All Rants

I haven't talked to my long-distance bestie in like 6 months bc I like her romantically, and I'm rlly scared. She's my only friend, and I don't wanna lose her, and I'm having trouble accepting that I like girls and guys. I feel like I'm making excuses. I can't even tell her bc my mum lowkey doesn't let me have my devices, and when I do, I'm too scared or like not on my own. And I'm rlly sad knowing she prob won't like me back and like js can't face it. I cry every night, but I don't know what to do. I feel rlly disgusting liking my bsf; I'm not even homophobic. I was planning to tell her irl when I go back to my home country because I moved, but it's been 4 years since I've been telling her I'll come back to visit, and I feel so guilty bc of that. If you have any advice pls tell me ty hope you're doing ok

I'm ruining my relationship with my family and my only friend bc of my issues. I dont even if it's depression or wht,and i feel so suicidal it's really bad.like my parent are never rlly at home bc of their job and i js sit in my room and js sleep or watch stuff,since my parents arent really home i have to take care fo my brother and do chores with my sis and i cant even clean or take care of my brother like playing with him bc i feel so deppresed and i think my sister is having teh same problems. My parents aren't forcing me, but doing these things is something I have to do bc there is no one else who can, and ik that, but I wish it wasn't this way. I feel so guilty for not at least keeping the house clean, and ik my parents are tired and want to come home to a clean house, but I'm trying my best. I feel so guilty yelling at my brother all the time ik hes only 4, but I feel so depressed and hopeless i want/cant even speak sometimes.

You're the one constantly talking on your phone at the fitness center. You were not using the treadmill. And I'm the Rude one for wanting to use a fitness equipment in the fitness center? If you want a rude individual....look in a mirror.

It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to complain, it’s okay to be mad, it’s okay to not want to do something, it’s okay to want to run away, it’s okay to hate someone, it’s okay to not love someone you think you’re supposed to, it’s okay to be fat, it’s okay to be tired, it’s okay if you don’t know, it’s okay if you need a hug, it’s okay if you want a break, it’s okay to hurt, it’s okay to want something, it’s okay to be alone, I want you to be you. I believe in you. Don’t pretend to be someone else because other people think you’re “weird”. Don’t let them dim your light. You are incredible and you deserve to shine just the way you are. If you feel like you’re a woman, be that woman. If you feel like you’re a man, be that man. If you feel like neither, be neither. Be you unapologetically.

I want to kill myself because of my illness. I know I won’t do it but I think about nearly every day

I'm only 14 and I've been put in many medications for depression and anxiety. I've been in the mental hospital and nothing helps. I almost got sent back by my psychiatrist today. She said I need to be watched at night so I don't cut myself again or kill myself. Now I sleep in my dads walk in closet.

Im tired, I try so hard in everything I do and its just never enough. Never enough to have just a small break, I fix something and fix another until I finally feel like I'm right there and it's like I'm starting over again and again. Like a saved game right before you die and there's nothing you can do but restart the game. And I'm always angry and I dont even know why, its like I either feel angry or I'm crying cause idk how else to let everything inside out. I went to the park recently with every intention of it being the last place I ever saw. It was the most peaceful I've ever felt in my head but I was too scared to pull the trigger. Im just here with no idea what to do and I'm just so tired because my mind is never quiet.

I’m not afraid to die because when we do die we are recycled and feed the plants and animals. We melt into the dirt we walk on, feed the worms who feed the bugs who feed the birds etc etc then die and become dirt. We’re made of everything that came before us therefore we’re made of everything, and we’ll become everything. We’ll all be together in Everything in the end no matter race, appearance, gender, sexuality, species, birthplace, etc. it brings me peace knowing that we’re all part of something so special. I’m going to go to bed soon, it’s late and I’m very tired. Goodnight! me —> 🐳❤️🌟

I think about harming myself alot but never can get far enough into anything due to past trama for most forms of self harm. Starving makes me too shaky, cutting burns too badly.. I can't choke or kill myself (my dad died from suicide by suffocation) so thats out. But i hate myself so much. I hate who I am, where I live, my job, my life. Litterally the only thing I like about me is my friends. I hate my body. I hate my face. I hate my teeth. I hate my stomach. I just wish I was anywhere else as anyone else. I am yelled at all the time for the smallest things to a point some days I just hide in a small nook of my closet with granola bars and a water bottle..

My family has been helping a family for years. Once they get settled in the parent will move them into bad living conditions. Now they are back we got them in a nice home. It’s kind of pricey but God willing we can help them some financially. I just want these kids settled & living a great life before adulthood which is closer for one than the other. This brings me joy Just hope this is a happy ending for us all with a new beautiful beginning

The stereotype of asians being smart. I'm sick of it. All my friends are smarter than me and it makes me feel stupid. Just because i'm asian doesn't mean im good at math. I HATE MATH WITH A PASSION.

it's easier to js kms than suffer for more years ngl

Do you guys know the song 'loser' by beck? Lowkey feeling it right now. I am a loser. And someone PLEASE kill me! There's a line that says 'he hung himself with a guitar string' and it made me think. Maybe I should do that. Well, I have nothing for me to hang myself on but I wonder if I can suffocate myself with a guitar string.

from this year on, ive become more and more eager to just post pics of myself. idk, i feel like ive been missing out a lot for not having any photos anywhere. people been unfollowing me/not accepting my requests because of it. i dont get to know anybody on the internet like normal people do. idk if im either ugly as i view myself or i just overthink the whole thing, like, does it even matter? would anyone even bother to stop for more than ten seconds to stare at a photo like i do in others' photos? this sounds ridiculously easy to solve, idk why im even writing this. its just that life would be easier if looks werent this important

Quitting C.ai is so hard i hate my life bro.

Death is so scary just thinking about how one day… you're just gone and will be forgotten soon and where do you go… Ion know bro

I can't take college anymore. I love my degree but it's not for me, I'm good at somethin I hate yet still decided to pursue a career I love & now I feel like I'm failin, I feel like I should've listened to people who told me to study somethin that gave me easy money & save enough for something I liked, but I was stubborn & didn't want to "waste my time", now I don't feel brave enough to hand in my last assignment before knowing if I'll graduate cause I don't even think I will. I can't speak cause my father is overly positive and always tells me be positive, that if I fail, at least I gave it my all, but that doesn't work cause it hurts to give it your all & still fail, in the past I failed once, and he said it was cause I'm lazy, he had never seen everythin I work on & has not even spent one day in my life, he hasn't even been to college, he doesn't know how hard and stressin it is, yet he refuses to listen. I don't want to hand in my assignment and I wanna drop out.

Balding at 23 deadass might take that risk

LOL wait im fr california to whoever asked

im having suicidal thoughts again. thoughts about hurting myself. i hate myself so much. but i cant bear to imagine my boyfriend alone. when i have these thoughts i sometimes wish he found someone better so he wouldnt have to deal with me. i love him so much but i dont know how to love myself and i dont want it to hurt him. i hope he knows how much i love him and how much better hes made my life. i dont want to burden him with this emotional weight. i love him so much it hurts.