All Rants

i wish i were more extroverted and didn't have social anxiety. im a very anxious person and it's just not enjoyable. i hate this.

I think I'm going to do it finally. I'll end my misery, ill live for a while as long as I can this year, then I'll be free. It's for the best. I can't take the guilt anymore ill be happier, and everyone else too if I were gone, gone into an infinite sleep.

Tbh i have had enough, enough of the fucking mental illness enough of the control over me, enough of the lies, enough of the emotional manipulation or manipulation in general, enough of bullshit of society enough of people enough is enough man. Enough of this distorted world view i was thought by my incel brother and shizophrenic mother, enough truly is enough, i feel bad enough of a victim because i fell for this shit, but yeah what can you do as a kid when there is a immature incel adult in front of you, a guy who never had sex in his entire life who has to take out their misery on you because he is afraid youre gonna get women when you're older, unbelievable man. what a sore sexless loser, i hope he never gets sex in his entire life, but the guy probably went to a hooker to fix his bullshit, the guy believes in the incel phrase: you pay a hooker so she leaves after sex. what an cancerincel and i wish for him to die.

What do I do if I am in school and I feel empty,want to kms and I hate school?

Fucking hell!!! I hate my in laws, I hate how lazy my kids are!! I'm used for money all the fucking time!! Apparently as long as I take medication everyone's happy go lucky thinking that'll help them but not me! I know what the fuck is going on around me I'm not fucking blind! God sometimes I wish I could move away and never had married with someone with fucking lazy bastarded kids!!!

My kids are fucking lazy and I fucking hate it with a god damn passion!!! It's always a god damn fight! 17 yrs old and 23 yrs old and can't even fucking get out of their fucking rooms to help!!! All they do is game, eat, be fat and m********t all fucking day!!! I can't stand it anymore! I've finally snapped! Fucking lazy bastards!!! Spoiled bastards!!! What the actual fuck!!!

literally I’m so done bc I’m going to highschool. LIKE WOAH?? unfortunately my school has a lot of fine shyt, I’ve seen from when we took a trip there and WOAH. like everyone’s so fine wtf are they feeding them??? I’m bisexual and I’m shy so of course ima fumble in front of fine shyt but anyway, like I’m not the most social person but I really wanna make lots of new friends and idk how not be so awkward wth?? anyway wish me good luck because I lost like 3 friends already but I’m okay with it bc they were trash

Dry your eyes I wont tell your mother she wont ever discover the things you kept under the covers and please don't cry I am not your mother I am not your lover there is nothing wrong

I'm sorry im such a terrible partner

There seem to be a LOT of teenagers on here. I wish this was around when I was a teenager. There was Whisper but people could respond to you on there and send photos and you can probably guess what most of those photos were of Imagine the things I would have wrote about my ex who I now am on good terms with and remember fondly but have no romantic feelings for anymore. I never thought I'd ever see him that away again, I thought he was the one, but he was just the first. Or that crush I had at 16 that I probably wouldn't recognise if I walked past him now. I haven't heard anything of him in years and I'm grateful we didn't end up together like I hoped. He lied about so much and I knew that at the time, I just didn't care because he had a pretty face, but since then I found a man with a pretty face that doesn't make up stories to make himself look edgy.

That I don't have the temperament to just walk into the bar and order a drink.

I'm so tired of loving you one second and the next hating you over the smallest things ever, i don't know what is actually wrong with me and i hate this I just wish I was normal, I wish I could feel emotions like a normal person I wish I could love like a normal person and not be so obsessed and dependent, I actually don't know why you still even care about me, you should be sick of me you should leave me like they all did because im such a annoying weird thing I don't even know what I feel anymore I can't im tired of getting annoyed at people I love and yelling but at the same time i feel like you just don't understand me and won't ever understand me i mean I get it I don't understand myself too so why should I expect you to understand me you shouldn't have to deal with me treating you badly just because I got jealous and me treating you the best possible just because you did anything good for me, I dont know why my mood keeps changing so much and why do I wish you would leave me

I acted so ridiculously back in school, like I owned the place and was some sort of genius mastermind, that I deserved to be bullied. Accepting that it was deserved is the hard part, that I was a prick. I remember walking in with 48 Laws of Power, I remember trying to flirt while looking all dischevelled and emancipated. I remember mistaking basic words when entering into arguments. I couldn't write, nor punctuate, nor spell well, yet acted as though the world was owed to me and I could just barge in with brute force. I was so embarrassing. I was creepy around the people that I was attracted to, which became a painful point of focus. A painful point of focus was how funny my lack of self-awareness seemed to the observing subject to me, the subject to be broken down and treated with indifference and schadenfreude. I eventually concluded I had a low IQ, or that maybe theory and things that require structure (including creation of beauty) isn't my forte, but it's pre-emptive.

I deadass love this site, any notes I get from rants I literally cry while reading them like, the ppl on here have shown me more support than any adult has in my whole life, I seriously love you guys, (ik this is corny but🥲) 💗

Fucking kids outside my house kick a soccer ball against the door purposefully to scare my cat. They live across the street, one will probably grow up to be a violent thug, and the other fucking pipsqueak has a life of government welfare to look forward to. They even left the ball at my doorstep to intimidate me knowing I can't beat them because corporal punishment is uncool. They'll keep coming back because I'm built and shaped so weakly. They probably know all the chronically online terms too.

That I feel unloveable, I have not had one person that loved me and it feels so depressing and I can’t keep waiting

I just wanna kill myself dude. My mom doesnt love me. But i wouldnt love me either so...yeah im gonna overdose or jump off a bridge by running away lol!

So my friend group plays D&D, and there’s a guy in the group I don’t rlly like who is the Dungeon Master. I’ll call him A. My best friend who I’ll call C and another guy who I’ll call D said they couldn’t come to the next session, and A told them that it was okay. But apparently behind their back, A was pissed off and talking about how he’s going to add a three strike system and that he’s giving C and D each a strike. A doesn’t confront people, so my friend B sent a message from A saying that this was disrespectful behavior when it was ONE cancellation, and he’s being disrespectful by publicly shaming them. I don’t care if he’s worked on this campaign for a year. Treat your players with some damn respect. One missed session doesn’t mean they don’t want to play. Stuff happens. I can’t stand A. I hate seeing him disrespecting C like this, who is just letting it happen. C told me, and I’m so angry. I’d understand A if cancellations happened successfully, but it was ONCE.

I want the feeling of being someone's person and them mine. Understanding eachother, making eachother feel seen when we've been chronically misjudged and mislabelled. Wanting to hurt people who hurt us, openly talking about our resentment and agreeing, encouraging further hatred rather than forgiveness that has always been pushed on us. Identifying our bond in song lyrics and poetry lines about connection and belonging. Adoring eachother deeply, eachother's beliefs, opinions, observations- how we convey said thoughts. I want to advocate for ourselves and others, write stories, obesses over films and TV shows, talk philosophy and sociology, vent, bake together. I want them to hold me close in every way. I want to never be lonely again.

My dad died and the whole situation is making me so angry in a way I’ve never been angry before. I feel like I don’t have anybody to be there for me the way I need them to be because the two other people in my immediate family are both being dicks about this. Neither of them seem to ACTUALLY care that we’re on the cusp of bankruptcy. One of them is a half wit who turns the kitchen light on when he wants to sit in the living room and uses the heater WHILE WE’RE IN A HEAT WAVE, not to mention whining about sweets and clubs. The first thing he asked me after dad died was ‘what’s going to happen to my football club?’ THIS WAS IMMEDIATELY AFTER I FOUND OUT DAD WAS DEAD. The other one is permitting this behaviour and allowing it to continue. On top of that, she keeps getting angry with me for everything as if I’m supposed to have all the answers about everything but I don’t! I haven’t had a second to grieve because I keep having to take care of everyone but nobody’s. Taking care of me.