All Rants

Im 30 and I'm nowhere close to getting married or having a family and its filling me with so much despair and sadness. I dont think it will ever happen

See I could dress nicer and do my hair and wear makeup and take care of my body but then what would even be the point my boyfriend wouldnt care either way. I'm not beautiful to him Im just average Im ugly he never shows me affection or desire unless I explicitly ask for it and even then its lame and it sucks. I hate this I hate. how he treats me I hate how worthless I feel when Im with him and I know its my fault because Im depressed and miserable and insecure and I've put all fo that on him and as previously mentioned I dont care for myself so how COULD he be attracted to me? Im literally so fucking ugly and nothing about my body is special

Im so glad you miss me too thank you so much for texting me and telling me how you feel about me all the time. I totally never feel like you dont care about me or are annoyed by me constantly and never want to talk to me. Love all of the thoughtful things you totally say unprompted

I am sick of the company I work for. They constantly dock my pay for no reason, they spell my name wrong even though I've been there 8 months now. Now to top it off they're complaining about when I clock in and out. I've had enough which is why I put in 2 applications for work elsewhere and those places pay more.

It feels like my boyfriend isn't and has ever been sexually attracted to me no matter what I try or say or ask he never seems "in" to it or into me and it makes me feel so so ugly and worthless and undesired. We've been dating for 4 years and he'll leave my sexts on read and just not respond until I double-text again. He's always distracted always unfocused always doing something else he never has the time or headspace for me. I feel like a burden on his life and the things he actually wants to do. I dont think he's attracted to my body or loves me it's just convenient for him to date me because Im patient and helpful and clean up after his messes all the time. I'm just his maid. I dont mean anything to him and I feel stuck because I have no money and am relying on him for support. And even if I got a job I've never been able to work fulltime so I'm just stuck with someone who doesnt even love me never wants to fuck me and is happiest playing MtG in a pigstye with all his friends.

Ok lore drop on march 10th i tried to kms and bc of that, my dad got arrested, my mom and stepdad dont trust me, and i was impatient for 12 days and in php for a month and now im in iop. Im really trying to be grateful and learn to love life again but its so hard when everyone around me is so mentally unwell and bad stuff keeps happening. My stepmom has practically disowned me, my friends are all at war, my family is crazy poor and its all my fault, my mom keeps going out drinking, and my dog is about to be put down in 2 hours. And ive relapsed on selfharm for the first time in 75 days. I really wish it was summer already so i at least wouldnt have to stress about school. I have too much to think about i really wish i didnt have to think anymore. 16 years old btw its is NOT that important bro chill out

i don’t know whether to turn christian and religious or kill myself.

Why you think everything is going to go ok starting out the day. Then your motivation gets derailed. Dog doesn't want to mind on a walk. That's usual but not normally to the degree it was today. Drama from fam. Sigh geez. Then there was blaring dads mouth this morning like coming from a megaphone. I hope it goes better from here.

I felt like we are wasting each other's time, just because I do not see any concrete plan on my partner's side. All my life I've been told to plan ahead of time, if plan A is not enough, I have to have a plan B or how many possible plans I need. Now I have a timeline that I have set for my self, but I can't just force my partner to meet it. They told me that I might've been pressuring them but damn, what should I do if all I see is nothing but freestlying to whatever they have.

I wish I was with my mom and brother on heaven and not here on earth hurting by the emotional damage I get from my father from those painful words

why can’t i just look the way i want and love who i want to

im 25, jobless, living with my ex boyfriend that dumped me 3 hours ago, still grieving the death of one of my best friends, i dont leave the house, my car is broken down, if my ex kicks me out i have nowhere to go because of a dumb eviction i had years ago all bc of one of my exes (long story), everything feels like its crashing all around me. my family barely even sees me as their daughter, they already replaced all the pictures of me around the house with pictures of the exchange student they took in after i moved out. i have nothing, i dont know what to do and i dont know if im gonna be okay. its hard to want to try getting better when more and more shit just keeps piling. im so tired.

I lost my soul in thinking I could fill up other bodies to be loved.

I envy people who get to try to create their own problems if they don’t have any. he’s getting bad again. I keep getting flashbacks of everything that happened to me. Exam period is coming. I’m scared, even though i go through this every year. Last January i tried to kill myself, but i stopped because i realized my grandma was still awake. she scolded me for not sleeping and i js felt selfish. Selfish that i still had people caring for me and still wanted to die. I decided to live, even though i was going thru a lot, i want to be an author. I want to be a psychologist. I want to do journalism. I want to spoil my grandparents. I don’t want to die over an abusive dad that nobody in my house likes. I’m trying not to get scared everytime i cone back from school and hear him upstairs. I’m trying not to instinctively run every time i hear footsteps upstairs

it's getting hard to love my parents and it's scaring me 😂

I'm not even in my mid-twenties and I already feel senile and lame. Problems arise that shouldn't even be problems, tripping over the bookcase again. It shouldn't have to affect me, and there's no sympathy from anyone else as things are.

i miss my ex boyfriend even though i’m with a person i really love now. i think i’m stalking him… not irl, he lives 16 hours away. i just don’t know what to do with myself. one little thing causes a spiral. Like how he recently uploaded a new playlist to spotify and it had songs that i had shown him from my favorite bands. i wonder if he thinks of me when he hears them. i hope he does, because i see him in everything.

I don’t know how to let go even when a person deeply mistreats me , it’s like I get guilty and stick around longer than I should be I get tired of kissing ass just to feel accepted , I’m struggling a lot mentally and no body knows . I cry alone in silent and smile all the time I’m very hurt deep inside I just don’t know what to do

An "Israel" Monster sorry Minister taunting and making fun of illegal catched prisoners, is evidence The "Israel" Government doesn't care, is callous,insensitive, cruel etc etc (Can't be heartless as they have no heart in the first place). Holding a anti-Semitism Royal Commission means The Australian and NSW Government and Jewish community thinks others from non-Jewish community wasn't caught up in The Bondi shooting? 😠😠😠😠😠👎👎👎👎👎

POINTING ME OUT FOR SOMETHING I ALREADY POINTED OUT MYSELF. PISSED AT ME FOR ASSUMING YOU DIDNT CARE WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU DIDNT. I VENTED BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME IT WAS FINE, THAT IT WAS OKAY. BUT NOW YOURE PISSED AT ME??? YES. YOURE HURT. I FUCKING GET IT I AM AN ASSHOLE THAT DOESNT UNDERSTAND HUMAN EMOTIONS OUTSIDE OF MINE, IF YOU WANTED TO STOP TALKING TO ME JUST BLOCK ME. YOU DIDNT HAVE TO CONSIDER DELETING YOUR SOCIALS WHEN THE BLOCK BUTTON FUCKING EXISTS. I CAN GET A HINT. I CAN ALSO GET IT IF YOU TOLD ME AT LEAST ONCE THAT YOURE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MY VENTING. MAYBE IM A STUPID FUCKING BITCH FOR NOT REALISING SOONER BUT WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK MAN, IM NOT A PSYCHIC. WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR. ALSO I NEVER BLAMED ANYONE. I NEVER FUCKING BLAMED ANYONE STOP SAYING I DID. I TOLD YOU THAT I BLAME NO ONE. I DESERVE TO BE JUST AS FRUSTRATED AS YOU ARE.