All Rants

I have to take care of my little 4 yo brother with my sister whose 16. I'm 14 and we take care of him all day every day after school and only on like 1 day of the week we don't when my mum's home. It's been like this for more than a year. Sometimes my dad's there, mostly not because he lives in another country. My mum works all day every day so we both have to take care of him and like me and my sis basically raising him right because what else can my family do? That's not the problem, it's just that I'm really suicidal and depressed so I don't think I take care of him well. I can't even do the chores. I'm sure my sis is going through something similar too and I feel horrible because I can't be nice to him. I know even if I'm not a grown up,if it affects his childhood its my fa. I've not been able to get out of bed during the holidays and I can't even take care of my brother. My sis has been doing it and I hate this. I feel so guilty I just want to die. I feel do guilty i wonna kms/

college is rlly eating me up fr . i chose a medical course and it's PT so ion even know if i have the skills for it . but that's what school is for isn't it? to learn. all im hoping for tbh is that i have the strength anfd motivation to finish this degree . idk i've been wanting to see if there are other doctors / PTs who were introverts or not "smart" but still managed to finish college and all . i feel more motivated to see ppl who aren't "special" like just abt average succeeding .. i js need smth topush myself to do this

I'm just crying bc some angel who understands me perfectly sent me a long and sweet note. I can't remember the last time I received such kind words from anyone. I don't know if you'll see this, but I'm so grateful and thank you for your advices it's really helpful and i can actually realte 🙏🏻Just knowing there are people like me makes me so happy:) I wish you all the best in your life <33

I hate depression. I could have gotten so far by now. I'm already failing again. I hate that fucking food controls my life when all I wanted was to be skinny—well I'm not even that and no where near it. Why can't I have real issues like suicide, abuse, SH, addiction, loneliness or at least be better at the ones I do have, like have crippling depression and actually be anorexic. Maybe then somebody would actually gaf.

sure wish i had a life so that i could understand that people can’t always reply to texts instantly and that doesn’t mean they hate you haha. not joking all i’ve done over the summer is seeing my partner and one other friend with my partner. uhh…

im so scared that my partner doesn’t love me even though i know he does. like any time they’ll be away or not texting me, there’s always this nagging voice in my mind thinking “they’re deliberately annoying you. they hate you, they’re just too nice to break up with you.” and sometimes i can’t help myself from venting to him and my other friends or just texting him a lot if he’s not answering, and then i eventually apologize for spamming them. then i think that im being even more annoying by apologizing because a past partner of mine would get really pissed at me for apologizing when i “did nothing.” i think im too codependent on my current partner, but i love them and can’t be bothered to help myself recover. i feel like recovering comes with breaking up or losing our close bond, which i definitely do not want. i don’t think he does either. i hope.

ok bruh my moms yelling at me bc I used her phone and now we can’t find it and I had it last and my mom and dad keeps yelling at me and I get yes I’m responsible bc I had it last but I genuinely can’t find it. like I was tired AS SHIT so I have no memory of last night. Like literally I was so tired I put the ice cream back in the fridge and not the fucking freezer bruh. I only found out I did it bc my mom told me. so yeah I checked under my bed and pillows literally everywhere in my room and I can’t find it im panicking bc they’re calling me lazy bc I’m tired and starving rn so I have no energy and my phones about to be taken IM COOKED 🥹🥹🥹

Guys how do I come out as bisexual and agender to my religious and homophobic dad. -LG

I DON'T believe life is fair, where doing good things means you'll receive good in return 🙏🏻 I've literally spent my life listening to others, hugging them, and telling them I'm there for them. I've been told I'm an angel, that I've saved their lives. But NO ONE ever listens to me or tries to take my pain seriously, even though I very rarely look for it, and when I do, I don't find it.

The art of writing letters is lost and I hate it! I don't care about your messages if you had AI make it for you! "Para maayos English ko hehe" GIRL YOU ARE A 50 YEAR OLD CEO AND A MOTHER, WHAT YOU MEAN YOU CAN'T WRITE WITHOUT A ROBOT????

The countless nights I've spent praying that if only I were a girl, I'd have a chance with him.

I genuinely feel like normies are hardwired to work. Like if you suggest not wanting to work for even a minute and just do your own thing like being at home, watching TV or not working at all. They genuinely crash out on you. Or fucking look at you like you're weird. Normies piss me off so bad

Does anyone else feel like you’re being lied to whenever ANYONE says you’re pretty/handsome or whatever. Like I have eyes you fucking liar I can see I’m not?!!!! Just need someone to be like “yk what girl you kinda are but that’s okay” I’d feel way better

This is gonna sound shitty… Sometimes I wish I was never gifted my cat. I LOVE HIM and he clearly loves me BUT I got gifted him at 16 (my family paid for his expenses) now I’m in my 20s, with a shit minimal wage job, bills, and I provided for him all on my own cause he’s my baby. It’s just so hard. I get so worried about him n I don’t feel like it’s ever enough.

I look so disgusting i just want to punch my face over and over again i fucking hate it because how the fuck am I gonna keep living this life how did I get stuck with this unlovable face I want to kill myself

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU. but I don’t. Loving you is so fucking hard.

I can't even ask for help to solve my suicidal thoughts; I'll just end up in a psych ward and on a document ppl can see, which will affect my parents' chances of getting a new visa. All because this Fucking giverment HATES immigrants like ppl dont understand how shittty my life will get if I have to move again. I hate this. It feels like dying is the only thing that will free me. I wish I could go back to the times I wasn't so guilty; I can't stop hurting myself unless I'm distracted. I'm doing sh every 1,2 days. I hate this. I can't even die bc i know the same thing will happen.I wish I could hire someone just to kill me. I feel like I'm going insane.

I learned today that my mother really does hate me. She's told many people I'm too stupid to drive, too dumb to have a bank account, to rent, to live. She looked at me and told me she could have had an abortion. I told her we both would have been better off. I was raised in squalor. SQUALOR. She was a hoarder and we rarely had running water. She got a gym membership so she could shower on the regular and I had to ask to go with her. I've pulled living roaches out of my ears when I was in HIGH SCHOOL. I had LICE in MIDDLE SCHOOL. I ATE FOOD OUT OF The GARBAGE at public parks so I could sleep some nights. She spent so much time at the library but never picked up a parenting book never helped herself to help me. She would shut herself up in her room, send me off to do whatever. She was more upset at my not sympathizing with her NEAR molestation event than my telling her I had been sold by my god damn long term babysitter

My career is dead. I am a programmer who is now forced to watch AI write code for another AI to review before asking for the cycle to repeat. I am expected to applaud this harrowing change as I, a simple horse, get to watch cars be invented as I am guided to the glue factory. I need help, I need to burn this hellhole into the ground. But alas, I must endure, try to keep earning while I can and hope to god that these systems will collapse in on themselves soon.

nobody cares. It's so humiliating when everyone knows something is wrong with you but can't be bothered to help. My friends know I'm struggling, My family know I'm struggling but it's like they don't care enough to actually know why or to help me. Just because I won't kill myself or harm myself they all think I'm fine but I'm really not. I feel like I'm at the end, that I can't keep trying anymore. Every small spark inside me is gone and I just feel empty. I feel like an attention seeker silently begging someone to notice what's wrong with me and help me or hug me. But they never do and then I feel guilty for being an asshole or avoiding them. I just want this feeling to end so I can be normal and carefree again.