All Rants

i miss my ex boyfriend even though i’m with a person i really love now. i think i’m stalking him… not irl, he lives 16 hours away. i just don’t know what to do with myself. one little thing causes a spiral. Like how he recently uploaded a new playlist to spotify and it had songs that i had shown him from my favorite bands. i wonder if he thinks of me when he hears them. i hope he does, because i see him in everything.

I don’t know how to let go even when a person deeply mistreats me , it’s like I get guilty and stick around longer than I should be I get tired of kissing ass just to feel accepted , I’m struggling a lot mentally and no body knows . I cry alone in silent and smile all the time I’m very hurt deep inside I just don’t know what to do

An "Israel" Monster sorry Minister taunting and making fun of illegal catched prisoners, is evidence The "Israel" Government doesn't care, is callous,insensitive, cruel etc etc (Can't be heartless as they have no heart in the first place). Holding a anti-Semitism Royal Commission means The Australian and NSW Government and Jewish community thinks others from non-Jewish community wasn't caught up in The Bondi shooting? 😠😠😠😠😠👎👎👎👎👎

POINTING ME OUT FOR SOMETHING I ALREADY POINTED OUT MYSELF. PISSED AT ME FOR ASSUMING YOU DIDNT CARE WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU DIDNT. I VENTED BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME IT WAS FINE, THAT IT WAS OKAY. BUT NOW YOURE PISSED AT ME??? YES. YOURE HURT. I FUCKING GET IT I AM AN ASSHOLE THAT DOESNT UNDERSTAND HUMAN EMOTIONS OUTSIDE OF MINE, IF YOU WANTED TO STOP TALKING TO ME JUST BLOCK ME. YOU DIDNT HAVE TO CONSIDER DELETING YOUR SOCIALS WHEN THE BLOCK BUTTON FUCKING EXISTS. I CAN GET A HINT. I CAN ALSO GET IT IF YOU TOLD ME AT LEAST ONCE THAT YOURE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MY VENTING. MAYBE IM A STUPID FUCKING BITCH FOR NOT REALISING SOONER BUT WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK MAN, IM NOT A PSYCHIC. WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR. ALSO I NEVER BLAMED ANYONE. I NEVER FUCKING BLAMED ANYONE STOP SAYING I DID. I TOLD YOU THAT I BLAME NO ONE. I DESERVE TO BE JUST AS FRUSTRATED AS YOU ARE.

I wish sometimes that I went through some hardship to prove who I am, that I was beaten or abused more as a child, which I know is stupid and ridiculous. I can't stop thinking such edgy, useless, unemployed, rita tarded thoughts. I feel that I don't want to be happy, I don't want to be content, I don't even want expertise in any particular thing if there's no love involved. I wish I didn't want others to love or feel sorry for me. I wish I wasn't reliant on others, which is a major weakness of mine. I create dependencies wherever I go, it's exhausting not having the privacy in myself. I often wish I was dead, but I feel too weak and uncreative to think of an alternative- and that pressure is always placed on me, whether I acknowledge a patriarchy or not.

I know I'm fake, I don't need others to tell me. I'm not looking for communities to fake myself towards, I keep my mouth shut out of obligation.

I'm ashamed of trusting others with even the most insignificant details of myself. I'd erase myself from their minds over and over again, still not finding what would make them think of me perfectly. I've grown to despise them. I wish I didn't. I don't have the strength to just get over it, I don't know what I want other than this idea of love that leaves me feeling lonely and used up. I don't want to know who I am anymore.

Im too tired. Physically and emotionally drained. I'm too stressed with bills that shouldn't have been my problem. My support, my girlfriend is ignoring me after she vame back from her vacation. I'm just so tired.

I’ve come to realize that I can’t live with myself conforming and pretending to just be what society expects me to be. And that there isn’t really a place for me in this society, bo matter what I do. I’m nonbinary and my disphoria is so fucking annoying. I wish I wanted to be a boy. Don’t get me wrong, beings a trans man would stuck be awful, and come with its horrible parts to it. But being gender non conforming , it feels like hell. The world isn’t built for somone who isn’t either a boy or girl, and I can’t get someone to perceive me as neither. Fuck I don’t know how I’m supposed to do this, it’s all I can think about and I’m so uncomfortable. I don’t even hate my body, I wish I fucking did. I hate how uncomfortable talking to someone feels or going anywhere feels. I don’t know what to fucking do. With being a trans man I feel like there’s a way out yk? An end goal. But there’s no light at the end of my tunnel. Society dosnt have a fucking role for me to be accepted as. I need queer

i fucking hate most of my classmates. their such stupid little shits and i feel like murdering each and everone of them, but i won't do that because that's illegal and i can't be a fucking divorce lawyer if i have a shitty record.

Ok so basically I'm in love with this girl that I barely know... I'm in so deep it's seriously unhealthy. I think about her constantly and she's just my everything. I love her mouth, her nose her eyes, her hair, her arms, her legs, her voice, her smile, the way she stands. I love that she's human. I've seen both sides of her, the confidence that I admire and the awkwardness that comes out and makes her play with her tongue in her mouth when she's nervous. I love everything about her and I barely know her. It hurts. It physically hurts. Anyway, that's basically the situation. Now, the whole reason for this rant is that for the past two days at school, I haven't seen her and it's killing me. I miss her so much and it's so unexplainable. It's not like anything happens when I do see her; but I'm still aching. I hate this so much but it all seems worth it when I do see her, especially when she looks at me!!! xx a hopeless romantic

If there were tests for having common sense, manners and respect, many of my fellow bus passengers in Brisbane Qld would failed like, South Bank, Upper Mt Gravatt, Boggo Rd etc etc Busway platforms every day, blocking empty seats not allowing others to sit down, blocking the view of the digital display and oncoming buses for other passengers, not allowing bus passengers to get off the buses, blocking the platform edge so others can't get off and on buses, blocking the lifts and stairs etc Upper Mt Gravatt inbound 5.40pm 21st May 2026

my best friend of like 6 years (filler name will be Sarah) just accidentally admitted in a text that she hates me, and not only that but has hated me for years.. This is the girl I would literally get into fights with people to defend and when someone wants to know a secret I would tell them 'I haven't told Sarah so i cant tell you' because she needed to know first, not in a bad way like I personally thought I would be breaking the friend ship if I told someone something I refused to tell Sarah. Recently I've been in a really bad place and taken a month of school (I'm still not back yet (and it's an authorised absence, I'm allowed to be off so don't worry)) And I said how I feel like my friends are drifting away because of it and that the only messages from people at school I've gotten are people being noisy and wondering why I'm not in school.. I'm running out of characters so I won't send the whole message but basically she said 'if we don't like each other why be friends' and im sad

My dad was a manly man. Like, really tall, bald, drank whiskey and smoked cigars, president of a bikers gang, really strong and was also super smart. I always had him in this light of like super cool guy, and he was. Maybe he wasn't the best guy, according to what I heard, but he always treated me nicely, and I both loved him and respected him. 3 years ago, when i was 16, he was 66 and his body was bad, years of smoking and drinking caught up to him, even if he tried to take more care during the last years. One day, he went into a coma and then died. I don't know where he is right now, but I'm scared, scared he's watching his son and is ashamed of me. Of how weak and dumb I am, or how despite my best tries, no girl is very interested in me. I wanna aim to be somewhat like him, but the way I am and how I'm handling things right now, I'm not sure what he would say.

i'm kinda jealous of everyone who gets to buy whatever they want it's kinda worse because i'm in a campus with a bunch of rich people. still, my friend who's not exactly rich gets enough money to have a monthly allowance. i've always gotten barely any money and people would have to pay for me. i don't want to leech off of others all my life, but i remember me in elementary going hungry, because the pocket money i got barely covered for two tiny fried sausages to survive for the next 8 hours. i don't know. it's not a big deal since me and my family can still eat and have a roof on our heads, but i wish we had enough to indulge, even just a little. i don't want to worry about money every time i want to eat snacks. i want to get a job or at least do work online, but i'm scared i won't do well. i just want some money for me. i'm not asking for a mansion, or a private jet, just comfortable.

I confronted my friend about an issue I had with him. He slept with a girl I like, and he offered to stop talking to her if I was around and felt really uncomfortable. I told him that they both are single and just enjoying life anyway, nothing serious, made some jokes and played it cool. Not mad at anyone but I still feel like a loser, I feel so much envy of my friend. The way every time he made a joke so casually about that situation like nothing, the way just every girl always talks to him and never me. We both believe we're very similar in a LOT of aspects, so why does everyone still prefer him? The worst part is that I feel sad, but also kinda happy for him cause he's super autistic and anxious, and this whole thing brought him a lot of confidence.

Eh maybe if I just give up then things will come, I can’t count how many times I’ve had to deal with people who choose jobless abusive controlling scumbags over me, maybe I should just be a shitbird maybe that is how one attracts partners. Or Maybe being squared away is too much for people to handle having a work ethic and goals not being abusive. Maybe I’m too stoic too sweet too self reflective or maybe I’m just conceited for thinking any of those things make me better then a jobless abusive person.

i just can't win. No matter what i do right now i just can't have a victory that lasts longer than a few seconds. Imposter syndrome is devouring me alive. My partner assures me im seen but when i need them most they run from the scene because i become too much to handle (which in their defense, is understandable.) in my field im always just good enough. Im on the map, but when it's something i make on my own it's seen as mediocre even if the same love and care or more so is placed on the personal projects than the group collaborations that go farther. I just want for once to bask in a victory of my own. I just want for once to be the best at something. Because right now im the best at being eh.

My family is so effed up. I'd probably make the psychiatrist leave the room. I have heard stories of people dismissing patients saying can't help you you're to broken for me to help or some crap like that and blah blah blah. WHY ARE YOU IN THAT FIELD OF WORK THEN? I don't believe that b s for a second. Anybody can be healed with enough TLC is my belief. Sigh. Random thoughts at 2 am. I kinda wanna scream though. I'm tired of so many things drama, attacks, hateful tones, gaslighting, condescending uncaring to uncalled for words, all from my own family. Words are powerful too you know. As someone who family uses as a free therapist at times I never talk down to what's being said to me , they don't care to do just that and it's unbelievable. I'm not a urinal or toilet you can just shit on and walk away. I'm human I got feelings and emotions too. Drunk ass addicted disrespectful family. Yes absurdity indeed.

I hate myself and there's nothing I can do that makes me feel better because I've always hated myself it's what the world has taught me to do from the moment I started school to the moment I left I barely felt like I was worth keeping around because all that happened around me is people or upset and angry and I always blamed myself it's true I have been called beautiful pretty smart and talented but it always feels like lies because no one really cares until you're gone, if they knew my hatred. I would Have help but.. the Help just wants my money and nothing more. I have been dehumanized by my job treated like a moron because im autistic and i dont work fast enough.