All Rants

You wouldn’t have to hang out with me all the time although I would always want to hang out with you

I have money it comes from my parents. We have wealth. I can provide financially. I’ll get a job next summer. Idk about the license. I’m sorry for whatever I did or said and however that impacted your feelings you know I didn’t mean to

I miss you a lot but I know you love to hang with other girls just for fun and attraction but you dont know how it feels from my end . I am tired of everthing in my life . Financially , Emotionally , Mentally and Physically. My thoughts are winning . I dont trust anyone . None at all .I miss coming to work and just seeing you . You are my happy place and I trust you . I know you get happy to see me too and you tell me If I am okay or not . I am struggling alot . I want someone to be my side and understand me rather than just judge me . I actually want to go somewhere and get lost. I want to get lost forever .I want to be a heartless person . I want to learn to let go the desire to be permanent in anyone life or in a person. I miss you a lot T . ALOT .

I am honestly bottling this up this world is so expensive and I’m just a stay at home mom with no income and my husband bares all this responsibility and I’ve been tempted to start a go fund me to help pay off student loan among other debts because I can’t do anything else and I feel like it’s all my fault and I don’t want him to think he isn’t enough I just want to help. I’m desperate to help my husband and take the load off him

Daveigh Chase, Hayden Panettiere, Dolly Parton, Tim Curry...all these good people taken so soon before the evil Donald Trump is. And while it's not like only good people have died this year--rest in pieces, Lindsey Graham--it still stings for sure. Frankly, with all that he's done, I can't wait for Donald Trump to die, which can't happen soon enough. Though, I wonder if God is letting him live just long enough for him to lose it all this November. Whatever the case, I will never stop praying day in and day out that this year, 2026, is his last alive.

Ok nvm. Bad timing zzzzzzzzzzzzz

I want to lay on your chest and hear your heart beat. Hold me with your big arms and make me feel safe and warm

I just want to make so much love to you

I just want to run my fingers through his hair and kiss him so much

I just need your warmth 😔 I just want to cuddle you bare skin

i really do hope he gets to have a project so that he will be the one to take the blame first if it happens

Chocolate makeouyt with you nnhhnnh

Tauba tauba tabahi tabahi I wanna do intense car seggs with you

I cant stand useless advice. "don't give in to peer pressure" when they are really only talking about a specific type. They're talking about the kids who smoke and skip class. that's why the emphasize "good vs bad influence" they fucking KNOW there are good and bad types... but decide to lump them all into "peer pressure" assuming we'll choose the socially correct answer. "read between the lines" you can't do that if you don't have the experience to know where the lines are. "you'll know when you're older" what do you lack to be so incapable of explaining yourself? fucking experienced based advice given to younger gens doesn't work because it hinges on he fact THAT THEY KNOW THE ANSWER ALREADY. I point it out to them and they scrutinize me. I don't get how they lack the ability to see "if my advice relies on my personal experience with no outside info and will not be fruitful, then it's not real advice!" at this point their "advice" is a cliche you nod and smile to.

The world just lost Dolly Parton but we still have Lich McConnell and Mango Mussolini. When is it gonna be the day it happens already, huh?

Im starting to think my first med provider dude was right about a mood disorder. But I also think he was wrong and that im just a fucking moron and piece of shit. That's what I know my family thinks. Ill just end up like the grandma I never met, a lunatic. Someone has to. They have to be the one for them to mention in passing, or reminiscing about the psycho. There will be no mention in their part about how the insane insecurity and narcissistic tendencies happened. "We just treated you like shit for years of your life, physically and emotionally abused you, but we were kids too!!! Mom and dad sucked, but it totally only affected us, which means we HAD to take it out on you!!! Why do you isolate?? Why are you always quiet?? Why do you act like a weirdo??" I don't like being this way. I do everything to conceal it. I still act cordial. But internally I hate them. And I hate how evil my thoughts get. I plan suicide internally for the sheer purpose of making them hurt. I dont deserve life

I hate my family so I don't know why I desperately want them to see me. Any time an issue had ever been brought up they look and act like I'm crazy or fucking stupid. Im supposed to just put my head down and be there. For awhile I was avoiding family functions. Partially for some dumb ass drama shit, that honestly im not innocent in. partially because I just didnt want to for everybody else too. I would periodically get someone acting confused or concerned. In my head all I could think was "shut the fuck up!!!" Because where is any of that when im isolated, ready to kill myself, being taken advantage of by a grown ass man. Maybe I take this shit too heavy, I don't know. I just hate being part of a big family unit. Maybe I'm insanely insecure, and I know I need to work on that. But where is the accountability for all the adults and older cousins, siblings who were complicit in helping build that? I was always just an autistic fucking loser for them to take out frustrations on

Ky$ You ruined the mood last time fk off

i cant bro i have been friends with this one girl for like quite sometime now and like i consider her my bestfriend (still). We used to be super close but like now we are lowk drifting apart and im not blaming her or anything but like recently we went to a party and like a bunch of our friends and us took a mirror selfie and like she posted it and im like half cropped out and when i confronted her she said that she didnt notice and she had zoomed in cuz the lower part of the mirror was dirty idk bro i feel really freaking bad about this :(

can i feel jealous? to someone that more unfortunate from me but more get love by people? i forgot how it feels to be loved, i forgot to loved myself. i forgot how to loved again. alas, can i at least feels someone loving me? i'm tired of loving someone while no one loved me back. it exhausting, i want to feels too. am i not good enough? am i not work hard enough? am i not worth enough? am i not human enough? I need that embrace, my souls yearn for it, the warmth back like when kid. i feels lonely, someone help me, so tired, stop this, i want to disappear, kill me, stop it, no its not good, somebody save me, am i not good enough? im sane completely, oh forgive me, is there any change? its sooo noisy, shut up, ohhh wow this kid sulking again, no wonder no one love you, unworthy, i hope you disappear.