All Rants

Why do people always hate on...everything? I left a comment on YouTube about some group comeback (A long time ago, i'm smarter now not to voice my stupid ass opinions) but basically the song to me..was not that good, and I was joking, "This is the worst song of the group so far" and oh..everyone came at me (Which I even liked that group LMAO) Stalked my channel, hated it, etc. Like I even learned my lesson, do NOT share your opinion, it doesn't matter okay. My point is that, people hate literally anything, but on a second hand, these people don't know you so if you have a similar experience, who cares yeah?? they don't know you so just go live ur life ig

i cant keep cleaning from cutting. nm how hard i try my bf always end up saying something ans my mind takes over and it just happens, and like im not trying to blame my bf, but.. im not saying its NOT his fault. 3 weeks clean gone to waste all because of him being sensitive over me hanging out with my moom and not picking up the phone. and then threatens me with breakig up then contiunes tio say "well i dont want to.." then stop threating me, hello ?! this is like the 3rd time hes threatened to break up over a small thing/mistake i did. idk what to do. i rlly love him but like, this sint good for my health.

Honestly, somethings I feel like my bf doesn't love me, well ik he does, i think?, but likei feel like sometimes hes just with me for the fun of it, or just using me for his own satisfactory. i mean ffs, half the time we talk, all hes talking abt is me sucking his dck. or wanted to fck, and a few other freak shit. we're both minors, and no matter how many times i tell him im not ready he still asks & gets upset when i say no. & like i genuinely love him, and i dont wanna break up with him, & like minus all the freaky sht, hes a great guy, he has the best personality, and just a overall goofy guy. that's why i fell in love with him. it's just hes a bit of a sensitive guy, and he'll start fights over the smallest things, and I'm tryin my best to not give up on him, cuase hes going through alot that i will not share. but like i dont know how much longer i can keep this up. i love him. and i dont want to lose him, but idk how to talk to him without him stating a fight. help.

I just wish people would take a hint or at least try to notice me.

I relapsed today and I’m so mad at myself. I just needed to fill in the empty space with more and more scars. I need to stop cutting but I don’t want to.

my parents found out about me cutting myself and they are supportive but it all feels weird. i mean the way they found out was going thru my phone which they never do and now everything seems just weird with them. worst of all is its made everything worse and i cut myself harder and deeper than ever.

The thought I failing or getting low marks in finals chokes me..I can feel my depression kicking in I just want to end me or this But I won't because I believe I can do this with enough hardwork and dedication.But just for now my head hurts and I feel terrible and exhausted.

43 years later and that one comment I made still gets brought up every so often. Two of them actually, in rotation. When will he let it go?!?!

I made flowers for Mother's day and sold them all. Now my body aches like crazy and I don't have a mom to take care of me and it's sad to think about it.

I'm grateful in the life I have now, but there's an unsettling feeling that always creeps me out. I'm drowning in debt, can't make the best decision for myself, I feel like no matter what I do I would always fck my life up. I'm Tired and I do not know or understand myself anymore.

Literally can't fucking win for losing today. Everything in every way I get attacked by family or asses in public. Wtf did someone put a fucking hex on me OR WHAT!? IVE NOT FUCKING DONE NOTHING TO NOBODY I LITERALLY BOTHER NOBODY AND KEEP TO MY OWN SELF FOR FUCKS SAKE. my family won't stop treating me awful despite me being nothing but good to them. Why just why? I get the blame for everything and or nobody wants to own up to their shit and apologize for it and i get told "let's all try to get along now". IF IT WASN'T FOR BULLSHIT BEING MISTREATED , AWFUL TONES AND ATTITUDES AND OTHER FAMILY ABUSING THEIR OWN MEDS AND TURNING AROUND WANTING MY OWN BECAUSE THEY'RE OUT SUPER EARLY.... THEY'RE WOULDN'T BE NO PROBLEMS!!!!!!!!!!? YET IM THE PROBLEM IF I SPEAK UP FOR MYSELF AND VOICE MY FEELINGS AND THE DRUG ABUSER WON'T GO GET HELP ITS THE SAME OLD FUCKING SHIT. IM SO OVER IT. don't start nothing huh? Says the instigators who won't own what they do anr blame me for their behavior fml

my mom is cheating on my dad with multiple men, i’m arab so it’s not physical cheating but she’s talking and goes out w multiple men, not only one. it’s killing me, i’m the only one who knows, how? i went thru her phone msgs, she deletes them but i caught it multiple times, even sending pictures that i dont know the content of them, and that scares me. my dad is out of the country, that’s what makes it easy for her, i’m not even close to my dad so if i tried to tell him he’ll prolly brush it off or thonk i’m a liar so i dont know what to do but it’s draining the life out of me. i hate cheating, and i’m scared i get cheated on, i’m a one guy girl, even talking w sm1 else feels wrong to me, i’m scared her behavior might somehow get to me and change how i think, and make me normalize it and hurt my future partners.

i lost 13 friends.. 4 came back.. but i made a promise with someone not to selfharm but i broke the promise and did it anyway..

i hate how my anger gets to me, it’s so tiring, i’ve tried every single method to try and atleast minimize the effect but with no success. it’s killing me, especially when i take it out on my siblings, they don’t have angry or abusive parents, yet they have an angry older sister that they have to deal w her bullshit every day, hearing her yell and lash out on everyone whenever the slightest mistake happens, id loterally do anything for it to stop i hate myself for it and i dont even know where i got it from, both my parents are chill af, it’s so confusing and frustrating

I really just hate how little I matter or how little others care about me. Have you ever felt that way? Trying to be the best you can be, but no matter how hard you try no one ever notices or appreciates it? I worked hard to get the achievements I've gotten, yet I always find someone better than me or happier than me. I try to feel important to my friends and my family, putting in my best and my attention and I get nothing in return. Sure, I don't expect anything in return, but I deserve a little appreciation or gratitude. Not only is my school life just hell, but my friends make it harder. I try to plan something fun and then all hell breaks loose and I get my hopes up and end up canceling the plans. I do something special for their birthday and they won't even do the same for mine. I feel second best compared to all my friends. Why can't I feel important for once? Why can't I feel smart or pretty or appreciated? I wish I could just be good enough.

Fucking hate my stypid body. I hate how ugly and unattractive my body looks. It doesn't even match me. I'm so fucking fat and ugly and i was born of a wrong fucking sex. I hate absolutely fucking everyone, all of my classmates suck ass, they're all veey lucky to be this normal and happy and not suffer on the daily from being fucked up in the head. I should've been born with a different body, different personality, in different country, in a different family... Everything is wrong with me and my stupid, pathetic, miserable life. I sometimes regret not sticking through with killing myself. Even though i tend to think I've gotten better, my mental health hasn't significantly imporved. It's really just pure suffering. I have no good irl friends, 1 singular online friend, but i still feel like they don't care much about me or that if i act too much like myself they will hate me or leave or feel uncomfortable for some reason i don't know. I hate everything so much, i wish it could be better

no one likes me. i swear. my one friends is completely fake, i mean like she talks to me about some one thengoes to them and is completely fine. every other one of my friends just bullies me. i try so hard to been see a s human but i'm just a joke. i'm so scared that they talk about me like everyone else. i hate it so so so much. i want to have a friend that i'm not fucking afraid of.i want to be a human too, they don't see me like that. i'm not supposed to be on the same levels as them, and that does so so much to me. i can't stand it, i want friends but i want people who treat others like humans at the are minimum

I wanna jump from the highest building on my town, or to fill the bathtub and cut my wrists in it. I am alone, I have nobody, I’m going to do it. There’s no room for light in my life, I am trapped in a deep and dark cesspool. I’ve touched rock bottom and I am ready to die.

I hate socializing and public speaking!! My friends and family and classmates say "its not that hard to speak infront of people" yes it is!! Its super hard to talk to people! Even if I have known them for years!! I have severe anxiety and I hate it! I've been taking depression medicine which kind of helped but I still cant do presentations and order my own food at a restaurant ughhh....

okay so its been a month since he said "yeah" when i asked him if he didnt wanna talk on the bus anymore. in this entire month, my biggest fear is that i porbably did not cross his mind like at all. His eyes are so cold whne i look at him, and i dont even think he cares about how much he affected me, and how much i would cry sobbing in the bathroom in the hallways in the room all alone, i coundlt sleep eat do anything, i had no motivation i was a shell of what I used to be. It pains me so much, thinking that I was nothing for him, and he left me in such a harsh way I was so unprepared for that. i just want closure, i want closure for that. I wan thim to scream in my face that he hates me so i can move on. but i still love him. I desrve that much at least. I want a proper goodbye. there is SO MUCH UNSAID between us. bryfewiodwijeoo. i feel like a loser venting this out, but omg that hurt so much. hell know this is him when I ask this. hey, hows shadow doing?? Is she good? Troll Emoji