All Rants

I really jst wanna kms, which is the STUPIDEST shi ive ever said. Ik there's so much to live for, but what good is it right now if i havent been anyone's reason and close friend my whole life? For context, i moved every year and moved schools each year, and never really built connections with anyone. I really didnt feel it at first, but once i saw my friends all contact their friends from younger starting in junior high and up, I'm wondering where's my group yk? Im selfish for ts, but i jst wanna be the homebody of someone and someone as my homebody. I always feel like a burden to my friends and everyone around me because I have a lot of energy and extroverted, but I overthink everything after to the point where its like my mind is half and half of wanting to end it and half knowing that its jst stupid. I really dont have passions, talents, intelligence, looks, friends, or connections that will keep me here honestly. I hate sounding pathetic like this because i cant deal shi. Ty 4 read

My mom keeps wanting to control my life. She won’t stop messaging me about where I stay when I come to my hometown. I moved out and live by myself an hour away and she still wants to tell me what to do. I’m not treated well when I’m at home, my dad is borderline mentally and emotionally abusive (I’m like 98% sure he’s actually a narcissist) and my mom doesn’t do anything about it, they treat me like a child and act like I’m immature when I try and come to an understanding if they try to boss me around. When I visit my hometown I usually stay with my friend but this last week I stayed at my bfs. He wasn’t even there! And she keeps messaging me that it’s embarrassing that I won’t stay at home and that i can’t stay at my bfs until we’re married. I’m an adult! I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel bad for siblings that’re still at home.

Been lied 2 my whole life, fake dad birth certificates and whole lot more to this story. Truth came out, I’m pissed. Depending on how this message 2 my REAL dad goes tn depends if I push this blade.

I have this crush on a boy but we no longer talk and it’s been like a year, we stopped texting during exams and I’ve always been too scared to text him. I so desperately want to at least give him this painting I made for his birthday that I never ended up giving him and it sucks so bad to just not know what to do. Since I lost contact with him I’ve been so stressed as my house burnt down during exams and I gotten very sick and other personal horrible things, I feel so lost with what to do with myself and I feel like I’m focusing on this crush to distract from everything else.

okay so deadass we’ve all seen crazy shit on Omegle right??? Anyway I got on ometv with my friends today cus we were bored and I cannot make this shit up. I was deadass busting out laughing bc I came across this dude from Finland, ofc he was wearing a mask cus he’s a coward but called me the hard r and did a Nazi salute (not anything new) so I was about to skip BUT TELL ME WHY THIS MF BRINGS OUT A BIG ASS WATERMELON OUT OF NOWHERE?? Like who tf buys an entire watermelon THAT big js to clown certain ppl u don’t like for whatever reason?? It came out of nowhere I was CRYING. Like wth??? Anyway another weird one was this like 40 yr old dude who looks like he still lives in his mom’s basement. Again nothing new except what he said, also we were joking around asking men if we could get them pregnant and after we asked him…HE SAID AND I QUOTE “can you rape my cock” HELLO??? I was baffled like yo?? do what now?? like I ain’t EVER had someone ask me that before. ometv is like hell but funny

My man is okay with me struggling and losing my apartment. He refuses to help me even tho I’ve been there for him time and time again and he has physically hurt me to a point where I almost had to go to the hospital. I really hate him. I caught him paying hookers at hotels. He lies and tells me he has no money.

I have friends but yet i still feel so alone

I think my husband might be addicted to p*rn and is also lying about having DoorDash charged through his cash*pp account (starring that because idk if it’s censored here or not). Idk what to do because when I ask him about anything he denies it.

ive always been really bad at letting people down like whenever someone would invite me somewhere i would say yes even if i dont want to go and i thought i was getting better at it i thought i was starting to get the hang of saying no but today i cancelled plans twice with two dif people and i feel HORRIBLE and yes part of it is because i had to tell them no but also bc ive realized im turning into a liar and i hate it like one of my friends asked why i had to cancel and i said i was grounded but im not im js so overwhelmed with everything this week and i didnt want to do anything but i panicked because i feel like thats not a valid excuse but i lied and i feel terrible and i think shes mad at me and im so scared like theres a pit in my stomach and my heart was beating so fast and im trying not to beat myself up for it but i feel like thats was genuinely so mean of me like i cancelled the day before and yeah it ws js a study date but id already postponed it a week ago and i feel so bad

i feel alone i don't know what I'm doing and i keep burning out working a dead end job just to make ends meet. I'm self isolating because i genuinely think the majority of people would be better off if i was gone. I'm a compulsive liar and i hate myself for it, nothing i do ever matters and i constantly attention seek, the world is shit, I'm shit, and honestly id sacrifice my life for a random stranger at this point, i cry every night because i'm scared, I'm scared to live, scared to die, scared to get too close to someone in fear that they will spill the secrets about the life I'm living away from my family, I'm scared to love again for all my relationships have been toxic, the last one broke me to the point i cant reach out for help without hating myself. its all my fault if i was just a bit better i could have changed things couldn't i? Im useless and better off hidden where no one can see me, i dont even remember who i am under all the different masks i wear to conform to standards

I hurt my sister again. It's really hard to be reconciled with her. I admit what I did was wrong, but I lowkey think that she should admit her wrongdoings as well. And not play the victim and try to downplay us.

i feel like such a terrible friend i hate saying no to people and i hate cancelling plans i feel so bad i think my friends hate me

I just miss my partner. It's been a while since our last date, and I hate to admit that I miss receiving physical touch from him. I'm craving him atm, I feel like something has changed.

Saturday, August 8, 2026, at 7:32 I tried cutting myself. I bled everywhere. It felt soothing. A long crude line runs along my wrist now. In the aftermath of me bandaging it up, my arm feels sore and I feel queasy by looking at my bandaged wrist. I hope this depression and anxiety can end. (ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ)

I have nothing going on for myself, if I'm honest. I have no job; I hang out in my (disgusting) room daily, and I stopped going to high school in February of this year. I genuinely can not stand interacting with people and feeling as if I always have to put up a front to satisfy them. Worst part? I've lived with a severe roach infestation for ALL of my teenage years. Disgusting, I know. How do you think I feel about it? Do you know how embarrassing it is when a friend wants to visit and I have to say no? When I'm constantly worried about whether or not a bug has crawled into my bag and pray that it didn't get on someone? I would NEVER wish an infestation on anyone. I haven't been to a hospital or a dentist since I was a child, so I have no idea where that leaves me. I have no plans for the future, and neither did my parents. I wouldn't mind if I died in my sleep.

i feel so incredibly disgusted at myself. i felt a sense of dread wash over me after seeing both my ex and friend match pfps, btw my friend won't talk to me anymore, and i wont see my ex anymore(kinda a good thing, i still miss her somewhat.) i feel so invasive for creeping into my friend's following and seeing my ex's pfp, they were matching and i know i should just let it go, but i miss them a lot. i'm so envious, and i feel so selfish. i hate the way i am and i should probably just end my life sooner or later. but i'm so scared of death that i can only draw my deaths. i'm horribly disgusted at myself, i feel so angry at myself, i want to just beat myself up and tell myself how wrong i am. how nosy i am for looking into her following list just to stumble upon my ex, it's my fault my ex left me for her. i think they're dating, but i hate assumptions, and i hate continuing to be nosy. i'm a disgusting human being.

I argue with my dad and get reminded why I hate him so much. When we aren't arguing, things can be genuinely fun. It makes me realize how much better it would be if he were a friend I would occasionally see rather than a parent.

My mom was out of town for the day and left me with no food at home. I was waiting all day thinking she would bring something back for me but no. I’m starting to feel like she doesn’t realize I’m a human because she did eat today. And the past few days before this she’s been stopping for fast food for herself during work and I don’t say anything or ask for food because I feel bad since I know she’s having trouble affording things right now. But I’m just sitting here starving and I feel like she doesn’t care at all. I feel too guilty to ask for food but how can you not feel guilty buying food for yourself and leaving me with nothing. Everyone in this house ate today but me and I still feel guilty. I feel bad for even being hungry. I feel like a constant burden and I wish I was never born.

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Im not a homewrecker. It's hard to let go of something you thought was a talking stage while he had a gf. I hate people. I don't want to hurt someone's relationship but the truth hurts me. Everybody acts like my feelings don't matter because the other two are happy. I feel like I'm always the other woman. The next option. The least likely option out of the multiple choice.this happened Everytime. No. If a girl starts talking to you out of no where like everyday. SHE FUCKINF LIKES YOU DUMBASS I DONT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIENDS I WANT TO BE MORE. AND DONT THINK THAT CUANGES JUST BECAUSE I LIKE GIRLS TOO.