All Rants

Im tired of always being the person everyone wants to hang around. I try my best to show them hint, that sometimes I get tired of listening to them talk to me and I'm tried of always trying to make things work. It's hard to choose between people okay? I can't always choose one person because then other people get angry, and if I try to at least say, let's all be a group, they don't want to work with the other person. I wish I was hated. Because at least then I wouldn't have to deal with all this stupid shit. I hate how easy I am to convince. I hate how fucking naive I am. I always end up getting hurt yet still always take them back. Fuck life.

I hope he just fucking gets injured by doing something stupid and then is maimed forever

UGGGHHHHHHHHHHH UGHHHHHHGGGHHH IM TIRED OF HAVING FEELINGS!!! TURN THEM OFFF, BROOO!!!

at first i liked the idea of someone being obsessed with me but uh now it's just ridiculous, if i don't answer because im busy they get pissed, if i don't say i love you or anything else typed out in full they get pissed, if i match their energy when their being dry they get pissed.. if i mention i have other friends they get jealous and for some reason when they get mad they 'joke' about hitting me? im so done with them omg, mind you we aren't even dating

i wish existing felt anywhere near good instead of like a gd chore

I hate that I've been thinking about you again recently. I miss the sweet boy in my memories, but I don't want to anymore. I know you aren't that person anymore and I want to just forget what you meant to me.

No matyer what community you are in, there is a huge group of complainers and whiners. The most notorious I've known is Genshin, which is something I wont complain about. Genshin is a game made by Mihoyo, who decides everything for the game. As long as the hame keeps going, I'd play it. Def? Ok, good for Linnea, Chiori, Kachina, Xilonen, Itto, and other Def scaling characters. No double crit? Thats okay, the peice can be used for Craftbox. Losing the 50/50? Atleast my Qiqi is now stronger for my Sandrone team. Or my Mona for Mono Hydro team. Tighnari? Hes good, not too good but not too bad. Mizuki? Stellar Swirl buff, so now she's my main dps! Jean? C6 100 healer ready for Varka. Keqing? Its ok, shes a placeholder for Flins, good lunar dps. Dehya? Good for Mono Pyro with 4 stars like Xiangling, Bennett, and Chev. Diluc? My old phys Dps before C6R5 Eula. Hes still pretty good. And all the standard weapons are good. I play the game for the fun of it, and if I get bored, I'm outside.

This is gonna sound stupid but my partner has this friend who's his duo in games she clearly likes him she's supposed to be blocked because I feel deeply uncomfortable by her but he unblocked her then he goes and posts a video of their characters together and sure it was harmless dancing but like the romantic kind and its stupid because it's just a game but im his partner i have expressed how uncomfortable I feel by her multiple times and it hurts the he doesn't go to me or that im not his duo he tells me to communicate yet brushes it off like it's nothing when I express how I feel about her still being around I mean he even kept it a secret they were still playing together until I had to bring up i saw it lately I feel so terrible mentally all I want is for him to be there I tell him that too whenever I feel like that but these past few times he's not been there because he was either on a call or playing yet I have been begging for his attention while having regular breakdowns

Fuck you Josh. I’ve seen photos of you since we broke up. What did I even like???? You’re mid! You’re mid and I let you ruin me!? Btw fuck your mum too. She’s a bitch. The joy I feel when I know I don’t have to spend time with her again and pretend she’s great. Thank goodness. She’s a horrible person. And so are you. You are dead set convinced you aren’t. That won’t get you far tho. Well maybe it will. Because you live in a privileged white male world. Ahhh the burden of ignorance.

The screams pound from the inside of my head begging to be released. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!! I sound crazy. Maybe I am. Or maybe I’m just a human being sick of playing the ‘put together’ game. I’m positive and sweet and lovely and kind. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. But I’m haunted from the inside. Like shackles are around me. I can’t escape the damage the world has done to my head.

Does anyone have a song that like, describes how they feel most times? Some I like are ; Numb Little Bug - by Em beithold. (Im pretty sure the name is wrong but I'm too lazy to search it up) Unsweeted Lemonade Prom queen- by Beach Bunny I'm doing fine - by Marino Hey doctor, doctor Body-by mother mother Karma-by AJR I have more but yeah. I think Ive been listening to those the most recently. I hope you like them (if you listen to them) and if you have any please tell me, I'm in desperate need for some more songs.

Can my stupid sister close her window at night? Mosquitoes with malaria known to be in this area, recently some men started following her, and yet when I twll her she says she's overheating. SHE HAS 4 FANS IN HER ROOM, NO SCREEN FOR THE WINDOW, AND CHOOSES TO RISK LETTING THE WHOLE FAMILY GET MALARIA SO SHE CAN STAY "cold"?? Genuinely if I have to tell her one more time I'm gonna slap the living shit out of her and taking the fans away. Ill even lock the windows and just give her buckets of ice or cold bathes so she can learn that she doesnt have to fucking risk killing off a whole generation so she can stay comfortable sexting her boyfriend as she masterbaits.

ACK!!! RANT RAM NEEDS TO FIX THEIR "Next Page" button!!! It DOESNT LOAD TO OLDER POSTS INSTEAD BRINGS YOU BACK UP TO THE MOST RECENT RANTS!!!! ACK!!! How am I supposed to catch up on POSTS WHEN IT DOESNT LOAD OLDER ONES?!?! RANT RAM WILL "LOAD MORE" POSTS PROPERLY BUT NOT "Next Page"!!!!! ACK!!!

I cant forget the thoughts about you . I know you dont like to help me at work and i know you prefer to maintain your own distance . I know you cant see me talking to anyone cuz you feel jealous or maybe its just me and my thoughts . I know how you care about me from the back and ask someone to help me but I dont know Why you not saying me bye this days , is it cuz you feel I am leaving you and going ? or there is smthing happening . I know you have gone silent all of a sudeen why is that? what is bothering you ? are you stressed about something ? I know you prefer to stay away from me as much as possible . I will also try to maintain distance and stay away from you . I am handing you back to the universe and let universe handle everything about both of us . But just want to tell you that I cant see you sad . I am going through something and so are you but wishing both of us can have a happy life far from each other. I miss you I dont want anyone to think I am flirting with you .

My friend never texts me, we never talk and I know they’ve got better and more important things to do but I just feel so alone all the time and when we do talk, it’s after something’s happened and I need to comfort them, even days after I tried to self destruct and they didn’t seem to care at all. I’ve always been a 2nd thought to everyone I meet even family and I just want to be loved. I am NEVER going to be someone’s first thought when they wake up the way they are for me and that really really hurts.

I feel so sick and tired all the time, like I am genuinely drowning and no one cares enough to save me even though I have a friend who tells me they care and they love me but only texts me when they need to vent. I just feel like I’m a vase in the ocean slowly taking on too much water.

I have this friend. I'll call her Lucy. So, Lucy has been my friend since wayyyy back. Like nursery times, but it always just seemed like she wanted to outdo me. I'd be trying to tell her about how I barely got any sleep last night and suddenly shes telling everyone how she only slept for three hours. I say that I have a headache and she develops a migraine. I tell her I think I'm an introvert and suddenly shes been an introvert her whole life, despite her telling me herself that she loves meeting people and making friends. I also feel like she puts on a show sometimes, like, I dont wnat to jump to conclusions but sometimes she just starts breathing really heavily out of no where and like tapping her foot. She doesn't even try to hide it, like, personall if I were about to have a panic attack id excuse myself or try to suck it up. I wouldn't broadcast it for the whole world to see. I dont know, I dont want to seem like a btch because sometimes she is genuinely nice but other times...yk

Fucking YouTube with their censorship and tearing down people's videos and forcing creators to use imbecilic terms like "unalive" and "pew-pew" and "sewer-slide" just to not get demonetized. (You can't spell "demonetized" without "demon.")

My family sucks, I live with my abusive mother, grandpa and amazing yet SO annoying little sister. I have absolutely zero love life and only one friend that I barely talk to because she’s busy with other people or school but now when we do talk I just feel so low and awkward and hurt that I fuck it up and don’t put nearly enough effort into it. I know when or if I finally move out I will be all alone and I don’t know what I’ll do with my life. I’m just so tired.

Am i the only one that feels like their entire life is just built on trying to be better than everyone else? I don't do it for bragging rights i just do it to assure myself that i actually deserve a space in this world. Yet there's always someone out there that will always be better than me. I don't know how to explain it and I know it sounds really stupid. But I'm just tired of always having to be practicing or learning something. Why can't I just exist without trying to one up someone else?