All Rants

What does it mean when a full on gay guy holds a females hand and says “if I were bi curious I’d date you”. Ok so what happened was my friend went a concert with her coworker/friend and he said this to her and she thought it was a compliment so she smiled at him. After he stopped trying to hold hands and was weird with her for a few days. After they fought at work and he’s been a jerk and showing others their private convos to everyone to make them all hate my friend. My friend did try to fix the situation privately but he’s been bringing all the employees and his friends into this now. He even called her a weird a** b*tch that she’s pathetic etc. now it’s been a week they haven’t spoken. She’s upset as she considered him a little brother and he basically back stabbed her. I’m thinking it has to do something with what he said at the concert. What are your thoughts?

I’m too tall I stand out everywhere and I have come to know throughout my life that everyone likes the shorter ones better, they are more cute and I’m just a monster. It’s the only thing people mention about me and not any of my cool achievements, I feel so awkward all the time with other people my age and too intimidating to make any friends. I’m just a loser outcast never meant to fit in with anyone. Also I’m not blonde with blue or green eyes so I’m just a basic person with a monstrous body that nobody in this society will find interesting or attractive but just an outcast to be made fun of and for others to be grateful that they don’t look like me. I also don’t have a fun personality, I’m not athletic, and I’m naturally a quiet kid so that also makes me more of a loser to other people. I feel like I was never meant to be apart of this world because I don’t seem to fit in or be genuinely liked anywhere physically and personally.

I fucking can't deal with one of the friends sometimes because she constantly gets in everyone's love lives. I've had to deal with the fact I temporarily have to break up with my partner until things are better with their parents and she's all like "A little birdy said that your relationship when splat last night", like I'm sorry, but what?? And then she told me that apparently my partner actually broke up with me because they like someone else, which I doubt, but she told someone else before telling me. Like even if it's true, which I don't believe one bit, why didn't she tell me first, instead of telling me midday and our friend before. The worst part is, is that she gets in everyone's love life, not just mine and she isn't even fucking dating anyone and it's not like I tell tell her to stop because she'll be like "Alright, I just wanted to tell you, don't get so angry", like I'm going to be angry because they would tell me the truth if they liked someone else, instead of lying to me

im so tired with my life. i dont know how much more i can take to be honest.

Something really embarrassing happened on the bus ride home to me and i can't stop thinking about it

My mom wil finally now get the lifr she always wanted. With my step dad and without us. I really hope she doesn't abandon me for him, but.it might happen. That was her biggest wish growing up.

Charlie my life feels meaningless and so dull. It doesn't help that I have no one to talk to honestly including my family. I feel so trapped and sad. My life is good just my emotions kill me sometimes. I hate being this way. Im glad you understand

Dear Charlie, Thankfully its been a while since we last talked but I am going through some things. My mon suggested that I start driving again and I told her financially its not possible. Where I live I can take the but rent prices are really scaring me. My mom has never really wanted to teach me how to drive and has always shifted the blame to someone else so I never got the practice I really needed. But I fear that is why she has been so mean when she comes out to see me. She is usually in a very angry mood and never wants to eat with me. I wonder if she has run out of patience for me. But she is all I have. I work a lot and dont have solids friends, a boyfriend or family close by. I feel really abandoned and like a disappointment. If i was more independent would she like me more? Would we actually eat together? Charlie, i am an adult but I feel so alone. I feel like my mom is trying to subtly push me away when all I want is closeness. But it might never happen

bro i cant anymore, everyday my online "friends" always do what they want, whenver they want, and when i try doing something they always scream at me, they can obviously sing and scream in call, but when i try to even mumble a song they always scream at me and kick me out, what did i do to get this treatment? also they are doing all their projects without me, i should focus more on my animating work, and get back to my old friends, or stay with them, bcs they were good until 2 months ago, its like they all hate me, even when its not me im always the first to get picked for who made trouble and the last to get picked out of friendship closeness...

Im a big kid. I know that I am 5'6 and 164 pounds. I don't like that fact in fact I try changing everyday only to be called "fat" and "big dog" boys throw stuff at me, girls stand and stare as if I was some monster put on display. this is hurting my mental health everyday. I am trying i wish people would notice..

Every where I vent seemingly there's some immature asshole tries to invalidate me or put me down for what I'm going through. Im having it hard ok? Don't make things any worse for me. My situation is overwhelming to the point I considered suicide this morning. But some shitty little keyboard warrior troll had to try and further bring me down. Thanks a fucking lot douche. A LITTLE KINDNESS GOES A LONG WAY YOU KNOW. fml everybody is attacking me right now and I've done nothing wrong. Is that it!?you all would just rather me fucking die?! I've literally had enough.

Nowadays, support teams talk a lot about having me incarcerated. I avoid them while my dad covers for me. I resent my dad for his ill treatment, but his resentment is understandable; I'd also mock an autistic child of my own out of anger. It's necessary. I'd have wasted my life, my joy and wellbeing, on a spoiled and entitled autistic brat who can't even tie his own shoelaces, who won't even leave the house to talk to people without having a fit, who pretends to read and understand philosophy just to look mentally independent to an invisible tribunal that will never be satisfied.

I was born with a severe learning disability that held me back throughout school. Since I have only the basics in regards to reading and writing down, people often dismiss my condition and downplay my experience. I've faced a lot of toxic positivity over the years when my experience just can't be the same as neurotypicals. Personally, I blame class difference, but I never feel educated enough to say. I'm treated as a troll whenever I open up to people online, though I genuinely had to face support workers every day in school. I couldn't even assist myself with going to the bathroom. I felt suicidal because I knew I was missing out as a teenager. I was bullied, only had acquaintances out of necessity who all ditched me because I made them look bad. They had to deny any contact with me, even to this day. I have helpers who don't understand me, they're only there because of pity and the desire to look good. I know I'm a burden, I was treated for violent tempers and an inability to learn.

38yo single father to a boy six months old. She dumped me (and the kid and all her responsibilities) 8 weeks after giving birth. She said "This is too much" and just left. So im raising him alone, he is a sweet kid and we manage allright. My aunt can watch the baby 1 eve/week so i can go out with my friends and have a couple of beers (my parents are dead, my sister doesnt care - thats all the help i can get). I met this girl, we talked, explained 100% honestly my situation and "Oh this is so sweet" and she agreed to a date. Turns out she was sent by my ex to check on me, she dropped the "just a couple of months and going out with other girls" line. This really made me sad and angry. What the hell, you dumped everything and now you stalking? To what depth is she gonna go to jeopardize my life?

I have to take an ambulance, and I am still dealing with it nearly 5 months later. This is an amount of money I don't have. First, the ambulance company misspelled my name and didn't have my insurance on file. Then they somehow filed with the wrong company, and then changed the amount, so my claim was canceled. Then I got a check from my insurance company, and I was like, great, all done, except they canceled the check and then denied my claim. Then I was told that the insurance company had canceled my claim, but for some reason, my insurance account still looks like I need to pay. I have insurance, this should not be this hard, the ride is in network and covered by my plan, this fucking bullshit.

pls js kill me. i can't do this anymore..

hey stranger (vevahawtbabe), i miss you and i hate this feeling this feeling that eats me alive slowly and making suffer everyday. i see you are happy with someone else na and i dont wanna be selfish trying to ruin your peace so i tried so hard to stay away and not contacting you. but i know what we had was real, our love may be hard but i know it was real you were like a fresh soft daisy that softly landed on my hands but that freshness and softness didnt last long, i took advantage of your purity and genuine feelings, i was scared and young afraid of commitment and still committed i made you confused. you were the first and last man ill ever love, you left me felt like a part of me is also gone. i hate this feeling of missing you knowing you'll never comeback and i know our family will never approve of us. i really miss you what is this feeling vro why why whyy???? how could you give up on us so easily? how could you replace me so easily like our memories and promises meant nothing.?

It's hard being the eldest one. It's hard being the eldest one in a barely surviving household. It's hard cause my mother leans on me, my father leans on me, my sibling leans on me. That leaves me to nothing, I need to handle all their baggage while my own is in chaos. I need to stay strong cause if I broke down, chaos it is. It's hard, it's draining, it's frustrating. Even if I want to have someone I can lean to, I'm afraid I will only be passing my burdens to them. I don't want to be a burden. Trust issues, commitment issues, manipulative, liar, etc. you can brand me like that, but know that I can't help it if ever since I was a child, I'm slowly lifting this family up. Fuck, I don't usually say it but fuck it. Fuck this life. I just wanna be successful so fast so I can somehow breath. I want to escape but I can't now. Yahhh it's hard to stay composed when all the things I've been keeping shut is slowly showing.

So yahhh, it's too heavy and I just wanna let it all out that's why I'm here. I'm currently looking for a company for my internship, I found a great one after all the efforts I've put in. However, as much as I want to have my internship there, my family is nowhere near to afford my expenses even if it's just outside our province, like one jeep and tricycle travel only. I know my parents can't afford to give me atleast 250 pesos everyday. The possible transport expenses is 150 and since it's away from home, I need pocket money for lunch which is 100 pesos only. I feel like just thinking about wanting my internship to be outside of my hometown is too much, like I'm really asking for too much. I've been in my hometown since nursery until now, College student. I have somehow a strict parents so I'm able to away from my hometown not too often. I really wanna explore but yahhh, it's too much to ask knowing my status.

I really want to know what I did wrong....I was already feeling crappy after getting off of work at 10:30 and not being able to find my mom a gift for mothers day so my dad got upset with me, we did get some cards and flowers for her, I also made her my own card so I didn't go to bed until 1 am. I had some crazy dreams like those dreams where you think your up in real life but your not, yeah those. And so my dad ended up waking me up at 1 pm, I got up and washed my face and brushed my teeth, and then I see them, my mom, dad, and two younger brothers (which it's also one the my brothers birthday aswell) and they get oin the car and leave, they always leave me, I thought they would wait for me to come out like they usually would or loop around and pick me up...but they didn't so I sat looking all dressed up...alone...for 5 hours as they were out of town...I really thought they would come back for me...I was stupid...I texted and they never answered. They came back like everything was ok.