Recent Rants
I cant stand useless advice. "don't give in to peer pressure" when they are really only talking about a specific type. They're talking about the kids who smoke and skip class. that's why the emphasize "good vs bad influence" they fucking KNOW there are good and bad types... but decide to lump them all into "peer pressure" assuming we'll choose the socially correct answer. "read between the lines" you can't do that if you don't have the experience to know where the lines are. "you'll know when you're older" what do you lack to be so incapable of explaining yourself? fucking experienced based advice given to younger gens doesn't work because it hinges on he fact THAT THEY KNOW THE ANSWER ALREADY. I point it out to them and they scrutinize me. I don't get how they lack the ability to see "if my advice relies on my personal experience with no outside info and will not be fruitful, then it's not real advice!" at this point their "advice" is a cliche you nod and smile to.
The world just lost Dolly Parton but we still have Lich McConnell and Mango Mussolini. When is it gonna be the day it happens already, huh?
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Im starting to think my first med provider dude was right about a mood disorder. But I also think he was wrong and that im just a fucking moron and piece of shit. That's what I know my family thinks. Ill just end up like the grandma I never met, a lunatic. Someone has to. They have to be the one for them to mention in passing, or reminiscing about the psycho. There will be no mention in their part about how the insane insecurity and narcissistic tendencies happened. "We just treated you like shit for years of your life, physically and emotionally abused you, but we were kids too!!! Mom and dad sucked, but it totally only affected us, which means we HAD to take it out on you!!! Why do you isolate?? Why are you always quiet?? Why do you act like a weirdo??" I don't like being this way. I do everything to conceal it. I still act cordial. But internally I hate them. And I hate how evil my thoughts get. I plan suicide internally for the sheer purpose of making them hurt. I dont deserve life
I hate my family so I don't know why I desperately want them to see me. Any time an issue had ever been brought up they look and act like I'm crazy or fucking stupid. Im supposed to just put my head down and be there. For awhile I was avoiding family functions. Partially for some dumb ass drama shit, that honestly im not innocent in. partially because I just didnt want to for everybody else too. I would periodically get someone acting confused or concerned. In my head all I could think was "shut the fuck up!!!" Because where is any of that when im isolated, ready to kill myself, being taken advantage of by a grown ass man. Maybe I take this shit too heavy, I don't know. I just hate being part of a big family unit. Maybe I'm insanely insecure, and I know I need to work on that. But where is the accountability for all the adults and older cousins, siblings who were complicit in helping build that? I was always just an autistic fucking loser for them to take out frustrations on
i cant bro i have been friends with this one girl for like quite sometime now and like i consider her my bestfriend (still). We used to be super close but like now we are lowk drifting apart and im not blaming her or anything but like recently we went to a party and like a bunch of our friends and us took a mirror selfie and like she posted it and im like half cropped out and when i confronted her she said that she didnt notice and she had zoomed in cuz the lower part of the mirror was dirty idk bro i feel really freaking bad about this :(
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can i feel jealous? to someone that more unfortunate from me but more get love by people? i forgot how it feels to be loved, i forgot to loved myself. i forgot how to loved again. alas, can i at least feels someone loving me? i'm tired of loving someone while no one loved me back. it exhausting, i want to feels too. am i not good enough? am i not work hard enough? am i not worth enough? am i not human enough? I need that embrace, my souls yearn for it, the warmth back like when kid. i feels lonely, someone help me, so tired, stop this, i want to disappear, kill me, stop it, no its not good, somebody save me, am i not good enough? im sane completely, oh forgive me, is there any change? its sooo noisy, shut up, ohhh wow this kid sulking again, no wonder no one love you, unworthy, i hope you disappear.
For fucks sake we are in someone else’s home. You are 18 now if you don’t like it. GET A JOB AND GET OUT. Stop acting like a child and grow tf up. You are so pathetic. I’m not helping you if your going to act like a baby.
why without pain it doesnt feel like love? im such a petty creature whenever im in love.
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i feels jealous over my friends, its like we opening a certain same shop, same dish, but well different signature and detail though. they shop is really did well while me so dessert. It feels like me a loser here, i want to taste it too, how it feels to taste some ripe fruit from my hardwork. i want to taste it too, some congratulations, some wins, some attentions. i am alive here why no one consider me even once? i want to make them feels jealous too just like me, that make their heart burn. But they are my friends, my best friends. idk if they consider me one too. But it feels like im the problem im the mistake. i... so frusrating. i cant even tell em how im feels, i can even tell how am i, no one ask, i want to be heard too, im tired. Oh God if i can destroy one things from me i want to destroy this feeling. it feels i unworthy for beng a human. Forgive me everyone. it just tiring when you cant shared your thought. im such a failure, am i?
bro im in a long ass car drive and I just leaked my period blood everywhere 2 hours in and im fuckig sitting in my blood rn. And my mom decided to tell me we have to go somewhere 5 hours away last minute and im on day 2 of my period. im gonna cry and she didnt even tell me how long we’re gonna be away and there’s no way i have enough pads to last me bro
If i dont like my job, what to do ? My job is associated with status related to and i m unable to do.
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Honestly I don’t know if I’d be a good boyfriend or husband or father but I’d try so fucking hard to make you loved and seen and the world would revolve around you
I want to date to marry as in let’s date for a while and maybe get married eventually when the time is right. I was contemplating other relational shit but I could never do it
We’re all sinners in our own ways. If you have sinned, so have I; Maybe that’s how we balance our existence. No one’s guilty, nor anyone’s innocent. If I wanted to, I would have, but I never did—and perhaps that is my answer. Maybe I knew the outcome, or maybe I was too consumed by fantasy to separate it from reality.