All Rants

Did you know that hospitals aren't necessarily that fun. You see, my brother stomach exploded. He's much much younger than me, and seeing a such a small child being hooked up to tubes and it's literally made me cry (I kept it in as best I could but my mom knew definitely) I genuinely want to time travel toward in time to where it all gets better and back to normal :/

I just belive on my self no matter anything, cause just someone to help our self just our self no one cant do

i feel invalid when i hear other people’s problems

i have an absent father, bipolar mother who always picks on me and blames me for everything, friends who don’t want to hang out with me and an ex i just dumped because i felt used even though i was the one who wasnt anything serious with him

We're about to spend hundreds of dollars at the doctor because my husband can't handle feeling off for more than 2 seconds. My dude, you are RUINING this entire day. And I'm tired of coddling him.

i want peace. i want to be where there is comforting silence, where there is no feeling of anxiety n worry, where there r no needs, where there r no responsibilities, i would like to sometimes take a break from these correspondence w ppl

I'm like so fucking tired of having nobody and getting in toxic relationships and it feels like I'm always gonna be alone and my parents don't let me talk to people outside of school. they only give a shit about my grades not my mental health. I even started cvtting. I have nobody at this point. and I don't even have a phone. they even found out about my secret one. I hate it I hate it. why can't I get what other people have. I'm so sick of this

I think it is so important to have the capacity to know that some ppl work so much harder than yourself. When you think to urself "woe is me", just know that someone is worker so much harder than you and still getting through it. I make room to appreciate other ppls resilience who dont complain or direct attention to them. Today at work I had to work an extra 2 hours. I woke up at 6am, studied, went to school from 11:30-3, then work 4pm-12am, being all down on myself. I was talking to one of the girls there and she told me she does 6 days a week, ~10hour days for the last three years...it humbled me so much. I am always reminded that others carry the world on their backs w/o objection. It makes me want to emulate their energy, to work harder and continue on. <3

I am having a issue with my pet dog. She has recently started going to the bathroom inside the house instead of going outside. I am not sure if the recent weather ( we just got a lot of snow) has to do with it or not. I am worried because we might have to give her up and she is my baby and I don't want to get rid of her.

Sometimes I just look in the mirror and wonder what went wrong. Simple plan was right, I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare.

I hate my culture. They treat women like trash, and I'm pretty sure I'll be the next one. I'm only 15 so I'm supposed to have a lot of time to think of my future, but my family thinks they have it all laid out. I do NOT want to be a flipping housewife to some greasy slug. They label me as lazy, boyish, etc for thinking its unfair that all the chores are dropped on my shoulders. While my capable brothers sit back and taunt me. What in the Cinderella is this? I thought the 21st century was supposed to be modern. And oh my god if you could see the way my brother talks about women?! He described his future wife as if he was talking about a freaking car! dude it's so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm 16 years old and lately I've been realizing that I'm going to need to change my life. Yea i have a home, going to high school, have food and a mom to call family. But that won't last forever. I don't even know what I want to do when I grow up, am I weird for that? Man, I've done many bad things, had addictions like smoking weed, cigarettes, and sometimes drank. It's hard to change. I was so kind and sweet when I was a small boy. I always think more than I have too. Don't you ever wish to agree that our beliefs make us live, I believe in God, or the devil, or many gods but frankly, that's the only thing keeping you from telling yourself, " I'm only living and real because it, that, or they make me real." I hate how I can't just live. when will we all die? when will an end come. Sometimes anything i care about turns into a question, i want to do good in my grades, looks, hygiene but then, what do i gain? self assurance, i just dont know anymore.

I have recently been asked by a friend if I'd run away with him. I had accidentally forgotten to take my mood stabilizer that day, so I told him yes, but now I don't want to. I'd feel bad telling him no, especially because he said that this is his last resort before he commits... I am significantly younger than him, but I'm the more mature one... And both of us think he would get severely injured if he were to run away alone. And he isn't a planner- more of a, "run with whatever happens" type of person, meanwhile I do a bunch of research and planning beforehand. I just think I need to run away with him, but I don't know. I just don't know. I have thought about leaving a note the night I leave, explaining everything, and telling them that I left track on so that they can "accidentally" find us... But I'd be betraying his trust... I also don't know what would happen because his parents are emotionally abusive and neglectful.

How is it you can have a great time with the person you are falling for and they know it and they know that you have trauma and overthink everything, and you explain to them such personal things about your trauma and self harm revory and they are they are the ones to cause you to relapse

Today i woke up feeling the weight of my world on my shoulders like atlas but the weight of my world seems to be crushing me. Like im slowly disappearing into nothingness i feel every day i just exists not even really living any more just kind of on auto-pilot, trying my best not to crash out from the overwhelming feeling of uselessness. I try to keep things together for the only people who matter to me now they look up to me thinking im some kind of hero, but they don't understand the mental struggles i am dealing with since the divorce. My life has been in a downwards spiral, like a destructive endless hurricane continuously keeping me in a choke hold but not killing me just holding its grip around my throat enough to function for my day to day. It then will leave for a few months allowing things too start to get better and without warning it swoops back in taking away any and all progress I have made to getting back on track and I feel defeated but know i must push on for them.

We need to talk about Five Nights at Freddy’s. Because the way this fandom acts sometimes is actually wild. First of all, FNAF is not dead. If you think FNAF is dead, you just stopped paying attention. “Oh, but the lore is too confusing now—” The lore has always been confusing. You’re telling me in 2014 you fully understood dead kids, haunted robots, a purple guy, and whatever was happening in those minigames? Be serious. And don’t even get me started on people who say “Security Breach ruined FNAF.” No it didn’t. It just exposed who only liked FNAF when it was simple. Because FNAF was never just about jumpscares. It was about atmosphere, mystery, and your brain doing gymnastics at three in the morning. Hot take: the Mimic is not bad lore. You’re just mad it wasn’t your favorite YouTuber’s theory. And yes, Scott leaving changed things. But acting like the franchise is soulless now is crazy when we’re still getting games, books, and a movie sequel. Let’s be honest. You don’t hate modern

I have exes. Two. I was cheated on by both of them few years ago. After that, I did not date for 6 years and a half. I'm dating someone now and I like the idea of them initiating wearing my hair tie on their wrist (and girly bracelets). Or just hanging my things on their stuff (like bag). Somehow it helps me learn how to trust again and prevent me from spiraling and overthinking if they have someone else (dating or just secretly in their mind). These past few weeks though I noticed they haven't been wearing anything from me. It took me a while to notice which was a surprise because I was overly sensitive with just about everything in my past relationship (especially in my second one). I have been relapsing (is that the right word?). I don't know. But somehow I feel and know the doubt is back again. And it's scary again.

My mental health has been horrible I recently broke up with my boyfriend I have borderline personality disorder so it’s hard to keep going

I’m scared of the future. I’m scared of the day I graduate and she has to face those days without me there. I don’t want her to grow up thinking she has to get used to being alone. She’s kind, she’s good, and she deserves real friends who see her heart. I feel love, fear, sadness, and frustration all at the same time. Loving someone so much and not being able to fix everything is one of the hardest feelings in the world

Sometimes I get so jelaous of my bf's female friend that I hate it. It's not like I dislike her or anything, I just cannot get over the fact that he has another girl in his life which he prefers spending time with other than me. It may sound toxic, but it's not as I try to be supportive of him because I know he loves me, but sometimes it just gets too much that it eats me out inside. He constantly checks up on her, calls with her, goes on coffee runs everytime they get the chance and I know it's nothing like what I'm overthinking, but it hurts that he doesn't understand my point of view and why I am the way I am. I promised to not make a big deal about it anymore, so I'm writting here, but sometimes it gets too much and I hate it. I wish he wouldn't put so much focus on her and more on his guy friends and me. I understand that this is insecurity and I'm trying to deal with it as best as I can, without hurting him or his relationships.