All Rants

I feel like I've constantly been disrespected and made fun of BULLIED even growing up. Like people often made me the target because I let them and I'm so over it. I feel like I've hit a place where I feel confident, but still the thought of running into those people again makes me sick. I never wanna have to go through that again. Maybe others can relate to the feeling of everybody around you having some sort of social "upper hand" over you that you feel invisible and powerless. I just wanna be confident in the fact that that's over with, but still. People can be so mean.

i'm always afraid to let people know how i truly feel, although i vent at times. but there's always a feeling i'm just forcing myself to vent. a feeling of needing to always put on a smile and laugh and pretend that i'm okay to not make things awkward with my family and friends. i'm afraid of being a burden all the time. the least i could do is make them feel comfortable. i know i'm not okay. i force myself to think i'm okay, just so i could move on. have i moved on? have i healed? i don't know how to answer myself anymore. i used to see so brightly, but now it just looks dull. i feel dull. who even am i?

My fam starts drama just because. For no reason. Made a scene for nothing about me taking the dog out and I wouldn't yet because I checked it was really fine mist rain that would of soaked us both and because I refused they went but he wants go now my god. I go well you take him if you feel so inclined. I generally walk doggo so I know when to and not to. It was just crap drama for nothing. My other fam is being dry and pushy because I haven't received a letter someone is supposed to send. Why is it a near everyday battle drama with my fam? I go through enough stress/anxiety as is. I don't need it. Doggo and I ended up getting rained on earlier anyway trying to out run it so I guess it didn't really matter. Geez it's the b s won't quit coming at me sigh.

my mom has fallen into the ai propaganda and is forcing me to use it (or rather shaming me for not). i wanted to teach myself some of the english syllabus since i wanted to do my exam early. i rambled to my mum as shes my usual person to go to about such things. i had found a really good source for one of the literature works i had to study but that was the only work with that level of detail in its notes. it also happened to be the only work which couldnt come out in the exam im studying for, so i was bummed out yk? anyway, shes the sort of person that cannot distinguish between rambling to get it off your chest and asking for a solution, so she insisted on generating me notes. i said i appreciated the help but i preferred finding actual peoples notes rather than potentially fake ai (its a niche syllabus, there was a low chance it'd find anything real. it tends to make up stuff etc) idk, she started yelling at me and pressured me in front of my family to get me to study!! hooray!!

I’m angry and sad and they’re mixing and it’s not fun. I don’t do well with plan changes, and my plans have changed in a way thatve made me need to state my boundaries, which for SOME damn reason makes people feel hurt, and so I’m stuck dealing with both my own emotional turmoil and managing somebody else’s. Then to top it all off people keep pissing me off with just little things that I know shouldn’t bother but, but I’m so fuckingggg UGH. Tonight is going to suck. I don’t wanna hang out with extended family, but I’m going to, which means getting misgendered, and honestly I could cope with THAT(I’ve been doing it for 7 damn years after all), what I can’t cope with is the fact that my mom told me to come hungry, yet when I asked what food there would be she said brisket. I fucking hate brisket, and so obviously I’m going to eat beforehand, but I’m gonna have to choke down at least a little bit of it to appease my family.

i hate my dad. not only is he cheating on my mum and texting random woman on messenger but he's the worst dad. right now he's come to room to shout at me for sleeping at 6 pm and then he sees my window open (mind you with the blinds over it because ik he's paranoid about people watching through the window). it becomes this one sided shouting match where he claims people will throw fire through my slip in the window and threatening that he'll idk??? wake me up next time to do smth. now im crying my eyes out. he's overly aggressive and confrontational. there's so much more i could say about him but im sick of living in constant fear and sadness while watching my friends dad actually love them.

I wanna say a lot of things, but I’m just too tired to do it. Nobody even cares so it doesnt matter. I hate everyone, is all i want to say.

About 3 years ago, I slept with my ex the week before he proposed to his current girlfriend and again a month later. They’ve got married this week and I feel mega guilty.

3 days into school and I'm sick of almost everyone. My mom has been getting on my nerves ever since I had this argument about my freedom with her and my step dad. On the way to school she was asking questions that I low-key didn't want to answer. Things like "Do you feel loved?" "Do you know what love is?". Another thing is that she's trying to get me to trust her and my step dad more than my friends. Keeps telling me that they could abandon me and "leave me to die" and its like no, cause you have the audacity to let your husband make comments about my body(my weight mainly) and tell me that I'm fat almost all the time. He's said much worse but that's for another time. I told my friend group about it and they're like "Damn, you live like this?". They usually say I should call CPS or run away but the thing about that is that the streets are dangerous and I don't have enough proof to call CPS. The best luck I have is just waiting till I'm 17 or 18 I guess. :(

I feel sick to my stomach. Like genuinely. Im pretty sure my mom is transphobic, racist, and probably homophobic too. Im lesbian and demiboy. She said im in the wrong for feeling upset when she said the n word hard r twice.. I have no one to talk to about this and she won’t let my sisters defend me even..

me and my bf celebrated our first year annivasary kinda. i made him a card and he paid for our dinner but when i brought the card out he said "this is cute, but i didnt make you anything... im an asshole" and i know thats a joke and whatever and i laughed along, but idk, it feels like he doesnt even care and im appreciative of him taking us downtown and paying for dinner, all i wanted was even just a little note. after he read my note he said "i ditto everything you said" and idk that just hurt cause like i feel like there was no effort at all even in the moment. I want him to be more vulnerable but i feel like i cant ask him that because of how his childhood was or idk maybe he wouldnt even care. it makes me sad, but im taking it into account for the future of things. :(((

I remember one day when I went to the bathroom to take off my school jersey because I was feeling too hot. I asked my friend JJ to come with me, and we walked to the bathroom together. When we entered, I stood by the mirror. At that moment, Yame came out of one of the bathroom stalls. I greeted him as he was about to leave. I then started taking off my jersey, and dzuda just stood there looking at me. He seemed completely frozen for about a minute, with his mouth slightly open. As he looked at me, his eyes appeared to be frozen looking at me. I don't remember exactly what happened next, but I think I asked him why he was just standing there. If I remember correctly, he replied, "It's nothing," and then left. It's also possible that he didn't say anything at all and simply walked away on his own, as I can't remember that part with complete certainty. Does he like me? Because my 2 friends have been telling me this

It’s so fucking stupid which is why I’m writing here, I WANT A FUCKING FAIRYTALE ROMANCE. I want my partner to be more loving and more supportive. I want a lot of fucking things but I’m a teenager and I can’t fucking get them. I have ZERO reason to be depressed and unhappy, but for some reason I can’t find it in myself to be happy. I feel so empty but I’m surrounded by a loving family and my friends, I have a good life. I just want to be normal and happy but I can’t control that. It sounds weird but god I want more control in my life. I don’t want to make people do things or whatever but I just want to feel in control of myself for once. To know what I’m doing next. I just want to be okay. I’m only a teenager trying her best w a partner who had a hard time using emotions and I have too many emotions. I’m trying I swear. Just give me my life back. Please.

i fell into the sh rabbit hole, i got rejected by a dude, my dad left my mom and ive been missing him for ages. i havent got a chance to see him, not once. i know this sounds terrible, but i really hate everyone right now. i dont want to vent to any of my friends because they wont understand.

It is unbelievably stupid how much people joke about serious topics. I can't believe we don't feel a ounce of remorse in our words. I see comments joking about pedophiles, being racist, the Holocaust, being harassed/violated, etc. Even today, I was scrolling down the comment section, and some fucking idiot was joking and downplaying the Nanjing massacre (how's that possible?) Most jokes are like... so downplayed it's STUPID. Like the very words themselves have losted the meaning and hence it's power. When I go back to school, it's almost always the guys randomly spamming n-words despite being white or asian or something. It's almost as if these things are a JOKE...

My father is a bastard cheater who left our family and used half of my school fund for his mistress and her daughter. He ruined my 18th birthday in February and I haven’t spoken to him since, it’s August. My mom says will you ever feel bad and forgive him? No. And anytime I think I might I just view the recordings of what he did that day. I looked at an old message my friend sent me, on my birthday she wishes me the happiest birthday, and the day after since I was in school she texted me later if I was okay because I had seemed off. That’s my why. He’s a lying, abusive, bipolar piece of degenerated shit and he’s not my father. My father left me 12 years ago when he moved to another country. Now im trying my hardest to get into uni for medicine so I can show im not going to lose to his actions. Even during my graduation speech I thanked my mom and brother..Got way too much hate from his side of the family who know what he’s done. Non-respectfully, fuck him. Thank you.

I just feel nothing. For a long time, no sadness or joy just a prolonged indifference to everything. The world is on fire for the sake of greed, my work is a dying career gasping at the noose of AI replacements. I feel as though I have no agency or autonomy in my own life. Just an automated, grey nothingness.

WHOEVER took my moth plush at Ihop SLEEP WITH ONE FUCKING EYE OPEN I WILL FIND YOU. This happened like a month ago but yes, I am still PISSED. FUCKING STOLE MY COMFORT PLUSH FOR NO REASON???? So yeah uhhh person who took that plush i hate you

Whoever made rantram tsym I can finally vent <33

Uhhh don't read if ur sensitive to sh and sa/sxual topics ok? take care of urself btw I FUCKING HATE MY LIFEEEEEEE I AM SO MAD AND MISERABLE AAAAAAAAA I WAS SO STUPID WHY DID I WATCH THOSE FUCKING PORN VIDEOS?!?!?@?@?@?@? IM ADDICTED I CANT STOP IM GONNA KMSSSSS I HATE HIW MASTURVATING IS SO NORMALIZED BC LOOK WHAT IT DID TO ME I THOUGHT IF EVERONE ELSE DOES IT WHY CANT I????? I HATE CUTTING BUT ITS THE ONLY THING THAT HELPS I LOVE IT AND HATE IT I DONT EVEN KNOW IF MY "SA" COUNTS MY DAD TOUCHED MY ASS WHEN HE WAS DRUNK BUT IT WAS ONLY ONCE OR TWICE IM PROBABLY JUST A CRYBABY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA