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Im an orphan my father passed away when i was 12 my mother too at 15 I'm turning 16 tomorrow and im just tired of it all i hate going to school i dont have that many friends and im the class punching bag im from malaysia im currently living on my own in a small cramped apartment i cant take care of myself for shit i have mold growing on the corner of the walls my floor is filled with garbage everyday i feel like shit im working 2 jobs and balancing school i just wanna end it all im gonna grab a slice of cake light a candle eat it alone in the dark and hang myself

Even those I reported them several times over months to Quick Rant and still seeing the same unwanted and annoying spam from those who put up YouTube channel links, only put people and countries names and rants full of spelling and grammar errors like "prezandent" etc is clear evidence trolls pay those behind Quick Rant or those behind Quick Rant are putting up the unwanted and annoying spam to stirr up hatred?

Why are the media and other countries so scared not to admit the truth that America was clearly at fault, for causing what happening in the Middle East now because they are controlled once again by America and "Israel"?

By ignoring unwanted and annoying spam including rants with links to someone YouTube channel, errors in grammar and spelling including "Prezadent" and putting up only people and countries names because those behind Quick Rant are paid by the trolls and banned those who don't pay, Quick Rant have became the sewage treatment plant of the Internet.

I picked up painting again. I haven't painted in months. I'm preemptively grieving the loss of a dear friend with stage four cancer, and I'm grieving the loss of the horse she lets me ride; She'll have to sell him to pay her medical bills. She saved my life with that horse, she doesn't know it and maybe she never will, but he's been a gift greater than any other. She's been a gift in my life. My artwork is on her mantle, our lives are so intertwined inadvertently its not even funny. She bought my first real heart horse and I may be getting mine from her. Her loss won't be the first this year, nor the last. I picked up painting again. It's almost been a year without my pet lizard who i'd had for 10 years. My baby. I cant think about loosing another animal that is so near and dear. My favorite little mare I outgrew passed last spring as well. I'm so tired. I picked up painting again, and I haven't painted in months.

I don't think I'll ever get over him. Especially knowing that he is thriving without me while I am suffering without him.

It feels like I just wasted all the efforts younger-me has put in to make future-me successful. In high school, I was dedicated and worked extremely hard. I got the grades, I had good extracurriculars, I was hopeful for my future. I really wanted to be a doctor. In my senior year I completely crumble. I am now in my first year of university, I have no ambition, no hope. All the hard work in high school that I thought would build myself and make it easier for me in university? Down the drain. While everyone around me knows exactly what they need to do to get into med school, and are actually doing what they need to do, I am stuck and have wasted over 20k in my first year of university. I wish I could be a smart girl again. I wish I could be a doctor too.

im so tired, i miss her so bad but what am i supposed to do? im the one who ruined everything. i changed. but how will she even believe me now? i want her back. i miss being her person. why do i ruin everything

I hate the fact that my dad doesn't see me as a person.

I genuinely do not know how I could've supported you out of pity for everything you had done to me mom, it's been two years already and even if I know you're still alive lurking somewhere I'm still fucking scared if you suddenly came back. The gnawing hypocrisy lying within you trying to protect me from others when you ended up abusing me? Touching me? Sexualizing me and near off trying to fucking sell me. I feel completely drained now. You've used me and I barely reached my twenties. Why am I not mad and sad enough for what you have done to me? Why do you disgust me so much? Why did you had to disguise yourself as the victim and make me feel bad? I feel dirty soo dirty. I can't stand to look at you anymore. Court day is soon and you'll yet try to play as the victim without even seeing what you have done. I'll never know what it will feel like to have a loving mother. My kids will probably never have a loving Grandma. You fucked up. "Mom."

i need advice bc i want to break up w my boyfriend but at the same time i cant, but im in love with someone else and it doesnt feel fair on him.

To prove they are not controlled by America and "Israel", the UN and different countries should demand the unconditional surrender, the arrest and jailing of Trump and Netanyahu and that both give up their Nuclear Weapons?

ive been crushing on my best friend and i told them about 5 months ago and everything was fine and nothing changed. but more recently theyve been expressing the fact that they want to be in a relationship and it makes me feel a bit jealous. they also think that i dont want to date them because im aroace. im pretty sure they dont like me like that, but havent confirmed or denied because they havent reciprocated but havent rejected me either. and a few nights ago i had a dream where they laid on my shoulder and told me to do anything i wanted and i gave them a tight hug and expressed my feelings for them again and they accepted, and i wish it was real, and the day after i told a friend that i was gay in joking manner and he said he already knew and assumed that me and my best friend were dating, and i told him he doesnt like me like that and when i said it, it kinda broke my heart. idk what to do now, i kinda just want advice

Dude I hate myself I do nothing in this world I’m a waste of space I worry people I wanna kms so bad I self harm nothing in my life is good I need to self harm to feel good sometimes

Hi I don’t know if this is gonna sound silly I’m just trying to get it all out so basically I’m homeschooled and I feel like I’m failing my mom because I struggle to get out of bed and get motivated and my mom says I need therapy but I hate the idea of going therapy and I feel like I’m hurting her bc she thinks she’s destroyed my life but she hasn’t it’s me and recently I met this guy I loved and we started dating me and him clicked straight away we talked and talked but he was long distance and I met him online but me and him FaceTimed all the time but my mom wasn’t convinced he was telling the truth of his age so she made me ask him to show his passport and FaceTime so my family can look and talk to him this guy also had mad anxiety like me but if I didn’t ask my mom was go crazy at me and obviously the guy said he need time to think so I have him 3 days and then asked if he was ok and are we good and he blocked me without a word or goodbye just blocked on everything

im tired i dont wanna be strong anymore or show people how independent i am i just wanna rest

My mom is mad at me because I'm not doing what she tells me to, but I told her to let me do it later since I'm studying and stressed with my schoolwork, so I'm doing my research for my schoolwork. Then my mom scolds me, saying I'm always studying from morning until night, and I replied that I want to be in the honor roll and she gets mad when I'm not. Then my dad heard me. that on the call and he said, “You don't listen to your mom. You know she's tired.” Then I said, “I am studying, it's just that I'm getting a little close to tears,” so I just left the room. I went to eat, and while I was eating, my dad messaged me saying I was stomping my feet, even though I know my mom is tired and all that. It's like they're so exhausting, like, girl, they're so annoying. They want me to be on the honor roll, but they get mad at me now because I've been studying nonstop since this morning. Also, it feels so unfair that my dad sides with my mom even though he knows nothing about it.

i started a project for my clg its for a so called course... i choose a project called straycare.. where my idea was to save stray animals which are injured and may be alive if they were treated at right time... i worked really hard but my sir likes all the other ideas but not this... they will be selecting 240 members and then 100 and then 25... i feell i wont be selected in the bootcamp...why does these happen to me everytime...i feeel so tired of my life...everything i start to do... i fail.... i am just so sick of life...

idk i dont find me suitable for anything... i dont set to any categorie i know nothing i can do nothing how do i live like this... i feel so useless to be growing like this...everyone around me is somewhat motivated..but i am not

i feel so scared and i feel dirty thinking about whats happened and how it keeps happening and i just want to wash my whole body off i feel like a little kid again i feel so alone i cant feel clean