All Rants

Periods are so gay, fym im brutally bleeding out my hooha for a week?

pt 2 with my brother- he doesnt wanna do anything with his life- in his exact words. “I dont want to work my ass off for my whole life just to do nothing.” Which is completely wrong, but hes in denial and he doesnt realize it. He doesnt want to talk to a professional, doesnt want to work, doesnt want to do anything with his life. im worried and my mom wants to have family therapist for them 3, but he wont do it. My mom says he has depression and he keeps saying he doesnt, but all his traits lead to depression. Im thinking he might have bipolar disorder due to his constant behavior changes. Im worried but hes not willing to do anything.

I work with a friend is higher in the hierarchy than me who always insists they're right and it's driving me nuts. It feels like they're trying to hold their position of authority over me for stuff they don't know about. I have far more varied and higher level experience than them in career and hobbies and when stuff comes up from my area of expertise their tone is like talking down to me about all this stuff they've literally never done. I feel like my experience and intelligence is just trying to be invalidated by them so they can feel comfortable in their position. I'm super annoyed at being preached at needlessly and incorrectly for things that I have put years of painful effort into learning the truth of. They now more often disagree or try to correct the things I'm saying even when it wasn't even that kind of conversation to begin with. It really makes me angry to constantly feel judged and poorly. It's a waste of both our short lives to turn things into an argument going nowhere

i just want to cry man are we even compatible, why do i only feel sad and frustrated and defeated when talking to you. i love you so much and youre genuinely the only person I've felt this way toward and i want nothing more than to stay with you but why does it feel like im kind of just there in your life, or even a burden.

im worried about my brother, hes 19. My mother and father got pregnant extremely young (16 nd 20). they werent good parents to him, i love them so much and i mean no shade but they were too young and didnt know how to take care of him. I wont get to into detail for privacy reasons. He now has trauma from emotional abuse and somewhat physical. hes mean to me (the youngest) because my parents were older when they had me and they “baby” me. Keep in mind that i am not babyed, they did a normal job of parenting, and he thinks its babying due to his trauma. Today at noon, my sister (15) was making something in the kitchen while i was at the kitchen table crafting, with my mom on the couch. My brother starts screaming at her due to something she said on text (not sure what) and they were having a screaming match, he doesnt wanna do anything with his life with his depression. lemme makw part 2

im saying all of this here because i can't say this stuff in reality because it would mess everything up i just feel like half the time in talking to you you would rather be doing anything else. one word answers, or responding to my texts with emojis only, i show excitement and you (and i know you don't mean to) kill it by acting like it's not a huge deal. Maybe im just too much for you, maybe you need someone more your speed. and then im an asshole because i get frustrated or hurt and say things i shouldn't, and that makes me feel worse. but even then you don't ever get upset with me and sometimes it makes me feel like you only feel neutral towards me. it feels like I'm putting in so much effort for these 4 years for us to stay together but do you even want to anymore? am i just a familiarity? it feels like if i didn't talk to you, you'd just never speak to me sometimes, and be perfectly okay with it. I'm so tired of feeling like the bad guy just for wanting to feel wanted, i guess.

what can i say to ppl who ask about the cuts on my wrists. pls leave a private note?? :)

I am 19 years old My name ashish kohli

I feel frustrated because my friend and I are part of a group planning an event and they're making it more burdensome for me through their ignorance when I didn't want to get super involved more than necessary. I have years of solo event planning and hosting but stopped because it was exhausting and thankless for me. They've never hosted or event planned before, and they have been to events I've planned. It's insulting the way they're downplaying effort like making someone else do prep that they volunteered to do and glossing over taking care of other details that are important for the effort on everyone's behalf to be worth it. I had to remind them about stuff they were in charge of that they'd forgotten about. They said a "fun little detail" would be to do something time consuming / complex and not trusting my experience in time management and effort when I tell them the reality of it. I'm angry they don't trust my opinion and I'm having to make up for it so the event goes well.

there's nothing wrong with being an irregular right like like it's not that bad if i decide to switch courses IT'S STILL EARLY I hope I can catch up or im just a dumbass for choosing this course when i suck at it (kinda) i js need a mindset to set me. like like i just have to work 10x harder

I really wanna see my family. I cant wait to be out of Foster.

I feel like I’m way too boring and pathetic for people to be interested in me and I’m scared to go back to school because of it I just think I should die

Is this really anon? Is this site connected to my phone? How does this work? Is it a safe outlet?

Ok.. so.. first time doing this, but I just can’t do this anymore. I told my parents about my sh and stuff, and all that, and I can’t sleep. It’s just a habit, and instead of helping me my mom js told me “oh this is wrong” and “No ___ stays up this late!” (It was 1am).. …I’m sorry? No ___ (censored for privacy reasons, ironic, ain’t it?) stays up this late? OH. if only you fucking knew. I JUST CANT DO THIS. I CANT. IT HURTS. IT FEELS LIKE THEIR CAGING ME, NOT HELPING ME. and my mom is so weird. She meows for my attention, she says “da dan!” While appearing like IM 6. HUH?? STOP. ITS WEIRD. IVE TOLD HER MULTIPLE TIMES TO STOP BUT SHE SAYS “oh but I thought you liked it” NO?? AND SHE ALSO SAYS “you’re so mature for your age!” THATS NOT A FUCKING COMPLIMENT BELIEVE IT OR NOT. SHOCKING I KNOW. THIS IS WHY I WANT HER TO LEAVE ME ALONE. THIS IS WHY IM RUDE TO HER. I FEEL HORRIBLE BUT I JUST CANT STAND HER. When I was younger she also called me a mistake for breaking a device. just stop.

Dont know how weirdos like me even are supposed to get help, much less friends.

Not so much a rant but just a I need someone to hear me 😭 Me and my husband got kicked out of our house 2 years ago now , it absolutely killed me and we had to move in with my sister for a year I know why didn't I work right well I had no way to get to a job where we live and my sister was of no help, my husband started working with a friend of my brother n laws...he only made about 200 a week and we lived with my sister for a year and she charged us at least 600 a month , we moved out about after a year but the only thing we could afford was a camper trailer and to this day we are still here but I am just miserable we are in the middle of no where yea my husband found a somewhat better job but it's not enough to get us out of here in the winter we can't heat it up and in the summer we can't cool it down enough , we have to move before winter but I'm at a loss ,we don't know what to do at this point and depression is really hurting me rn , I try and pray but idk..

Alani didnt kill someone, the girl just had too much Alani tk the point where it was unhealthy. She ended up killing herself accidentally, but people blame the company. Typical doomscollers and Twitter/Reddit users fall for any bullshit. May the girl who died drinking Alani rest in peace, may her family have my condolences. I wish the family a good time, and that they only remember the girl for the most happiest memories. May her friends remember her, have my best wishes to them, and everyone who knew the girl get my the internets love and not the attention where its a badly influenced as. May the people spreading misinformation that Alani killed the girl realize the truth that everything is unhealthy especially when pushed pasted its limits. It should be basic, COMMON, knowledge that drinking a lot of energy drinks in one day can lead to death. Everyone is so insensitive.

i don’t think they like me back. those signs are for someone else.

Personally, I think joking abt trauma is ok bc it’s a coping mechanism for some people but when OTHER PEOPLE joke abt YOUR trauma, that’s just fucking disrespectful and rude and mean. My toxic ex (he also didnt respect my boundaries) used to make jokes abt my dead parent bc I joked abt them as a coping mechanism, and it always shocked me but ig I deserve it? On my birthday, I was struggling with mental health and my family KNEW and the second I blew the candles out on the cake, one of my family members told me I could kms now since I was officially a teen. They also knew I had “birthday depression” (I’ve locked myself in my room and sobbed on my birthday everyday since I was 10, idk why) AND I HAD FRIENDS OVER SO I FELT LIKE I COULDNT JUST LOCK MYSELF AWAY. They also make jokes abt my sh and my sh scars and I just feel like I deserve it sometimes but sometimes I feel like they need to GTFO OF MY ISSUES

at this point im just faking being happy around people, i mean my family ACTUALLY sees me happy but on the outside, my friends, my classmates, the people i work, i say everythings fine and that im happy but in reality no. i ask myself why am i even unhappy, is this just part of growing up? i guess im probably craving a friendship that actually cares just 2 people and a healthy, friendly, inseparable relationship. anyway i hope we all someday will feel the freedom of happiness in the future even if its so hard u cant do stuff