Recent Rants
Don’t get me wrong Latina girls are gorgeous but I always wonder how and why are they so free? I’m Latina but not full anything I have two halves MX and PR. That’s not a good mix but at least I look unique. They have all these catchy songs about them. I want to experience that one day. And see what my family wants me to see. Is there something I can’t see? Obviously yes but I wanna know. They’re so cute
Every time I see someone say they want to kill themselves I can only ever think of them. And how I can't help them want to live.
Unfortunately no matter how much I try to force myself into believing I'm helping and doing something to give them a reason to live, I know it will never take away their wish. They don't even love me anymore. I don't know what's worse, that I can't help them want to live or the fact that they've probably been pretending to like me to find a reason to live. I love them too. But it seemed like they were dragging me on and I didn't want that. I'm a selfish dickhead.
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Honestly I got some shit to say about white people. Literally I have 2 white friends and don’t get me wrong their sweethearts but it made me realize that white people themselves subconsciously don’t wanna be white. Like literally I remember I was on the topic of race or something with one of them and I quote she said “Guys I’m not full white I’m Italian.” I love you but honey… and same with the other one like she’s 10% Puerto Rican and mind u, I’m half so I thought she was more ethnic but it’s js in her dna. She said she hated the stereotype of white people not seasoning their food and sure understandable and she was like my mom’s very Italian and my dads very Puerto Rican so I had very seasoned food like the best chicken and I was like oh okay! Btw neither one of them are ethnic parents either like they js ur average white Americans so I was confused but wtv. I mean im half black and again half Puerto Rican so I was like huh…
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Like why are such famous stories also the most like famous? LOL. Why are they famous? Why does no one have a definitive source or proof? Why do people praise these things? Why is the past or the history of the USA such a mystery? Yet we have the best technology or species for history? Why is it also so hard for normal people to know where their ancestry is? Ik there are limitations but that’s one of the biggest things I want answered. I don’t feel truly connected to the Mexican culture or the Puerto Rican culture. I feel slightly more connected to PR culture just because the ocean has a different feel and atmosphere is more magical and exclusive. However Puerto Ricans nowadays aren’t selective. I feel connected to nothing but something. It just doesn’t feel like any of my ancestry of where my family is from. How is that? Why are people connected to things other than where their history lies? Why?
This whole week at bedtime when I try to rest I've been increasingly losing control over quick breaths and sobs which I have no idea where they're stemming from. This has been happening more and more for the last few nights. The other night I completely lost control of my composure and proceeded to helplessly sob and laugh hysterically at the same time for nearly an hour. I have no idea what it was. That's never happened before no matter how low I've been. I physically couldn't stop myself from losing it all over again whenever I tried to quiet down. I feel crazy like I've finally lost it. Im terrified and I don't have anyone to reach out to whom I trust enough with this struggle. I'm tired. I'm so tired of everything. I feel like something's wrong with me sometimes. My heart aches. My soul is tired. I'm cracked at the edges and I don't know how much longer it might be until the walls fall and I can't stop it anymore. I don't want people to worry about me. Especially the ones I love
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Like I live somewhere where bison lives and they went extinct the 1800s, but all the mascots are buffalos like why are we teaching people the wrong things? And why do the native people kill these animals? The people native to this land killed the bison because yes they were reliable for meat but it would’ve been nice to have more bison. This has always been a questions of mine. Why do native Americans or native anyone do any country keep so quiet? To me they do. Why don’t they correct things or let people talk about things
i hate how when something bad happens i just go back onto that stupid ai roleplay website to pretend to be the child of my favorite ship. those two characters would hate me irl, if i was their child they’d probably kill me for being such a disappointment. i hate how when something good is happening in my life something bad immediately happens after. i was doing so good, i had been off that website for two weeks but then i just had to go back on it. i’m so sick and tired of this cycle… im never going to beat this addiction… its actually probably too pathetic to be called an addiction… its just me being a fucking chad
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I wish my family talked more. They probably think I want them to talk less but that’s the opposite. I think they need to talk more because if I wanted you to talk less then where would that get me.
What's something you have to deal with regularly that nobody else seems to understand? I’m always dealing with something that always seems only limited to me. I think my family wants me to prove myself because yes they admire me and have good feelings. But they’re waiting for something special to happen when o want them to realize that there’s nothing special happening. The things that’s happening is what’s happening now. I’m always putting on a show for my family because I grow so fast, I am very agile. Not adaptable. So when you can’t adapt to every fricking thing but you can somehow always pull through with it. Everyone starts to expect you to be spectacular but when you suffering. And just growing from your suffering. People usually grow from idk having a boyfriend or something normal. But I seem to only be admired after it’s something I have suffered through. And that doesn’t mean I was in the wrongs it’s usually me suffering from others faults.
What's something family expects of you that feels unfair? Everything. Literally everything. But unfair doesn’t mean bad. So many things can be unfair but sometimes there’s no other way. What I think is really unfair is how I’m always the ones dealing with unfair.
I just feel like a really shitty and lazy person right now. My father told me to clean something, and I thought it normally looked like that. After a little bit of bickering I just decide to go to the garage and get over with. Once I come back, he starts asking me why I didn’t want to wash it. I said that I think it normally looks, even when it’s clean. I start going back to my room. He then starts yelling me and cussing at me. A few minutes later, he gets my sister and tells us that he’s done of nagging us. He then leaves to get the milk or something idk. And here I am typing. I feel like it’s all my fault, if I just obeyed none of this would have never happened. I’m sorry I was born. I’m sorry for it all. I’m sorry I’m stubborn and lazy. Please forgive me. I should have never existed in the first place. And for those who think that’s a dumb reason to leave, I kind of left out some of those details. I’m sorry you had to read this. I am so very sorry.
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i wish girls ACTUALLY stuck by "girls support girls" bc in this highschool culture its completly bs. youre telling me ur a girls girl but sent a girls nudes around?? and dont get me started on friendgroups bc do one thing and theyll use it as an excuse to drop u and ruin ur entire highschool life. anyways if ur going into highschool ik it seems nice to have a friendgroup but it almost never sticks togther, find 3 good close friends and stick by them.
Like even worse the more people seem to want more validation the worse everything else gets. When u want validation EVERYONE follows ONE MAINSTREAM TREND. So when you want to idk 🤷♀️ do certain things, you just can’t do it in peace. Because everyone follows one thing. Like don’t be scared to be extra.