All Rants

My god my family is up my ass listen I do really love them but can’t they stop bugging me I understand spending too much time on phone is bad I really do we’ve been at this for like years but why do they keep threatening me to send me back to my home country I don’t hate it but it’s unnecessary I only failed once in my college exams and I still have a makeup (wish me luck) and am studying for it right now so I can do better but they keep bugging me on the phone omg I get it but let me just enjoy this dam vacation I swear they ain’t better they keep making fun of at my hobbies telling me am not grown or well I ever grow? This is one of the reason why I don’t talk with them much. I still love them but dam they’re annoying I just wish they stop threatening me and they’re also serious about this they said they’ll give me my final chance but the chance didn’t even come and still nagging me. Thank you all for listening it’s just dam annoying that’s all have a good day

If my best friend dies then how will I ever make it? Cancer is cruel. Please pray for her

I’m sorry. I lead you on from my side too. I pretended to be jealous when I already had another man. I was being a selfish little jerk too We are all sinners

living with a narcissist is truly not for the weak they internalize me for their ‘incompetent’ relative, just bcs we are related. they would judge me the same way they judge their relative, even when were doing the opposite things, just continue to discriminate n hate bcs theyre stressed of being financially irresponsible, ironic thing is they also depend on their ‘incompetent’ relative to grow their career. im j rlly terrified of i think how much they internalize me w their relative to the point where when they told me to lose body weight is it bcs they wanted me to be like their relative? i feel like im walking on eggshells everytime im near them, no matter what i do it just depends on their mood if theyre fine or angry, i cant escape. they wont listen to anything good, they just want a reality thats benefiting them, even if its a fantasy

sometimes life is unfair… u treat people right, they just play with ur feelings. a random night, random cool off haha what was that? just because you know how much i beg and look like stupid when it comes to those things, you could easily decide whenever you want and just hurt me whenever you want. i’m so tired. just tired.

i know i made this post earlier today but it's dawned on me now school is tomorrow the same hellhole that was a huge portion of the reason why i was suicidal especially with the pressure placed on me and where grades are starting to actually matter along with my other issues and my mental disorder i feel so unbelievably stressed at even just the thought of it i don't want to go back there not again not in a million years can someone comfort me please? all this pressure is really getting to me r.s

My family don't want to understand me, and everyone in my life is distant, busy, or not reaching out any more. I get that my sadness is too much, but this distance is worsening and I can't fix it. I don't have the power and the loneliness I feel is worsening. If being an adult means this is the emptiness that constantly happens then I can't continue like this any more.

UNBELIEVABLE, I REALLY MARRIED A BOY! I REGRET IT NOW. I WAS SLEEPING SO WELL. IT'S MY FAULT. I'M THE ONE AT FAULT... NO MONEY. NO SEX. NO LOVE FOR ME. I just wish for someone to come to comfort, love, and provide for me. I'm not hard to love. My in-laws love me so much. Why is it that he doesn't love me? It's all my fault. I'm the one at fault for everything.

i just wanna put a rope around my neck and tug tight

my mom threatens me to punch my face and now she's saying sorry it's all because my little brother

I feel stressed about my school works, my overwhelming practices, and my pervert dad. If only I'm dealing with school and practices only I'd be glad but dealing with a deadbeat perverted dad is unbearable, I wish mom would finally came to her senses and divorce him.

my first post on here was about how i psyched myself out of cutting little did i know Id start a week later aha 😂😂 i wanted to stop for felix i promised myself i would but i cant seem to stop he encourages me to vent to him but i cant say anything else except an im ok now because what would i even vent about and even if i did why should i make it his problem i lied about forgetting to throw away my razor to him knowing damn well i havent stopped i wanted a therapist because the only person i felt safe to talk to was myself but now it feels pointless to get one id probably start crying like a bitch if i started talking to someone else about it in person theyd probably tell me how to get better and i dont think i want to i just want to stay like this nothing is even wrong with my life im just dramatic i do it to myself atp i live in a nice home with average parents and a brother and friends nd a bf idk why i feel this way someone shoot me please omfg

Dear Bruce, I need to be honest and clear. I’m going to marry another man in a few months. I do love him, and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. All of this was just trying to fill the void and nothing else. I knew there was no future for us. I don't think we’d click well as friends either. I’m sorry if I let you down and I thank you for things where you helped me out with. Love, X

It’s okay. Everything will be alright.

Yep. I have fallen for the quiet, beautiful nerdy girl who happens to just given birth to her second child and it’s the wife of a military man. Fucking great..

i strive for the day im brave enough to go deeper #missingmyrazor😂😂😂😂👌

I can’t stop eating spicy foods but now I think I’ve permanently damaged my asshole. Feels like a fire breather is spitting nonstop up my brown eye.

I don’t see myself living pass 18 again. I feel fucking miserable especially after my bsf killed himself. Idk how to tell my bf and my other bsf how I feel I feel awful about it but maybe it’s best they don’t know so I don’t worry them, I feel like I’m gonna puke. My arm is covered in cuts and I still feel like it’s not enough I need more

It’s alright. I wasn’t sure about any of this. Plus, my marriage is already settled with someone else. He’s a nice guy. We went on a few dates and clicked well. I was just trying to fill my void with you or maybe we are all sinners. I wish the best for you and I hope things work out for you in real life - x

im tired im lucky incredibly lucky im jsut selfish