All Rants

Deleting your socials for marriage is so real

I wanna kill myself so much, it’s not even funny. I’m in the worst part of my life and it’s a fight to not relapse. Everyone hates me, I hate myself. I hate my body, I hate my donkey teeth, I hate my sexuality, I hate my hobbies, I hate the people around me. I’m fucking 13 for crying out loud. I hope I die in my sleep or I’ll slit my throat in my kitchen

I’m so excited for my marriage!! yippieee! Ugh, I can’t wait to try out beautiful dresses. Thiss is my YEAR, for real! My fiancé is so handsome, I could dieeee!! ╰(*´︶`*)╯

to whoever is reading this please tell me your favorite movie i need a reason to live

I feel so alone. Like I feel like I have nobody.. I know I have people and friends but it takes them forever to answer me (a few hours to a few days). The person I call my “bff” isn’t even like…my bf…I just want to seem like I have that one really close friend that loves you sm, but I don’t. I don’t have anybody who really cares about me. I’m just kind of a backup.

I don't know what I did. Me and him talked every day for weeks, every morning and every night then suddenly nothing. I don't know if I did something or what but I never got an explanation. I miss playing minecraft together. I never even got the chance to tell him how happy he made me for that short amount of time, he doesn't' text or even talk to me in real life. I have no idea what happened but I miss what was.

why is it that you finally start putting in effort to want me, pursue me? i finally had enough and tell you i'm done and now you want to say you love me and that im the one. its an act cus things didn't happen how you wanted it. but i'm done and i did what you said, i went out and found better.

I'm so fed up with the school dress code. What do you mean my SHOULDERS are distracting, like excuse me? Also what's the big deal with bra straps, everyone knows we wear them. Maybe it's just me but i'm pretty sure if a dude and a girl both wore a tank top to school only the girl would get dress coded. And also not trying to be rude but if someone is getting distracted in class by my SHOULDERS that sounds like a them problem.

I'm gonna be so fr. I don't know what I want to do with my life, I never planned to live past 11 and now I'm fourteen. So no, I don't know if I want a spouse and kids, no I don't know what college I want to go to, and no I don't even know what I want my job to be. I'm scared to grow up.

I’m starting highschool but I live in a small town and we aren’t merging with many schools. I’m starting to get worried that I won’t branch out at ALL and I feel like I’m gonna be surrounded by the same people. Ik that I will see them (duh) but I really wanna start fresh and I have this gut feeling that I’m just gonna get bullied all over again

No one texts, and no one calls.

Everything that I'm good at, someone will always be better.

random shit turns me on throughout the day and I'm tired of it. stupid stuff, same stuff since I was 6 years old or even younger. not a time I can remember where I didnt feel like a pervert for daring to leave the house. All the confusion and stress of being a young child with sexual feelings and I couldnt tell anybody. and now all the confusion of being a young adult with sexual fixations, cant talk to people without my interests, they'll think I'm gross, cant talk to people with my interests online because I'm under 18, they'll just block me or prey on me. Tired of the confusion and the isolation.

SIX DAYS CLEAN Y'ALL. I didn't think about it once today except when writing this, its getting better. If you also struggle with addiction, don't give up, it always gets better.

Ashada masam done 👍 Gonna meet my fiancé again 🥰and get engaged in a few weeks 🥲

look at that blad sliding RIGHT across my skin guys 😂😂😂😂😂😂 hahaha this is so funny right hahhaha

i'm so ugly. i'm so so ugly. like a monster. i'm the ugliest. i was ranked last in the most ugly kid in my class two years ago. i fucking hate that. even one of my friends were there, and she had personally put me as last. like she could ever talk. fake ass bitch. i hate that they see me as the 'funny but not attractive funny', i just hate living tbh, but it's fine because everything will cheer up. right?

im so tired of my parents, they keep trying to get me into things i dont want to get involved with. I always have to go with what they think and what they want. When they found out about me scarring myself they started threatening me on how they would abandon me and how they would leave me. not to also mention the fact i used to be s/a'ed by my uncle, even tho my mom does know about it she still touches me innapropriately saying that its fine because "we are both women" i hate myself so much.

I am a grown woman, I still live with my parents since I just finished university studies so I do not have my own home yet. I talk a lot in call to online friends I've made through the years and I laugh a lot with them because we play games or just chat while we do hobbies. The thing is, my mother's bedroom is next to mine, and I was unaware of it but she was kinda listening. Thankfully she did not understand since I talked in another language, but the next day she did proceed to go on and tell me that she was rightfully upset and even humiliated because "I do not get or understand why you laugh with random people you've never met in real life, while you can’t even crack a smile with your father and I! Honestly, this is even unhealthy" and I just don’t know how to feel. She KNOWS that I don’t have many friends IRL after university, shouldn’t she be happy? Am I in the wrong? I don’t even know what to feel, I feel mostly embarrassment and shame...

i'm so so sorry dad that i can't be the daughter that you wished for, im sorry that i'm so stupid that i get Bs and not As like last year, i'm sorry for always making you mad and not proud. i want to die because of it, to die for my stupidity, to relief you of all your stress of me. im so sorry dad, but, i might overdose soon because of my existance.