Recent Rants
One particular popular bully kept a record of my behavior from a year ago to torture me with. He posted about how I'm only faking the image of a melancholic and an intellectual, how I'm dependent on everyone else's love because I can't create anything original. I'm not into academia, I regret ever giving the impression that I was, but there's nothing I can do around pretentious wannabe academics but suffer and write the next piece for myself, whether it follows their ideology or not.
My problem is being more approachable in the first place. I'll stop before I get sadder.
Lately I'm tempted to drink again. I've been sober for...I think all year but like yeah the stress just really makes me miss it. Last year the stress broke my sobriety but at least it wasn't bad and I was able to stop fast. Sigh I hate my life there's like a 8 page essay of shit I don't like about my life
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I have like a million things to rant about now that I have a place to do it but I don't know how to talk about any of it. Like there's no way to phrase any of of my current problems, trauma, and things I've been struggling with for a while. I don't want to be too nsfw in any way, or phrase how I personally deal with things without sounding like I'm on sort of some fuckass high horse. I feel like ranting about my problems will make me more alien then I already feel. And it feels like I'm bothering people EVEN THOUGH IM USING THIS SITE AS INTENTED. All I can do is complain about short term problems that's don't even matter in the long run. And I don't know where to file some stuff which is so small and stupid but ITS JUST ANOTHER THING TO DEAL WITH RAGHHH
I might have fucked up and went on another person's side then actually looking at the big photos bc the second friend seems like a jealous ex and obsessive towards the other person. And yeah the other person sucks and had allegations but I do miss them lowkey and I lost friends and no one rlly trust me anymore and it sucks but at the time it felt right especially to show that the ex was kinda gross and weird. Idk I'm conflicted asf
To my follow up message about kink. I dont know, I'm still not able to find anyone to work with or if I do I cant stick the landing, I end up being stuck in a lot of frustration and all I get is depressed.
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god it rlly is what he said / she said and I'm so tired of it ! I don't wanna be mean and tell the person to please stfu about the matter but I'm so tired of hearing about it holy moly! It's done and over with and I just wanna move on from this bullshit. Yeah they sucked I get that but you keep fueling the flames and asking me to talk to them and relay messages like i don't care about the situation anymore !! I'm not going to keep the drama up !! Leave me alone holy fuck !!! I don't mean to be nasty or mean but it rlly feels like an obsessed ex and idk how to feel about it man :/
Uber got my order wrong again today. Its like i wamt to say the 13th or 14th time something is wrong with my order. Itd so bad i tried instacart for a while but i have same type of issues there. Im so tired of having to reach cistomer service.
Jerk grass cutting company knocked over bird food thing i had account again. Thats the 2nd time now. I veey clearly have a note says do not touch or i will sue you. This is only 2 complaints out of several other issues i have with this company. Its taken everything in me to not write complaints
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It's just best to keep shit to yourself. All I wanted to do is make my life better. I wanna move into a nice place like everybody else and decorate my house nice too. I want to upgrade my car too. I know everything takes time but I don't mind that. I just need motherfuckers to stay out my business and my way and help me with their kids that they helped make; instead of worrying about what I'm doing and who I'm doing it with. but it all good. i'm elevate.
I manifested the job and schooling, just to immediately start stressing. Like damn, when I wasn't doing anything with myself or working, I was calmer. The minute I start picking my life up; everything else starts crashing. One of my car tires is wobbly, kids always crying, power in the town I stay in keeps going out every day, so I can't even do my school work. I just started working so I have to wait 2 to 3 weeks for a check. Gas empty and I can't drop a class because it will mess with my pell grant and shit. Like damn. If this is what it takes to get to the top, I don't think I want it for real LMAO. Now I'm going to continue to work, but as far as school, I don't know. I also feel like I need to keep my mouth shut whenever I do get good news because I have to remember not everybody want to see me win or pass them up. I feel like the minute I told a certain family member about all my good news, she started wishing bad shit on me. And I know that sounds crazy, but even my sister agree
I know im a narcissist. My therapist said I can't be since a narcissist would never admit it. But deep down I know. I'm a soul stealer, an absolute vampire. But I don't want to stop. Why so many excuses, so much empathy for the person, people, that spent a lifetime up until now making me feel small? Like nothing I experienced matters? But they need to make it known how big their issues are. How they suffered as kids, how much of a waste of time I am. I did a terrible thing, when an adult family member was struggling. It was a struggle I can say they helped create for themself. But I wanted them to drown. Be abandoned. I was abandoned more than once. By them, by other people. I struggled, completely isolated. For years. Instead, it was fine for me to be used. Taking my space and time, even when I asked them not to. I was always just steamrolled over. But I get nothing. Me acting out is a ME problem. Obviously no one helped facilitate that. All me. I'm a fucking demon. And should die.
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Tw cussing My fucking parents have been being discriminatory to me this entire time and I had zero clue until recently and now they’re acting like I’m the villain in the story. All, because I want my freedoms. Context I I have high functioning autism and I’m on the spectrum but according to my parents that just means I’m difficult when it comes to things that related to those traits. Now, my recently they’ve been getting more physically aggressive with me over my phone all because sometimes I will not hand it over because I’m still texting someone in fact, they restricted text messaging so I can’t even text someone if I’m having a hard time. My parents have also ignored me when I was going through a mental struggle. They don’t respect that I’m trans and they certainly do not respect that. I am on that spectrum it’s fucking annoying
To the person who replied to the kind minded thing. Its nice you say that, but im maybe hyper wired for it with zero outlet and it just makes me feel like a creep... thats my issue.
Why did i have to be so kink minded? Im lonely enough trying to find a regular hobby group.