All Rants

Honestly a mix of things is causing issues right now for me. I feel like my next couple months is hopeless in so many ways. But there is so much potential and I’m worried I won’t be able to realize it.

I feel very insecure about not being good enough physically for my boyfriend. I can’t make him cum and it’s really bugging me. He has these anime girl figurines that I look nothing like and he draws naked girls that I also don’t look like

My teacher just kicked half the class outside in the cold weather for having their backpacks in the wrong spot, we have a shelf to put our backpacks on but some students keep in near the shelf or near the whiteboard, today she decided to kick half the class out with their backpacks and made them wait for twenty minutes in the cold and the doors were locked, the vice principle was walking around and saw the students and asked what happened they tried to open the door to find it was locked and when they unlocked it and confront the teacher, the teacher lied and said they were "taking a break" when she really lied and just kicked them out of the class and some students went to the office because the teacher said you "can take it to the office if you want" and she said they were lying although she said it herself

My ex-situationship now has a girlfriend. He posts her on his Instagram, goes on dates with her, goes out with her, and does TikTok trends with her — things I know he always wished to do with someone. Frankly, I was hurt and still am. I thought that maybe he would somehow come back someday, but he didn't. I always hoped. But perhaps him having a girlfriend is a sign from the universe that he has healed and is ready to love someone again. This is deeper than jealousy—whatever it is, it hurts. However, even though I'm hurting, I pray that she treats him gently, shows him that love can be calm and peaceful, that it doesn't require battling against problems every day, that love doesn't require being exhausted. To her: Please take care of him. His favorite colors are black, white, and gray. He likes techy stuff. Learn the games he plays: COD, Roblox, etc. Your reposts matter to him so much, don't make him overthink. Ruffle his hair jokingky then fix it then kiss it, he likes it. lovehim

I still meet up with my ex situationship. Although I was truthful towards the younger guy, I know that it was wrong to jump into something new when my feelings for my ex situationship were still there. The younger guy and I ended in March; it was toxic anyway. He had issues and boundaries crossed that never stood right to me--I have never met anyone who disrespected me as much as he did. But that never excused what I did to him. Then, I healed after some time, and I still love my ex-situationship. In September, I met another guy. He was the most green flag guy I have ever met. I loved him deeply and maturely; we were healthy, and everyone supported us because of it. Unfortunately, we ended because of our parents. But even he can't make me feel love again as much as December guy did.

I was in a situationship with this guy for 7 months from December to July. I realized that you never really know in the moment how much love you have for them, not at least after seeing yourself do things that are extreme, unexpected decisions that you never saw yourself making. Admittedly, I had red flags, and looking back at those times, I wasn't mature enough to sustain what we had. I guess that's one of the reasons why he lost feelings and decided to let go in July. Monthly, we would talk, make a move, send indirect signals, just to express that we're still somehow waiting for each other. We were still in the restaurant, but neither of us dared to sit down next to one another. I jumped into another situationship with a younger guy. I never gave him any clarity, showed interest, but not a substantial intention. Although I had interests, I can never lie to myself that I still love the guy from December. During those times, even though the younger guy and I were on and off, I would st

My therapist helps me but is too expensive. I tell about my relationship problems with Muhammad Lee and it is nice but expensive

Rant about my neighbor. They are loud

Someone got chased by vehicles attempting to crash them and the police won't believe them. Genuinely what is the point in police and laws at that point? I am sick of humans. Something needs to reap us.

I hate my dads house. I get called lazy, dumb, and that no boy will ever love me. I left my moms today until friday and im sick of ''Just make it to friday' i cant. They are so toxic and only care about school. When my dad gets home my phone and TV will prob be taken because I have 2 A and One B an ONe F in math. So i will be in pain while i sleep tn. But I need him to know I love him and to understand my choice of picking my mom when the day comes.

My random episodes of sadness for some reason whenever things don't go my way

I never really felt peace and ease. I just saw the young left and old right. But what am I? But who am I to speak of this? Never cried mom for comfort but of fear. Daddy was never here. Text and call and then he's gone. Waiting and waiting. How long do I have to be waiting cried the center. "Don't be so impatient you can't be a nurse with impatient." It's disrespect. I'm who I am. Not who you are... Switch and flip my expressions flip. One to another satisfied for them but one of them. No real childhood. I'm still a teen. But my mother will never seemingly support my dreams. I can't wear this. I can't wear that. I can't be the greatest that I am at that. No straight a's no straight relationships. Will my life end before my own birthday hits. Fourteen to fifth teen. I can't handle it anymore. Ruined life and home. I wasn't even born yet. I don't think I'll regret what will happen next. I feel empty. I feel sad. I don't know how to react. Is that bad?..

Did you know that hospitals aren't necessarily that fun. You see, my brother stomach exploded. He's much much younger than me, and seeing a such a small child being hooked up to tubes and it's literally made me cry (I kept it in as best I could but my mom knew definitely) I genuinely want to time travel toward in time to where it all gets better and back to normal :/

I just belive on my self no matter anything, cause just someone to help our self just our self no one cant do

i feel invalid when i hear other people’s problems

i have an absent father, bipolar mother who always picks on me and blames me for everything, friends who don’t want to hang out with me and an ex i just dumped because i felt used even though i was the one who wasnt anything serious with him

We're about to spend hundreds of dollars at the doctor because my husband can't handle feeling off for more than 2 seconds. My dude, you are RUINING this entire day. And I'm tired of coddling him.

i want peace. i want to be where there is comforting silence, where there is no feeling of anxiety n worry, where there r no needs, where there r no responsibilities, i would like to sometimes take a break from these correspondence w ppl

I'm like so fucking tired of having nobody and getting in toxic relationships and it feels like I'm always gonna be alone and my parents don't let me talk to people outside of school. they only give a shit about my grades not my mental health. I even started cvtting. I have nobody at this point. and I don't even have a phone. they even found out about my secret one. I hate it I hate it. why can't I get what other people have. I'm so sick of this

I think it is so important to have the capacity to know that some ppl work so much harder than yourself. When you think to urself "woe is me", just know that someone is worker so much harder than you and still getting through it. I make room to appreciate other ppls resilience who dont complain or direct attention to them. Today at work I had to work an extra 2 hours. I woke up at 6am, studied, went to school from 11:30-3, then work 4pm-12am, being all down on myself. I was talking to one of the girls there and she told me she does 6 days a week, ~10hour days for the last three years...it humbled me so much. I am always reminded that others carry the world on their backs w/o objection. It makes me want to emulate their energy, to work harder and continue on. <3