All Rants

Jason on heavy rain just died for the plot ethan took the whole impact of the car devs just wanted him to be depressed… straight up bullshit

I hate myself to succumb to this endless loop of self sabotage and doom scrolling...i have this huge competition like tmmr but i just cant get up and prepare for it....i am exhausted by all the stress i took up..its really messing my mind and i am going blank cause of it and wasting the remainder of the time i have...i feel like a huge disappointment for everyone...and i feel unworthy to exist....i am tired of trying and trying but always losing....and i feel like i am just being lazy or making up excuses...it feels like i am suffocating under this unseen pressure....which no one can see...and its frustrating when i cant figure out if we what i am going thru is valid or my fault...i wish someone could for once listen to me and help me

not a lot of people like me and i dont know why. i mean, i have a lot of friends, but none of them would pick me. i just wish i was someones favourite person. one of my friends did something childish and i shouldve ignored it but i couldnt. they put us in a ranking and i was second to last. it really hurts. it hurts so bad to know someone doesnt like me. why? what did i do? what do they have that i dont? im not a mean person, believe me, ive asked around. so why? what makes me so unlikeable? nobody can give me an answer, they tell me i *am* likeable but their actions say otherwise.

Why does everything I ever do not feel like enough? I try so hard to be friends with people and I always feel like no matter what I do I'm still not enough to matter much in their eyes. People say that I just need to wait for the right person but every relationship I've had has felt this way. Am I the problem? I don't know anymore. I just want to have a friendship where we feel equal, but it seems like the only way I could have that is if I'm in a romantic relationship. I just want a friend that won't grow bored of me or find someone else to replace me. Sometimes I feel like a little animal trying to gain someone's time and affection. All i want is someone to think of me, or to go out of their way to see me instead of just me making all the effort. Sorry if this doesn't make sense for whoever is reading, I just feel like I'm losing my mind.

i'm losing my mind. i feel so insanely empty and afraid of what the future holds. i mean im a senior in high school and everything feels so heavy already. i'm not even an adult yet. i'm afraid of letting people to close I just can't handle being hurt. I feel so indecisive about one person in my life right now, but god im so tired of a busy mind. its like by inner voice doesn't stop talking. its funny i actually get annoyed of it and everything just goes and goes and goes and i'm really sick and tired of it and so many other things. its like im 17 and shit just doesn't end. im thinking about so much right now i just have nobody to go to. like, i miss my brother, it was unfair how he died. my parents don't want to get me help, they've gotten in trouble for it before. i have to start school in two days but i just know im going to spiral out and lose myself. I mean seriously, what's next? i won't be able to handle it.

I feel so bad for my dog he has obvious skin issues and ear issues and my mom wont take him to the vet because we cant afford it, im always begging her to take him and im waiting till 16 so i can get s job and get money to take care of him i love him so much and i feel like im neglecting him even though i have no choice in the matter i also feel bad because i feel like he doesnt get enough mental stimulation and exercise and idk i just did everything wrong hes my whole life ive had him since he was a puppy and i cant help but feel horrible, even though i know its not my fault

I'm just soulless thesedays, no reason to care.

sometimes i get this feeling and its like suddenly my body is the most disgusting, repulsive thing and i just want to crawl out of my skin. I hope that isn't too odd

My mom, while she is supportive and respectful of the LGBTQ, does not understand transgender and nonbinary identities. I might break up with my trans and nonbinary partner soon, and so I reiterated to my mom that it had nothing to do with my partner’s gender identity, just their personality. She was shocked I thought she wouldn’t be supportive, and I reminded her she’s flat out admitted she doesn’t understand it in the past, such as just 3 months ago saying she didn’t understand how someone could still be feminist and not be a woman despite being biologically female. She said if she’s ever seemed unsupportive, to just let her know for clarification, so I then told her that 7 years ago when I was in highschool, I attempted to come out as nonbinary but she didn’t understand and said that wasn’t me. I brought it up because I was mentioning that she’s shown to not understand trans identities in the past AND present. I later apologized and told her I had also forgotten that event for years

Guess im supposed to be alone.

In a world where people are being killed for being trans, I ask myself why can’t I be normal? How unkind.

i dont know why i cant move on my blade was taken 3+ months ago and i still know how it feels on my skin the urges still won’t go away whenever i see something sharp my mind goes to it how messed up am i

My ex texted me and I’m so scared to even look at it. I’ve been putting it off since yesterday

I don't know what to do. It's all pointless now. I want to die. I want to kill myself. Help me. I'm drowning.

I genuinely don’t get it, why don’t we men and women see each other as humans. And it’s like “why are men rapist?” Why are men categorized sexual deviants who lust upon women like men having this sense of corniness in their bones. And yes I have seen it as a guy. I think overall it’s the popularity of porn videos being available and being meme and edited, and thus people like me, escaping through the internet find these and get addicted to videos. And thus our perspective has been warped so far. Women and I mean a lot of young girls also have their fair share of porn with young adult fictions being sexualized too. And creators sharing these smutty books to teenage girls. In these books, the perspective of men to them, since it’s mostly women authors is really REALLY high. Like you need to be 6 foot in length, need to be Sylus from Love and Deep space. Need to be good in bed. Nonetheless everything has been sexualized so far to the brink where we both have high standards of each other.

I want a bf so bad. I been feeling lonely. Or at least someone that gives me attention and validation. Someone that makes me feel so good. I been thinking of joining a dating discord server. But I'm all anxious about it. I feel like such a loser

I love my family and my husband, but I always feel so overwhelmed and overstimulated with my day to day life. I am currently a stay at home mom and it’s summer break, I have a 11 year old (who we are still trying to diagnose) a 8 year old and baby just over a year. My husband has a good job but sometimes I feel like he’s either working or sleeping… lately he just does he’s own thing when he comes home from work, I feel like we have little connection anymore, but I don’t know how to bring it up because I am a emotional person and I always seem to sound like a bitch.. I am just feeling so lost that now I have started drinking to feel happy.. like I don’t feel happy anymore.

I haven't talked to my long-distance bestie in like 6 months bc I like her romantically, and I'm rlly scared. She's my only friend, and I don't wanna lose her, and I'm having trouble accepting that I like girls and guys. I feel like I'm making excuses. I can't even tell her bc my mum lowkey doesn't let me have my devices, and when I do, I'm too scared or like not on my own. And I'm rlly sad knowing she prob won't like me back and like js can't face it. I cry every night, but I don't know what to do. I feel rlly disgusting liking my bsf; I'm not even homophobic. I was planning to tell her irl when I go back to my home country because I moved, but it's been 4 years since I've been telling her I'll come back to visit, and I feel so guilty bc of that. If you have any advice pls tell me ty hope you're doing ok

I'm ruining my relationship with my family and my only friend bc of my issues. I dont even if it's depression or wht,and i feel so suicidal it's really bad.like my parent are never rlly at home bc of their job and i js sit in my room and js sleep or watch stuff,since my parents arent really home i have to take care fo my brother and do chores with my sis and i cant even clean or take care of my brother like playing with him bc i feel so deppresed and i think my sister is having teh same problems. My parents aren't forcing me, but doing these things is something I have to do bc there is no one else who can, and ik that, but I wish it wasn't this way. I feel so guilty for not at least keeping the house clean, and ik my parents are tired and want to come home to a clean house, but I'm trying my best. I feel so guilty yelling at my brother all the time ik hes only 4, but I feel so depressed and hopeless i want/cant even speak sometimes.

You're the one constantly talking on your phone at the fitness center. You were not using the treadmill. And I'm the Rude one for wanting to use a fitness equipment in the fitness center? If you want a rude individual....look in a mirror.