All Rants

“Why are you even friends with them they’re weird” bitch they’re the only thing keeping me alive rn stfu

Jokes over I want to call my boy best friend but he doesn’t have a phone but he’s like the person who gets me he knows more than anyone else does I just wanna see him he doesn’t even go to my school..

I never feel like I am enough. Even when life got better after a rough childhood of fitting out and always being the problem child when I was only autistic and they didn't realize until later on and apologized. I still don't feel like I am enough. And that I am too much or too annoying. That I am too clumsy. And that I am too sensitive. I even especially get hurt when I tell my parents I want to go with them even just to the grocery store so I can get out of the house and I get ready to go because they said I could and once I look out the front door they are already gone and left me behind again. This has happened over 87 times. But then when they get upset with me for hovering over them when we are getting ready to leave because I am scared they will leave me behind again. Because they don't care about the fact that I don't get enough time out of the house besides school and they think it isn't their problem. I hate that I'm not enough, and I guess I never will be.

“And they can’t relate to how I’ve drawn out in sharpie where I’d take the scissors if that’s what it took for me to look in the mirror I’ve done every diet to make me look thinner so why do I still feel so GOD DAMN INFERIOR”

I wish people understand what it’s like to be the one who stays quiet about everything bc my friend was playing with me and just messing around and it’s normal and it’s how we play but for some reason I was getting so strung up i think it’s bc I was already on alert bc there was yelling not too long ago and all the fast moves she was doing just made me anxious but I was sitting there triggered af trying to act like I’m fine while I’m scratching at my arm one of my friends noticed I look uncomfortable but like I have to sit there smiling and acting fine when I’m skipping meals been thinking about committing more triggered at school a lot and a lot of home shit like how am I supposed to do that-

I hate my moms bf. this is one of the most stupidest things ever but I genuinely hate him and i dont think I will ever like him. ever since him and my mom have been dating theyre always leaving me and my 3 younger siblings behind, and im the oldest. They leave us alone at the house for hours/days (idrc) Hes super sensitive and tries to ground me and siblings over all the little things. I know at my age i should be more responsible but he doesnt try to understand my mistakes at all and punishes me anyways. Perhaps its a personal thing but it doesnt serve as much as a lesson, unfortunately. It just annoys me and fuels my hate towards him. Im just being honest but it all seems too mean. I try my best to understand, listen to whatever they say. But my stupid mind is just saying its unfair. I should be grateful they dont beat me or anything but im still frustrated. i wanan say more but i wont bc the word limit ive never used this but i rlly js needed to let this out have a good day

Idk if I can do this shit anymore..

Why is being an only child so awful? Nobody in my house really talks to me and my friends at school only talk sometimes. I’m alone ALL THE TIME. I can’t even do anything about it. I think this is why i strive for online friends, but that doesn’t work either. Everything just seems so quiet and empty. And then i get left with my own thoughts. When i’m left with my own thoughts, i get sad because i am scared to open up to anybody and there’s nobody to open up TO. i hate the feeling that i have nobody to talk to or ill get judged. I want to tell people how i feel and what i’m struggling with. BUT I CANT. because what if someone tells my parents or some counselor? i don’t want to be exposed like that. And i want help, but i don’t want to get better. It’s addicting, honestly. It’s awful in every way as well. Because i’m hurting myself and i WANT to. but then again i know i shouldn’t and want to stop. i hate being alone, i hate being an only child. and i’m tired of nobody being there for me.

my sibling tried to commit suicide twice this year and its eating at me when I think about them or anything happy and I'm irritable and mean to my friends sometimes when I am thinking of it

I wish they would get it I have to be perfect all the time but they didn’t see me in the kitchen about to cry bc I wanted to commit and my friend couldn’t call and I had to wash the dishes so I had access to knives but i couldn’t leave and stop bc I was scared I’ll get yelled at I wish she could see that I’m starting to be scared of her now and don’t trust her bc when I tell her stuff that means losing my control I wish he could see how much I’m struggling I wish they could see that I’m still struggling and lying to them bc I’m scared I wish they would actually get it and not push and make it worse

Bro two of my friends think my brothers hot and like him and i sent a pic of him being a bit stupid (totally a gorgeous pic) and said “what do yall see in this creature 😭” (this is normal i tease him he teases me) and one of them said “He’s so funny and it’s like he brightened up a room funny and it’s like he seems like a really fun person to be around and someone that would match my energy” i was so fucking tempted to say “ya the person who made me relapse bad and almost try to make myself throw up bc of one of his jokes matches your energy..”

I just wish that you didn’t have to be so fucking mean to me all the time. I just really don’t like you at this point. I just don’t know anymore. I’m not happy. I’m not happy at all. You make me feel bad about myself and just in general most days. I don’t have much more or this in me. I wish you just were better, but I’m starting to really accept that might not ever be possible.

I don’t know what it’s gonna take for me to finally respect myself and find someone who actually values me and loves me and doesn’t just wanna treat me like shit and use me for whatever they want.

So, some background knowledge: This is all set in 7th Grade, It’s Recent, and I don’t know what to think Storytime! I’m just chilling in class right? Bell rings, I pack my stuff, and my crush is walking infront of me, and I’m just doing my thing, mostly calm, but I notice, he held the door for me, and even glanced back at me, he is usually the nonchalant quiet kid, so I think I short circuited for a moment. Our teacher likes to pick on students that act a bit too close. Which is why we never spoke, yet we speak in actions and we have a lot of differences, here is a list of what he likes and what I like, even some things in common (all gathered from observation) Him: He is Quiet, Likes Football, Probably prefers a type of rock music, Has a sorta large friend group Me: Ambivert-Introvert, Prefers the arts (Robotics, Literature, etc), Likes K-pop, Medium friend group Similarities: Likes sweatshirts, Not afraid to answer in class

Highly relatable to another post. My area has the worst drivers I've ever encountered. They just tap.the brake n go at a 4 way stop sign so if you're turning next thing you know they're suddenly tailgating you. TF!?!?! then it's the people who see you coming pull out in front of you go 25 feet and turn off. THAT'S MY BIGGEST PET PEEVE THAT'S SO FUCKING STUPID SMH. or you get 10 ft from someone they still pull out in front of you FORCING YOU TO STOP. this happened the other day still boggles mind why the person did it. Nobody was behind or in the other direction but they still did that. So many people also drive through the parking spaces at the local grocery stores. Because of that idiocy I've been near hit multiple times. So many people need their licenses taken away and not given access to being behind the wheel. I never had anxiety til I came to this area (to the degree I do today).

Hmph, yeah. Thanks neighbors. You just proved my theory right. The one person up there with the baby comes...you're all mostly super quiet. I mean heaven forbid you disturb the little baby. So apparently they leave and it goes from really quiet to sounding like a raccoon is trying to dig through the ceiling with all the effing crackling noise (WOKE ME UP BY THE WAY😡). these people are horrible. I regret ever knowing they're existence. Anybody that tosses cats out in the winter when it's inconvenient for them, that kinda says a lot . Not to mention these Karen's tried to get us evicted as well. It doesn't bother fam as much as me and I don't understand why. Ofc they're not jumped out of bed like me by them either so. I just can't stand shitty people especially two face cut throat hypocrites. Heaven forbid someone tarnish your precious good image on social media when you treat people like garbage in real life. Fake fucking people. How bout you act in real life the way u do online. Bitch

I want her to know that I agree with the breakup, but believe it couldve gone differently. Im not happy, the things that I used to do for fun, my hobbies, my passions, dont bring me joy anymore, and I want to fix that, and I want to be able to be happy in the relationship with her. All im praying, is that she knows im working on myself, and working to becoming happier for myself and for us. And if during this time she finds someone else or cuts me out completely, I fully support it, but all I ask for is communication. Im trying, and I just hope she does. I want to find my spark again, I want to feel my feels during this time and rise back up better. Im aware im not okay right now, and know I wont be for a while, but it doesnt mean I wont try. I want to draw when I can, play my games when I can, write my music when I can, and be happier again, with my friends, my family, and with my job. Ts aint easy, but it wont last forever. Im hopeful for the future, and wish to drop my burdens soon

Me and my girlfriend have been going through an incredibly rough patch together and it was slowly killing our relationship. After a make or break moment, we had an extremely deep and intimate conversation about what we want and what our futures look like. We both agreed that we both want to be with each other because we love being with each other, but in the state that we're in, its only going to get worse, so we agreed on taking a break for a while until our individual problems are solved, while remaining friends so that we can still see each other. But as of last night, she got so drunk at my house party leaving me sober to take care of her all while she uncomfortably touches me, rants to me, fluctuates emotions and everything. This morning, I explained that I didnt like the state she was in and told her how uncomfortable the things she was doing to me made me feel, and she overwhelmingly cut me off completely. now im left confused, depressed, and unmotivated.

Hello everybody, so I have been dealing with stress and low self-esteem for a while now. I’m really trying to get better with my confidence, but it has been tremendously difficult. I’m 15 and obviously going through puberty and so many changes. Ever since I started getting acne, it has been very hard for me to see the beauty in myself again. I was just wondering if you guys have any tips on how I can stay confident even with acne, or just in general, because I feel like it’s not healthy for me to think so low of myself.

Queensland has the worst drivers I have ever encountered. Worst. Ever.