All Rants

My mom said not to go to my uncles funeral because that side of the family doesn’t consider us relatives

I showed you myself MY FCKIN BODY and YETTT YOU TALK SHT TO IMPRESS THAT BTCH?? piece of sht.

i’ve moved past the stage of suicidal tendencies but why do i still feel so empty? like these years just amounted to nothing? yes, i have family and friends and they DO make me feel happy, but there’s like this constant feeling that it’s all temporary and i’m always just gonna be a lonely piece of shit for as long as i live, even though i’m not lonely. i tried telling trusted adults and people and their care was also temporary. nothing feels like it’s gonna last. i don’t even know if it’s good or bad or even neither of those. i just don’t know. is this normal? is it overthinking? am i too much for the people i love??

Ugly asss whre degrades me to impress his btch?? What the FUCK is wrong you fuckin retrd??

lowkey does anyone else INSANELY cringe at themselves even after a short amount of time after doing something?? I’m too fucking embarrassed to read my old rants on here and I keep getting notes and reactions like holy shit. not just here btw like im cringing at myself from js a couple days ago like why did i do that

i fucking hate this bro WHO does online tuitions in summer holidays while in a DIFFEEWNT COUNTRY CAN I NOT CATCH A FXUKING BREAK

I have amounted to nothing in life. Not a purpose found when searching, not a reason found worth living, even when I found joy in small things I could never bring myself to do more than the bare minimum. I feel trapped with the weight of life being something everyone else treasures but all I see is a blank canvas not wanting to be filled.

I hate humanity, I wish we were seraphim or mermaids. I want more wars for this to happen. I want us to be driven undersea or in the air to invent new kingdoms. I hate humanity dearly.

I mention my productivity, but I'm stupid for wanting to write. I can't write. I'll always stay at that illusion of productivity of what I'm worth to the bueracracy that doesn't see humans. I'm not percieved, and in the long-run, I'll be replaced.

My partner used to be great but he’s getting angrier. I’ve got bruises on me from him grabbing me. It’s been happening more often. I know I should leave but I can’t afford to and have no where else to go.

I give my all, I buy her gifts, I get her things when she is sick, I ask her to hang out, I buy her things randomly, I tell her how much she means. All I ever get back is a thank you and a you too. never am I receiving the nice things never am I getting affection its always me giving my all for what, for what gesture

For the past 4 years this one manager has physically made me want to quit multiple times. from talking crap about me, ignoring me for months, yelling at me, and pushing me aside giving promotions to other people. Today one of my coworkers passed out and I had called for security and first aid to help her, he pulled me aside to tell me everything I did wrong in that situation and when I tried to stick up for myself he cut me off talking his BS and telling me "it's okay your okay". I feel like i'm his escape goat to use as he wants and I hate it but the job market is so hard I can't just up and quit without knowing I have another job lined up for me. I want to write an anonymous complaint about him but I know for a fact they'll know it's me and won't do anything.

Maybe this will reach someone who needs it. Because I want people to hear it just in case. You deserve everything good in the world. Everything happens for a reason. Even the bad things. So you need to take the bad things and throw them away like trash. The best way? Write everything down in a journal or piece of paper, do not even care about handwriting because you will never read it again. And when you’re done? Rip it into shreds and throw it all in the trash. Because you are worth it. So. So. So worth it. If you’re thinking of doing anything bad. You’ll regret it. Trust me. And your alarm will still ring. Your seat will be empty in class. Someone will be disappointed and sad because they really found you helpful or nice or funny or pretty or just. A good person. There is always 1 person in the world that loves you. And if you genuinely don’t believe it? Make it yourself. Please.

I'm so scared of the future. I'm scared I'll hurt the ones I'll love, that I won't amount to anything, that going to college was only an excuse to stay alive longer. Now I have something to live for and I feel so unprepared. I can't go to sleep without thinking that one day I'll lose my parents and my siblings. I just pray that I won't be the one to see everyone die first. And what if I don't succeed as an adult? What if I'm left homeless, without a connection to my family? My partner wants kids too, but I'm afraid of raising them. Babies crying scares me. What if I fuck them up? What if I fuck everything up? How did my parents survive raising us? Life doesn't come with a plan and it terrifies me—I need to know what's happening, but I just can't. That's not how it works. I just entered my twenties, but my childhood already feels so far away. I'm not ready for anything.

As the title says, I hate my partner. They were so kind and giving at the start of our relationship, and offered me to move in together in order to escape the ‘chaos’ in my household. I have bipolar disorder, and I informed them of my triggers and such, and they said they were still comfortable dating me. Whenever my mood did start to shift, they kept taking our personal relationship problems to other people for ‘advice’ and weaponizing my mental health issues against me. Whenever I express any type of negative emotions they ask me if I took my medication, I’ve been properly medicated for over 2 years. Recently in this past year I got assaulted while intoxicated and I informed my partner, they immediately called me a cheater and a liar, and even started talking to the person who assaulted me and even tried letting them into our relationship. I’ve been dating this person for 5 years and I’ve tried to leave multiple times, and everytime they threaten to take away my cat.

Why cant I just let things be? I've been putting off the inevitable for a year. I'm good at my job but I've been sooo stressed about at the same time. I've finally decided to formally step down but I feel like its the worst decision I've made in my life. Why cant I get past this?

It's been two months now yet i still feel like I don't belong in this class, everyone seems happy and they love It there. I hate it, I despise it. No words can truly explain how I feel it in there, I always feel like I'm alone, whenever I do chat with my fellow classmates I just feel like I'm annoying them. The way they stare, the way they speak, the way they act. It's just not the same like when I was In the 7th grade. They do try to include me in pictures and such but I feel like they only do that because they pity me. I wander in the room, trying to talk to people but they don't seem to be interested anyways. I miss my old class, I hate it here, I feel like I'm in hell. Don't get me started by the fact I have no one to sit besides too. My seatmate is now in another section. I feel so lonely yet my two friends are there, they are backburners. One of them really loves to stick with my new classmates that are really smart. The subjects? Makes me wanna kill myself. I hate everything.

Fucking Tired of my bum ass Uncle staying at my house all day and bringing bummy people to the house when my mom tells him not to. I wish he stayed his ass in a program and never came back.

It's always my fault in this house. I'm always the one to blame. I'm just a kid, man. I'm scared of what will happen if I just let go for a moment and stop acting like the perfect little daughter. I wonder if I'll ever tell them I'm trans, or if I should fake my death and disappear, live my life as I wish. Of course, that's not possible. I have to go though so much legal bullshit first to even exist as the person I want to be. And don't get me started on surgeries and trying to go through the healthcare system as a young dumbass seen as too indecisive to be taken seriously. I just want to start my life over, far far away from home. Somewhere I can actually be me.

it sucks that I have to admit it to myself but its the truth. ive been left out and unwanted by the people around me in my life, especially revolving school. I did have "friends" but they were the type of friends that told me they were "having a private conversation" everyday so that they could just not be around me or just talk badly about me. that started in 2nd grade but me being left out goes WAY back from before I was even in kindergarten. in 1st grade, my uncle joked to me about him moving away while walking me to my school. obviously, I got sad and scared about him saying that, but I thought it was really funny and decided to do that same joke on my friend. when I told them they were like "YES FINALLY" instead of actually getting sad or upset about me leaving. in preschool-4th grade, I was often never included in any games with my other cousins. I always brushed it off because they were all boys and obviously didn't wanna play with a girl. one time I was even ditched by them.