All Rants

I fucking hate my body and I wish I could change myself.

I love my family but I also I hate them. It's about ignoring, misunderstood and not having enough freedom.

being part of a generation where you have to be pretty or attractive just to be seen is so fucking hard. I feel like a pig everytime I wear makeup. My fyp is filled with skinny girls and I desperately wish i looked like them. Yes I know it's unhealthy. Yes I know I should try love myself. But what I would give to be pretty.

i promise that things will get better, one way or another. im not here to tell you what to do but make sure to get enough sleep everyday and eat and dont starve yourself okay ? dont hurt yourself in anyway, please. I will always be here for you, even when you are sad or angry. I will always be here. i love you alot.

I have no one to talk to. I maybe need a sensible adviced. Im not yet married 10 yrs in relationship. We have 1 kid 15 mos old but we talk about getting married were just saving enough money. Now, heres my struggle, i dont know if this is still postpartum or some changes to myself that i am not aware of. My partner always got home very late, sometimes 2 am or 4 am. Sometimes he's drunk, or drink a little with his friends that i know. However Im not at peace everytime he do that. I always feel worry i want him to be around. i want him to be at home early. i always feel frustrated, i dont know why. i really don't understand myself, he does let me know where he will go or that he will drink, but still i fell frustrated. is there something wrong with me?

i'm so fucking sick of everything like it's so fucking hot that i can't do anything and i'm stuck in my boiling hot bedroom cos everyone downstairs is too fucking loud and won't shut the fuck up and my period won't fucking stop why did it literally stop then come back out of nowhere actually fuck you 💔 it's the 5th heatwave in the last 3 fucking months and my mom is STILL refusing to get air conditioning even though she promised me she would? so wow thanks you literally just lied, she didn't even try to. can she just not lie to me and get my hopes up? i literally feel sick every single day cos of how hot it is. why the fuck would i wanna lie in a boiling hot room with a loud fan that hurts my ears that's blowing warm water on me every single fucking day because it's the only way to feel even slightly cooler? i hate summer so fucking much i'm so fucking sick of this shit. i'm so sick of her telling me to just open a window IT IS OPEN AND IT DOESN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING 😭

I cannot do this anymore. I hate the way i look. i fucking hate it. im a 14yo who literally weights 68kgs at 5'6, i feel so big. I refuse to wear tight clothes. i keep comparing myself to girls tiktoks- girls from my school. genuinely hate myself, i wanna restart nd lose weight

but didnt want your partner to be lgbtq because you wanted him to have the same morals as you. i asked you what if your ideal type was bi and you said no. it doesnt matter if you dont voice out your opinion because the very mentality you have that i am wrong is as damaging as someone who is openly homophobic. i rather you spit on me instead of wearing a sheeps skin like the wolf you are.

it geniunely boggles my fucking mind when someone says their homophobic. my friend recently told me (a lesbian) that she didnt mind lgbtq because everyone is entitled to their own opinions, but she personally didnt support lgbtq but wouldnt openly go against it. like she told me that it was against her morals. and i straight up asked her "oh so if i kiss a girl and if a guy kisses a guy its not ok?" and she told me that its wrong but im entitled to my own shit and she would still be my friend. this all started because when i asked her if she would date a ftm trans man who already has all the parts she said no because he wouldnt technically be a man. like ive been your friend for over 3 years you should know better than this. you have supported me through my now ex then girlfriend and told me what to do to get her then break up with her. why is my very existence wrong to you. why does homosexuality go against your morals? you told me you didnt care if ur friend was trans but didnt want

Last night my boyfriend just admitted to being actively suicidal — as in, he had an ongoing plan to commit suicide. It's pathetic, but I figured it out through his tiktok reposts and collections. At first, I was a bit panicked. I was overwhelmed about what I was meant to do; do I reach out to the proper authorities or do I just leave it be? Eventually, I decided to confront him about what I saw. He confessed the truth, but didn't show any signs that he was going to stop. I accepted it at front, I knew whay I was signing up for when I got into this relationship. He was already depressed before we got together. To be honest, I was expecting for this to happen anyway. I just didn't think it'd go this way. I'll let him do what he wants. I don't care whether he follows through it or not, I'm going through a tough time myself. It's a selfish decision to stay quiet, I know. It feels like I've murdered him myself just by making this decision. But there's no other choice for me.

WHY TF YOU MAD AT ME? I DIDNT WANNA CHECK SCHOOL LITERALLY 2 MINUTES BEFORE YOU HAD TO LEAVE. I CANT EVEN DO SCHOOL YET BECAUSE WE HAVE NOT EVEN PICKED OUT MY LESSONSSSSSS YOU THE TEACHER MOTHER, IDK HOW TO OPERATE THE TEACHER SIDE, THATS ON YOU 😡

I've been so angry with my mum over recent stuff while also having extreme guilt and death anxiety about her passing one day. I'm realising she's wasted her life with a man who doesn't love her and treats her horribly. I wish she would meet someone she genuinely loves. I wish she could have the life she wants. Even if it means she wouldn't have me, I wish he met someone else who genuinely loved her and supported her passion. I want so badly to give her everything she wants but I'm so terrified that I won't and she'll spend her whole life in regret. I cannot imagine a world without my mum and it makes me feel so horrible that she feels so lost and sad because of my father. She can't escape him because my siblings still depend on her and she doesn't get paid enough. I wish she could win the lottery so she never had to worry again. She could leave my father and finally pursue her dreams.

Had a blood draw today. This girl really should look into another career because they may as well have shot my arm with a nail gun. Geez. They're like it'll be a small pinch. Ha. Pinch my butt. Felt more like an electric tree branch saw. And they seemed in a hurry also. It even hurt as I was leaving I looked it's partially blue already from a bruise. Girl you better get better or get another career choice. Nobodye enjoys that kind of experience. I know their are also some haters that take their aggression out on others too so you never know if it was done purposely. Sorry not sorry I've been mistreated so much I hardly trust anyone's actions anymore. Sometimes anyway. Idk I've hardly had sleep either. Sure I'll give people benefit of the doubt usually but I ve been going through so much b s lately idk how to view people in public. Of course not everyone is bad I know that. Tbh I see more kindness on social media from strangers than my own fam. That's crazy I know.

Don't you guys be a lawyer for that bitch. Fuck all of you. You even have a spokesperson and all that acting.

ive broken up with my ex, its been so long now. i have no more feelings for her but when i come across pictures of her family members it aches my heart that these people were meant to be my in-laws, or at least who i dreamt my in-laws to be because they were amazing people and i genuinely miss them so much that it hurts my heart a lot. i wish i could be able to meet them again somehow. i want to meet them again so much more than my ex

the guy i was talking to didnt want to block a girl for me and i told him if he doesnt block her ill leave and he said he wont so i blocked him.. i cant stop crying

My little brother abuses me, my whole life he has been scratching me and pulling my hair when he’s mad, when I was little he used to scratch my faces. His scratches make me bleed and it leaves scars, I can even see the ones on my face. I just can’t take anymore, today he was using MY laptop and when he went to the toilet I checked to see if he done anything to it, when he came out and saw me touching the laptop, he got mad and scratched me, I’m bleeding on my arm right now. I want to tell an adult about it but my parents just don’t care and favour my brother, also I don’t wanna tell a teacher because that would cause them to tell my parents and all that, and I don’t want my parents involved for reasons. Help I just don’t know what to do right now, avoiding making him mad is just so hard, this has been happening my whole life and I’m sick of it

You are not a beggar, you yearn. If your heart matches my words your princess is waiting for you, it might just take searching a few castles 🦋

A police officer yelled at me to get off my phone cause I was calling my sister while walking out of the airport And I quote: "Get off your phone so people can get home to their places!" Miss I'm standing right behind some random stranger in line I don't think I can go faster (I haven't seen my sis in abt 2 months this call was emotional) But anyways I feel terrible ueueuue am I overthinking

this guy i starting 'dating' in school nothing serious just like talking online, seeing eachother at school it was fun. but after moving schools talking to him everyday felt like a burden, i felt bad but i would rather do anything else but talk to him. the guy i was so excited to talk to everyday turned into someone i would be annoyed at when i saw persistent messages. the worst thing? he was so considerate, texting me everyday asking about my day and constantly checking up on me. i felt and feel like the bad guy. after ghosting him for two weeks i couldn't take it anymore and sent him a lengthy paragraph expressing my thoughts and feelings. i still couldn't decipher my conflicting ideas, do i love him? do i hate him? or is it something that will quickly fade over. i spent everyday fighting a battle with myself, wondering what to do. i didnt cut off communication with him completely but he didnt text me back, understandable. i still feel guilty and its his bday this month and i miss u