All Rants

I feel like a burden to my parents. They keep working to earn money and here I am spending it on school and I also have prom in March but I'm not going and I don't want to tell them as hello we are in a financial situation. On top of that I keep worrying on how I can help them huhuhu -_-

It frustrates me that most other women are having babies but I'm not

im sick of living, i havent had a day of peace and im uncomfortable everywhere. i hate being yelled at every day but my sibling still does it and my mum keeps blaming me for being 'aggressive' and 'loud' but i speak softly before i crash out and she doesnt see the good in me. nobody sees the good that i do at all and they all see me as ugly or weird or some negative stupid thing like that. i dont understand why im like this and i dont understand why i get treated like this by my own family. all i want is to be left alone for a day and to just lay around doing nothing without being shamed for it

Am i wrong for wanting a break away from my boyfriend after he attempted again? He told me like it didn't matter, this is maybe the third time i know of. Were long distance so it scares me.

I don't want to do-anything stupid in retaliation or to get back at him for doing something that may just be all in my head. I could very easily call up a dozen dudes willing to spend time and money on my company . With in a few hours I could be back to selling pushy and making lots of easy bread in no time. I wouldn't have to wait on my lover to provide me with what he desires I need. I could pay for all my own shit cigarettes fatty clear gas for the car and a new t ire and windshield wiper I could get my nails Done eyebrows and hair done. I could rent a motel Roland wash my dirty clothes instead of living in a rundown abandoned building and wearing the same dirty hand washed t shrt everyday. But I wouldn't have him and I would still be a low life and be singing against God ....

I love him so much. Too much. I think he loves me too maybe . I used to be sure but I really don't know anything about anything any more... That chic I have known for at lest 6 years 3 more then I have Him and from the gate I warned him to stay clear of her . But from the gate he has gone out of his way to befriend knowing I feel disrespected by the friendship. She knows it too. She says she isn't interested in him at all but why then do they so easily find their ways to each other every time he disappears? Why dose everyone acute the two of them and ask me why my boyfriend spends so much of his time with her? Why do I have to pry information from him to find out they hang out together? Why that friendship worth more to him then our relationship?

I fucking hate every single thing in this world right now. With the geopolitcal issues led by manbabies, to the fucking AI slop easily draining brains right now with the fucking crap people consume nowadays. Are we just headed to this capitalist doom? Are we this fucking hopeless? Fuck everything honestly, the fucking future is so bleak. I'm so sorry for being negative but every single thing now is much harder than before, from applying jobs that aren't real to fucking inflation sucking my wallet dry. Fuck this

Ive been trying to get better at talking to people about my problem but I absolutely hate it. I keep thinking "maybe im over sharing" "maybe they dont care" "maybe im wasting there time" "maybe they actually hate me" just so many thoughts. I really hate it, I hate it all. Ive also been trying I trying to stop my sh addiction. But I keep failing I keep screwing up i feel like such a failure. Ive been trying to talk about this with my best friend but I dont know if she actually cares or if im just making things hard on her and its killing me. It hurts I just want it to stop I dont want to feel hurt anymore I don't care how stupid and cheesy that sounds, I dont want to feel like im in so much pain. I just want to feel good I just wanna know that im not annoying, I want to believe that everyone i love, loves me too. I wish I could know how she truely feels about me venting to her. I wish I could just stop worrying about sk many things all thr goddamn time.

so i just had pep band, and I was with my friend. our gay bsf came over to show us his new crush, and i said it looked like my bsfs boyfriend. and she went off saying "this is why you got cheated on by the girl you were with for 6 months, and how that one girl blocked you, and the recent one wanted to see nudes from you." and it hurt really bad. i wasn't even saying anything bad i think, and she knows i'm HORRIBLE at relationships. all i can pull is girls and it pmo(no offence) and it just hurts. she's slowly not turning into my best friend anymore.

I am a political hostage westernc nc

A tradesman came to my place to fix something and started talking about condoms and making me uncomfortable I didn’t understand what was happbeing at that time and was just trying to get him to end the conversation but he kept on going on after I ignored him then he asked me another question “do condoms still exist “ and “where can you get them from” I said Yh try do you can get them from the store after I reported him but I feel so shotty and depressed because I wish I told him of then and there

Maybe I am just overreacting but for background just a year ago I found out about a health issue of mine that if I don't fix I wouldn't live past 25 my mom who just got surgery done for breast cancer didn't come with me at the time so she didn't know nor do I want to worry her since it could make the cancer cells regrow under stress especially since she is already doing 3 business having to take care of her parents due to being the eldest daughter what made it worse is my dad is a gambler while her siblings do nothing but spend her money making her work harder than she already is. Well so yeah I feel guilty all the time when I face my mom who is the one stopping me from harming myself as well as because I'm Afraid of pain. When I found out about my illness I started doing what the doctor said which was going well until my 10th grade sem 1 exam drew near which end up with me being burnt out and overeating ruining everything maybe I just overestimated myself

Cant even watch cars without going to school

having a lot of intrusive thoughts right now. i just want them gone. i hate being mentallty ill.

I feel so out of control of my life atm. I am so use to being in charge of what I do that going to school again feels like I have to put everything on the side. I dont have much time for other things other than study, and going to work. I feel like I am not myself. I know I have things taken care of in terms of finishing school but in the mean time I feel different than what I want to be. I have always liked going to school but once coming back I am reminded of the things I dont like about it. The marks that I get I feel dont reflect my studying, I see as my own self worth. It sucks feeling like you are only what percentage you get on a test/exam. Ugh I know time will pass but feeling how I feel makes me feel trapped in a way..

I’m so tired of being overweight, I hate what I see in pictures and videos and the mirror. Everyone says I should have body positivity but I fucking hate myself. I looked at a picture of myself from high school and it made me want to throw up all my food and stop eating. This isn’t healthy

I passed the first semester of organic chem just by memorizing the reactions, now its the second semester and I dont know how to do the real stuff and its too late to recover. I got 25/100 on my test, I am so hopeless. I just want to pass this class and transfer already..

I feel a bit hopeless. I been college four years wasting from a pharmaceutical to a nursing. Then dropped due to not passing the clinical. I know my parents don’t blame me for the situation but my mother even though she is loving and caring even says she feels stressed for my future. I pretend to act strong in front of them. I just feel like I can’t express myself to anyone. I either act too sensitive. I just feel better when I am alone I feel like I can’t express. I feel like I can breathe when I am alone and be myself when no one’s around. I have a great family it’s just I never feel comfortable talking about my sadness or if I had negative thoughts. They would just try to say you need to think positive. That’s why I couldn’t open to my parents. Especially my mother. I feel like I make things complicated if I do and she wouldn’t understand.

To argue that the World Wide Web is a failure, we must stop treating it like a natural disaster and start treating it like a crime scene. The "daily harm" isn't an accident; it is the business model. The following individuals and entities are the primary architects of this failure. They did not just "build an app"—they re-engineered the human psyche and dismantled the concept of a shared reality for profit. The Most Wanted: Architects of the Digital Collapse Mark Zuckerberg (Meta): The Psychological Strip-Miner He pioneered the "Move Fast and Break Things" ethos that broke the social fabric. By prioritizing "engagement" above all else, his platforms intentionally amplified outrage and misinformation because they are more profitable than truth. He presided over a system that internal research proved was damaging the mental health of teenage girls, yet he continued to push features designed for addiction. Larry Page & Sergey Brin (Alphabet/Google): The Forefathers of Surveillance Cap

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