All Rants

i shouldn’t be venting about anything, everyone i’ve met has it way worse than me, atp im just complaining about minor inconveniences… my life isn’t even that bad, why am i so fucked up? why do i want to blast my brains out? i’ve had friends who’ve been abused, got into accidents, assaulted, and i’m over here crying because i failed one class, complaining about my really religious family and how even though i don’t believe in god i still have this lingering fear that i’ll go to hell, i still think of all the things my parents told me as a kid about hell and heaven and praying, i’m not traumatized, i don’t deserve to be able to vent, i don’t fucking deserve it because like i said, atp im just complaining about minor inconveniences…

This saga of my life is fuckin horrible

To “dear” who decided to side w/ a Jezebel demon infested narcissistic pathological liar. “We’re family” my ass.“dear”, It’s by choice U turned a blind eye. I revealed the truth, yet U still believed the fabricated story of that demon infested narcissistic pathological liar because of a piece of cursed land and demon infested house gave U and UR king ahab as a reward for casting me out of the clan. If I had “disobeyed” “UR god” as U insist I did, it was because I tolerated everyone’s BS a remained silent. I thought U’D be the CHRISTIAN ROLE MODEL who TALKS AND WALKS IN TRUTH AND IN LOVE. UR JUST ANOTHER PHARISEE. Wrath be upon u, ur king ahab and that demon infested narcissistic pathological liar for UR GREEDINESS, foolishness arrogance and disobedience. Justice will be served & I will soon live in peace and blessed - away from this cursed placed and U all. I will hold on to that promise.

I don't like this generation I'm part of (Gen Z)... We act like we care about all the problems but in reality, we are lying every single fucking day. I lie that "I care about global warming!" in reality, I'm pretty sure no one can give a flying fuck about it. We act like we care and that we will act upon that but realistically? We're just gonna rant about the shit on TikTok or smth. We are the definition of the Bystander effect. I'm NOT saying every Gen Z is like this, but majority of us are so lazy our biggest problem is our PR. The worst part is that we offload the guilt and blame to the corporations as if their gonna do shit either. We act like at least "we're a little bit better" but COME ON! I probably won't be going to a protest or start a petition or bike anytime soon... in short, we just lie about our worries (again, not everyone but prob majority) for others to view us as good.

why are people so fucking mean… i know this sounds corny… but when someone types “off yourself” in the comments of someone’s video or under someone’s photo, don’t they know there’s a person behind the screen? a real, living, breathing person with a life, a family, friends. they don’t know what that person behind the screen is going through… they could be going through something horrible and them being told to off themself might affect them… they might go through with it…

i dont wanna live like this seriously i have no friends no social life im just waiting to die at this point, really.

I grow up in average family. But middle school wrecked me up in every way possible. I have niche interest at the time and it was considered boyish, it was Ultraman. I liked it due to its plot and the message it delivered: "be kind to each other" and showing the good side of humanity. But I was hated for it and was bullied because of it. They shared rumours that I was unstable and a poser just because I like things that considered boyish. The entire school bullied me so bad they wrecked me up to the point I just wanted to kill everyone using cyanide. I never do it since I didn't get the poison. I never get to see any therapist since mental health was seen as taboo or something in my country. I never get the chance to be diagnosed or see what's wrong with me. I try to continue to live, but the impact was still there. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me and I'm tired. I felt empty, I want to die. Everyone just invalidated me tbh

parents acrued massive debt to send me off to private school as a long-term investment. i'm basically having to study my family out of our current financial situation. we currently live in a house with no heating, no hot water in the dead of winter. we receive government aid and live just below the poverty line in my country. i can't cry at home, i can't cry at school. i don't want to burden anyone with this knowledge and also don't want any of my friends to treat me differently. no one i know knows what it's like to stay behind while everyone goes off to excursions, camps, exchanges, to be the only one who doesn't eat out with everyone else, to buy shitty birthday gifts for the best of friends. it frustrates me that my siblings won't have the chance to receive the same educational opportunities as i have. after i graduate i'm off to university with a gigantic debt on my conscience that'll only get bigger. so burnt out and have 0 motivation to do anything, i'm so over this.

I know i could be in a worse spot right now, in jail, dead, constantly letterbombed or something like that... maybe i do deserve it but i am so tired of feeling so invisible so alone that right now I just wanna crawl into a hole and wait to die. I really hate me and theres no amount of be positive thatll fix that. But I despise the fact others just got on with life so easily... Why am I here? Why? WHY?

i want to destroy myself so my parents feel immense guilt for preventing me from chasing a job i love. all my dreams at night make me bitter. i dreamed of screaming at them. i dreamed of my teacher comforting me and crying into someone else who isn't my parents' arms. i want them to feel so much guilt and never be able to let go. i'm a horrible person.

Nothing matters. If it doesn't get any better this year or next year, I'm finally going to set myself "free" and put myself out of misery.

If I wasn’t sane enough I’d do some really fucked up shit, I’m not really right in the head and might need to go in a mental institution. Like people talk about things fictionally and I do too but people don’t know I’m genuinely into some weird taboo stuff (not incest or pdf to clearify I’m not that fucked up, that stuff is genuinely gross.), but like if I could I’d genuinely tie my partner up and lock them away forever for my self and take complete control of their life type shit

I'm beginning to think my neighbors have the mentality of cavemen. All they know how to do is thump and make noise. For some stupid reason they've been loud as hell and idk why with seemingly purposely stomping and thumping WAKING ME UP. As of now I've not slept good in 2 weeks near it. IDGAF who has to go to work/school when, nobody has to make it sound like an earthquake Early morning hours above you. Their maturity has to be at the bottom of the ladder on the scale. I need some effing sleep. Seems like I go through the worst things I don't get wtf is wrong with people.

Help I was those three rants back to back, I’m jsut on here to I can’t sleep tho I should cuz my sleep schedule is fucked up and my mom is pissed about me sleeping all day and that I should sleep late, yo I should killmyself cuz I don’t wanna keep being an adult and deal with responsibilities, I just graduated and I haven’t done shit with my life, my mom keeps calling me useless, an embarrassment and a lazy bum and compares me to my younger cousins who are working and have their drivers license. Bruh shits unfair ion wanna keep doin this stuff anymore yo But like.. I got friends that I love type shi and a guy that I’m really into to and really wanna meet #onlinerelationshipbefire #demisexual #asexual #wokeness #depressedd #imsotiredishouldsleepeepepeeeee Skippy if you ever find this I’ve been in love with you since we started saying I love you to each other bru But never wanted to act on my feelings until we started getting even closer and act like a complete couple I love you sm

I’m in love with someone for the first time and I’m genuinely so scared of fucking it up because of my past relationship and mistakes with people, like I 2 toxic ex friends, one was like a weird platonic thing going on, the other fully abusive, then after them I had 1 healthy friendship but they wanted to date, I didn’t but we were obsessed with each other that it got unhealthy, had two relapses after that person. One was where I was the “other women”, me and then flirted and stuff, I think they jerked off in a hotel bathroom when we were flirting even tho they had a boyfriend, and then the other was a actual fwb, I told them I wondered what it would be like if we both dated, I was his first ever online anything, I tried encouraging him to be more social online and post more and we were honestly very similar, he said he didn’t want a online relationship or wasn’t ready but then met someone a few weeks after and fucking dated them like bro what, your my first fwb and then that happens??

I’m still so fucking pissed about what happened to, N, I fucking hate you you’re so ungrateful and act so full of yourself and acting like you’re a good person but you’re genuinely not and completely selfish even if you don’t think you are. J, I miss you but I’m still so fucking pissed off cuz your communication skills are fucking ass, we were best friends but you keep acting like you know better and aren’t in the wrong, fuck you both, Fuck you N for stealing my best friend, fuck you J for making me seem like the bad guy in front of your boyfriend, and to the boyfriend you didn’t even bother getting my side of the story, fuck you both I was there for the both of you when the other friend group fell apart and your friends left you cuz you chose your boyfriend over them. I hate all of you, j I still miss you and wish I don’t handle conflict so emotionally, did you even care bro, I bawled my eyes out during our whole argument, like bruuuhh this is why I don’t make friends with cus men fml

lowk my rant is way too long for this but just know, I have two friends who lowk ditched me first and then blamed me and got mad at me for distancing myself because they kept excluding me from things and leaving me behind, and got mad that I chose to hang out with other friends who mind you I stopped hanging out with for them. And then also when I confronted them both they both withheld information from me and refused to talk to me so we can resolve any issues between us, one of them kept saying I should know what I’ve done and said he didn’t owe me anything and said that I was making it about me when the whole conversation was about saying that I was in the wrong for stuff i did in the past which were completely untrue in my perspective cuz he can’t communicate for shit, acting like I should know what I did IM NOT A FUCKING MIND READER AND THEN THE OTHER FRIEND WANTED TO BE A STUBBORN BITCH AND REFUSED TO TALK ENTIRELY CUZ HE CANT GET OVER HIMSELF AND FUCKING TALK TO ME LIKE ASDFGHJK

People doing more doodling card games than me. Like, why am i alive. I'm fucking useless. I cant do shit. Surprised I haven't choked on my dinner, would be doing everyone a favor.

The moment I need someone, I have no one and if I do then I end up apologizing for coming to them for anything. I'm drowning and they are fine with that, even told me that I'm beyond talking to so why even try. I told them I wanted to disappear and I didn't think I could be around anymore and they told me that if thats what I think I need then to do it. That's not what I needed.

More people would laugh if my cat died of her ill health than they would actually care.