t practice what they teach and it pushed me away. I guess you can say im still recovering from trauma everyone has swept under the rug. growing up i have never felt included in fact one of my cousins threw a birthday party and invited all the other cousins besides me, i was only fucking 9. nobody stood up for me because they all thought that it was just normal. i can’t believe i still talk to them til this day. it actually hurts a lot