All Rants

I can’t stop eating spicy foods but now I think I’ve permanently damaged my asshole. Feels like a fire breather is spitting nonstop up my brown eye.

I don’t see myself living pass 18 again. I feel fucking miserable especially after my bsf killed himself. Idk how to tell my bf and my other bsf how I feel I feel awful about it but maybe it’s best they don’t know so I don’t worry them, I feel like I’m gonna puke. My arm is covered in cuts and I still feel like it’s not enough I need more

It’s alright. I wasn’t sure about any of this. Plus, my marriage is already settled with someone else. He’s a nice guy. We went on a few dates and clicked well. I was just trying to fill my void with you or maybe we are all sinners. I wish the best for you and I hope things work out for you in real life - x

im tired im lucky incredibly lucky im jsut selfish

By the way my neighbors act. Yes I totally understand why you don't have a partner and their offspring has no friends. You all have no respect whatsoever for us waking me up every effing morning. With purposely sounding loud AF noise. I'm not a bad or mean person but these people don't want to quit and I've actually done nothing to them. My fam wont do nothing because they don't want confrontation. So basically they don't give af how it's affecting me. It's a b s situation that should have never started or persisted. The effing thumping and stomping is DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me and my bsf said we'll never contact with this one guy again cuz he moved weird with both of us at some point but she still sometimes chat with him and then complains, like girl just ignore him like I do and thats all it takes, i guess she likes the attention but we both know it won't end well

They expect me to decide if a person is right for me just by looking at their bio. How the hell am I supposed to know who's right for me just by reading who they are and what they do for work. I hate this so much!!!!!!!

Hey so i feel like my girlfriend is only dating me out of pity and she has been the only good thing that has happened to me and i feel like that no one really likes me they just are there cus they feel bad

what do i do when i'm too scared to admit and accept that i'm not cishet

I wish I never existed. I never asked to be born from the same family that said I'd be better off dead. I never wished to be alive, and now I literally have to go through the bs and crap they make me do. I don't want to kms either because I'm a religious coward. I want an instant death to end of all the suffering. I want them to be proud of me, to notice even the smallest things I've done for them instead of simply comparing me to others that did better than everything I do. But at the same time, I don't want to die.

I wanna kill myself. insect repellant effectove for suicide?

i don't think i want to keep going

What's a social norm or expectation that you think is completely ridiculous? Well I was once in a certain company. My relative who was obnoxious and in their own world had the audacity to say "they should have been further along by now". That's a bit infuriating because they weren't there were they? I WAS. it was a favoritist place if you weren't the bosses pet you didn't get promoted hardly. They also don't comprehend how extremely toxic that place was. Full of cut throats and bullies. It was bad enough to make you want to be put in a white padded room. So just because someone is not "further along" doesn't mean they're necessarily doing bad in life. In fact one of the lower bosses told me the responsibility what was put on them was enough to cause a nervous breakdown. So don't go judging other people's lives you know nothing about. Of course this was also said behind my back if I recall so.

I have a big date planned tomorrow with my fiancé and my skin is breaking out TnT Should I just cancel the date?

How I'm feeling this year. I have multiple classes with a past abuser and I'm horrified but whenever the words come out to tell someone they can't come out or I get ignored by the teacher. The only one who knows now is my best friend Tom and he has given me more support then any one and I've known him for FOUR DAYS, the only reason he found out was because my Gmail opened and he caught the "Hello" "I kill you🤗" from my past abuser two years ago and he noticed whenever I see him I turn and walk the other way. That's all he knows and he walks the other way with me, and I'm too scared to say anything else. Keep in mind Tom is the only guy-friend I have had since J (my past abuser) so I haven't been able to trust a man as my friend for TWO YEARS, which isn't alot but feel like it when I was hurt by the other friends even one I had a FIVE YEAR FRIENDSHIP WITH and she ended up dating my GIRLFRIEND. (By the way I'm a girl)

My little brother keeps making me feel left out, just because he lost in a game with me, he told his friends my secrets in the past and keeps blocking me, i really want to play with him but he keeps making fun of me, i just had enough that i accidentally bit him.. now i’m planning to die tomorrow.

i hate my dad. im scared of him. he probably hates me too. he fatshames me. he makes fun of me when i start to cry in his presence. he puts so much pressure on me. i dont want to be his child. he calls me the wrong name, the wrong pronouns. i hate when he is home. i hate the mention of him. even the thought of him disrespecting me makes me cry. he made me be scared of him, scared to go out of my room to face him. scared to interact with anyone. he overwhelms me. he has been verbally abusing me for all my life. he is the reason i became alive. i didnt choose to be his child, to be here at all. and wanting to die is on my mind all the time, but i just cant commit to it. the fear of being in pain, or failing to actually unalive me is haunting me. i havent been in school for months. ive been to the mental hospital 5 times already, with failed results or cutting it short. im useless. i have had enough. nobody needs me. i dont have friends. all i have is the internet to ease out the pain....

My husband says I rammed my elbow into his back when he laid there pushing himself into my elbow and now he says I tried to break his back and how he is in so much pain and many ribs are popped out

my husband is going around telling everyone that talks to him that I physically abuse him and tried to smother him even strangers and nothing ever happened I apprently had my arm over his nose when I was SLEEPING

i don't know if i act calm under pressure or AM calm under pressure r.s