All Rants

I WANT THIS PLANET, MYSELF INCLUDED, TO JUST EXPLODE AND BE DONE ALREADY....BRING ON THE END!!!!

i keep having the thought of all roads leading to suicide, i dont know how much longer im going to make it, im not emotionally available but i want to be heard so bad.

I want to die. Alone, isolated, no family no friends and not by choice. I tried ligature with my belt last year before Thanksgiving...not another unholiday(s) as I feel celebrating them just emphasizes I'm alone. Failed obviously. Passed out and as I did I can honestly say I was feeling at peace. Violently awoken, couldn't control my body, grand mal seizure due to lack of oxygen/blood flow later was found out. Lost bladder and bowel control. Neighbor in the building had called police because she thought someone was being beaten up. My eyes were so bloodshot they looked like cherries and my face was purple, belt mark around my neck...in short the first responders knew immediately. Carted off to a psyche ward for 3 weeks, refused medication...i worked in healthcare for 26 years...know the side effects. Played along, talked to the shrink and got the fuck outta there. I'm right back where i was. Don't need comments need a hug.

I’m leaving my job, but finishing out my 2 weeks in an environment where it feels like I don’t belong when I once did is heartbreaking. I really just want to be done now. It’s affecting my mental health and I have nobody to talk to without burdening them. It’s ruining my relationship in the process because I’m burdening him with my feelings and it’s not fair to him. I let my walls down for too long, and I can’t rebuild them again.

Im insecure about my looks, I have acne, but it had been getting better now, and my hair is so fragile, probably because my autistic little brother keeps pulling on it when he’s mad at me, I’ve told a parent about his but they favour him. Im also insecure about my teeth, they look yellow, even though I brush them daily. Also when I get out the shower I have all these red itchy spots on my chest, they do go away but they are so annoying.

Yeah, I miss my groomer too and he is a total bum and I have a great stable life living with my best friend and soulmate.

My friends are mean, they bully me, after telling them about my sen they just made fun of my more but I can’t find new friend bc making friends is hard for me and I don’t like being alone

I miss my groomer. I've never felt so special before, I felt like a priority. He would make time for me. I didn't have to be the person to text first all the time. Now I'm all alone, I have two friends and none of them make me feel as special as he did. They never check up on me. They can see I'm struggling. even when I'm cutting myself they don't care. I make time for them constantly but they couldn't give two shits about me, they never ever talk to me first. They probably just find me annoying and want me gone. I would give anything to feel that special again.

I don't know what's wrong with me Im perfectly healthy in a stable relationship in a stable household But I still feel empty? I cry myself to sleep every single night I think my past still looms over me but im really trying to heal I don't want to stay like this forever

I want someone to love, to share my romance and confidence as it drives me to better myself. I wish to cuddle to the chest and bask in the heartbeat of a beloved, and whisper sweet nothings to each other in our embrace. I want to feel alive and wish to have someone that makes me happy to be loved, to be chosen, to have a reason to why I deserve to be alive.

Nothing of this world, let alone a single country, have ever been worth living for due to the escalating evils and depression events we all have to suffer from. Our religion is a joke that displays those who wish to do good are powerless and buried, while those who worship evil flourish and suffer no consequences, all in the name of God. Our admission has lied, cheat, and corrupt any chance to promote good and fair lifestyles that instead, are force to adapt a stream of anti social, apathic and self centered emotions that if you were to cry outrages, you will be buried than listened too. Labor and businesses have became stagnated in their goals and thus no matter how much they need "Help Wanted", they will work skeleton crews as layoffs, merges, and cost cutting practices remove people's hopes and dreams to the abyss, all because the boss wants to hold on to the fat coin purse. Many more issues as well, but at the core, what is the point of caring for a world when it doesn't?

Coworker getting married. Never shuts up about it.

Im lesbian, i have a crush on my best friend, my mum is homophobic, my nan is a christian, they always ask if i have a boyfriend yet, no, i dont want one, i want a girl, one i can snuggle with in a blanket, one that can understand my struggles, one that i know actually loves me, unlike them, i feel like the only people who love me are some of my friends, my nan and my baby cousin, i just want to kill myself so bad, but i have so much to live up for... Not really... But i dont want to be reborn in the future, and if we dont reincarnate im going to hell, my lust won my body, im ga y and i question my religion daily, im disgusting and i hate myself Sorry if that was too much Please help i need a hug from somebody that actually cares

I have always had a honor of a son and brother mentally when it comes to my brother and sister, but recently its at the tipping point that I might be driven to leave home, or take it further. I have been traumatize emotionally and mentally for years by those two, never been given proper and consistent respect, personal insults to my character all while I can't take it "personal" even if they used such words, yell at me and my brother over small mistakes, never paid u back the money we gave them, and most importantly, it doesn't feel like a family, just a group of benefactors, coworkers, and associates, and any love to be found is the bare minimum when promised in full.

I have cut my self, burnt my self, bit my self, and nothing has been helping. I think I should just die

I want to be a boy... shes so pretty, i love her, her personality, i just love her, i wish she was lesbian

I dont know whats happening, you know when we were younger and we would make imaginary youtube channels? I did that, ive been doing it for a few months now, but now i feel like i'm a REAL youtuber every outing, every walk, every game i feel like I'm recording, and i imagine fake haters, fans and even my bio and pfp, i dont know whats wrong with me

I just don’t want to live. This world is too exhausting to do anything

Why can't you love me like I love you?

if i am a dog my fur is torn and matted. if i am a dog my heart is dry and lonesome. if i am a dog my sight is lost snd i’ve forgotten all love and affection. if i am a dog i lay on the ground as guests compliment my looks while i huff and puff struggling to breathe. if i am a dog i cant eat until i feel loved so i starve for hours waiting for a greeting. if i am a dog all feeling has drained from my body and i form a canvas for others to project ideas onto me. if i am a dog i suffer as much as i do a human. if i am a dog just know i do feel feelings that you are unaware of. if i am a dog you neglect your actions that affect me because you don’t get why dogs are the way they are. if i am a dog im worth that of a child or object. if i am a dog my loyalty is seen before my heart as people paint me into a symbol. if i am a dog my smell poisons you as you refuse to wash me.