I been feeling jealous alot of my sister specifically. And I feel awful about it. I have always been jealous of certain people in certain aspects. But it feels awful to feel this way towards my sister. But I sometimes feel like she out shines me. Like she's pretty and well liked. She's talkative to others and makes great conversations. But I feel like I don't know how to include my self. Sometimes when I open my mouth its like no one notices or cares what I have to say. Its like I'm a child all over again. And then its said that me and my sister are so similar to each other. Which isn't bad but I feel like I'm not even my own person. Like I'm some cheap copy of her. I feel like no one puts any effort into me. She even has a better connection to our parents. I don't ever feel seen. And I just wish I was as good enough as her. So many great things about her that she can't even see. I feel awful feeling jealous of her. I feel like an awful sister.
Recent Rants
Blaming my ex gf for trauma, but in reality, I was the one who traumatised her. One day, she found out my pathetic online persona of me hitting on multiple woman and sexting random chicks. All she did was confront me, and as a NARCISSISTIC ass, I made her feel like a wreck for questioning me. The audacity of that woman to question my behaviour pmo. Does she even realise who is she with? She should have been happy that I even dated her. She hurt my ego and my reputation, so I messed up her mental health and told all of my side chicks and friends she was mentally unstable. I feel bad for her, but she did me dirty. I sometimes miss her warmth and when we stayed together, but she was the one who ruined it. It was her fault for not letting me, a NEURODIVERGENT person, be myself. I MISS YOU RICHU COME BACK
i dont think i really ever felt something like love for my mother. I do tell her i love her and all, but thinking back i think the phrase simply lost meaning all together. each time that i look at her i feel dislike and a nagging feeling of hate, but still i answer with smiles and politeness. is it normal to feel like this and experience such things?
My ADHD is getting worse every day. I think I need another girl to love bomb and fill that deep void in me.
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Love so tragic it turns into ashes (Im a schizophrenic wreck who can’t communicate with girls wnd make every damn thing into a fantasy porn.
I wanna find my person just like how everyone else has it seems like everyone else has their life together. I wish that was me.
My grandfather Other has dementia and it feels like he’s never gonna feel guilty or even remember the things he’s done to other people and me I wish he didn’t have dementia. I wish he could sit in his own guilt and filth. I truly wish that he would remember every single mean thing I said to him because he deserved it but no, he can’t remember. He can barely remember how to walk every single day. I reminded of the fact that revenge won’t ever come.
I hate myself for being such a spoiled brat. Whenever I want something, I get it usually. But if I don't I will cry. I hate myself so much. Other sperm cells during the race could've been much better than whatever the abomination I am. I'm the worst child you could have.
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I'm so fucking tired I dont even know what to think anymore. I'm so tired of having to fight every day just to be at peace. Isn't that a fucking human right?!! I've spent the entirety of my childhood enduring abuse and neglect and now as an adult it hasn't fucking changed. My entire family is fucking psycho pieces of shit who have always favored my sister over me and in turn just fucking left me behind to rot. I'm 24 and I csnt fucking handle being alone but I am alone. No one fucking cares ans even if my friends knew the truth they would tell me its my own problem. Which it is..but it shouldn't have to be. Family is supposed to support each other and love one another not fucking go crazy and kill each other silently! I'm so fucking exhausted and I can't sleep because im scared my grandma going to do something but im not trying to be homeless.
this girl told me to kms, and that i was a bitch whore. 2 weeks later she posted on her story “never tell sm to kts, youll never know how far you push them” or something like that.
Love when their love just turns into ashes (I’ll be smearing their ashes on my face)
I have no motivation or energy to do anything. If I do something somehow it’s always not enough. I feel like I struggle a lot and can’t focus on anything for shit, I believe it might be caused by some kind of mental disorder, but whenever I tell my parents about my struggles they somehow end up brushing it off. I help around the house basically daily and yet I still hear that I’m not doing anything in house. In my friend group and in class I somehow ended up as one of the worst students which is crazy because I genuinely believe I have good grades (this year I had 4.78 score on 0-6 scale, 6 being the highest possible score). Im being called dumb often, which I don’t believe I really am, but hearing that over and over really makes me think weather its true. Im turning 18 soon and next year I want to go uni but I still dont know where I should go and what to do. Its alot of pressure and I am simply losing motivation to keep on going.
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Idk how to start this so im just gonna roll with it. I need to talk to someone in order not to kill myself. My fiance gets upset or frustrated with me almost everyday and calls me a bad father, a bad partner and a bad person in general. I feel like she hates me. I am the only one working in the house, sometimes 16 hours a day to struggle to pay bills. My 2 year old daughter is my everything. But she wants nothing to do with me right now. She slaps and punches me, pushes me away, and generally doesnt want her around. Its not her fault but that doesnt mean it hurts any less. I only have friends at work, but I cant dump on them. I am detached when I get home which causes more stress with my relationships. I dont see my family as much as I see hers, and all I have to hear about is how depressed they all are and how im not doing enough for my fiance and my daughter, about how I need to do more. Im decaying from the inside out and its hard wearing a mask ive built up over 15 years.
Oh my god, I don't know where to let this out but I need to. I haven't been to therapy for almost 3 weeks and I am losing stability of my own emotions. I don't know whether it's the fact that I haven't been able to regulate my emotions without the need of therapy or my hormones acting up but I feel so emotional that I am just crying every minute or on the verge of tears. I don't know who to talk to. I overthink if I ever vent to someone who isn't my therapist. I don't know how do people even tolerate me. I don't know how could they not hate me. Why do they stay for someone like me who is so emotional and could just lash out at any second of any day. Why am I so pathetic, I can't even control my own emotions without having to rely on therapy. I've been so damaged by my past that I am so scared of confrontation or seeking help. I don't wanna be a burder to anyone, even if they love me dearly. I just want this to end.
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I just wanna be a fucking adult already, i have NO privacy, im not allowed on ANYTHING except from roblox and minecraft, im fucking bored of my life and i just want to be alone for more then ten fucking minutes, i want to kill myself but my mum has control over EVERTHING she doesnt let me be alone for more then like 10-20 minutes, i do sh but i bruise myself so it isnt obvious, atp i wouldnt be suprised if she moves in next to me when im older, i wish my mum wasnt so overprotective
Im tired of always being the person everyone wants to hang around. I try my best to show them hint, that sometimes I get tired of listening to them talk to me and I'm tried of always trying to make things work. It's hard to choose between people okay? I can't always choose one person because then other people get angry, and if I try to at least say, let's all be a group, they don't want to work with the other person. I wish I was hated. Because at least then I wouldn't have to deal with all this stupid shit. I hate how easy I am to convince. I hate how fucking naive I am. I always end up getting hurt yet still always take them back. Fuck life.
I hope he just fucking gets injured by doing something stupid and then is maimed forever