All Rants

I feel ok. Feel scared of friends parents

Struggling with time and contentment. Need more discipline.

I am just starting to lose my mind with the amount of stress ive been feeling becuase of me moving out of my parents house and yet I'm the one in the wrong

I got into a really bad car accident in July, i broke my femur and lost my grandma because of it. When I was in the accident, sitting there with my broken femur and all- i didnt call anyone my first thought was to text my friend zeal. I didnt think to contact my mom, 911, I had to text him first. We havent talked as much after he basically said to me "let me go so I cant be happier", which definitely hurt in itself but really sunk in recently. He broke the bones in his lower leg, and day after just sent me a snap in the hospital and I asked what happened and he told me- but it just hurts that I wasnt even thought of. Sure he isn't responsible for how attached I am to him, but that doesnt make the fact that I mean so much less, hurt any less if that makes sense.

More heavy rant then ive been seeing on this site, but its helpful to get out. I met this guy named zeal proably about a year and a half ago and he proved a lot of things that I couldn't believe- like forgiveness, patience, unconditional feeling; now we have never been romantic neither of us wanted that. I know I was really heavy with how often I would go to him for my personals issues I had just never had anyone be there for me like that my entire life. He was I think the first person I had a deep conversation with about my borderline diagnosis. He recently moved, and when he did he asked me to "let him go so he could be happy". We still have eachothers contacts but barley talk, and having someone who showed me things ive never seen before basically say I cause misery and he'd be happy without me, and then watching him become a happier person is so unbearably painful.

I WANT TO RELAPSE SO FUCKING BAD RIGHT NOW IDK HOW I HAVENT YET BUT I CANT TELL ANYONE CAUSAE I FEEL LIKE A PICK ME WHEN NOBODY EVEN FUCKING NOTICES ME </3

I want so badly for him to feel the way he makes me feel when he pulls his diapering shit. REJECTED ABANDONED UNWANTED UGLY OLD ANNOYING STUPID INMATURE CRAZY .... I know he dose it to prove a stupid selfish cave man point. If I don't play nice if I don't stay on the car and pretend he's not sitting in the grass getting high and visiting with not just her but my friends too, if I get upset or cause a Seann or a bump in his road then he takes off with her and he turns off his phone. All my so called friends hide them because he has the picket power and God forbid they get cutters off. I want to belive he's not having sex with her too but why won't he answer the phone and why dose it have to be so mean to me . He leave me with no gas or money food cigarettes or drugs knowing I'm to scared to be home alone so I parked and sit all night bawling hoping he will come back but he won't

So when well Pauline Hanson, Malcolm Roberts and other members and staff of One Nation and their supporters sorry suckers, show their citizenships papers to prove that they are Australian's, as Joyce was an NZ citizen when he illegally entered Parliament.

oh man i hate how people ive never even met care more about me than my own family. Ive never been so depressed. fuck man. i just dont get it. why. why cant i be fucking normal. i hate my body and im already super skinny but i dont see myself that way. I feel like people only care for my body and maybe thats why i always try to be smaller bc in some fucked up way it makes them want me more and makes me feel appriciated for even just 5 minutes. god i hate being a hypersexual. i hate it all.

I don't even know if I'm just looking for attention anymore, but I feel like shi all the time.

our world would js be so much better if people minded their own business. it was bad enough that kids had to worry about school shootings and have monthly lockdown drills, but now they have to worry about a global atomic war. what a time to be alive.

Congratulations Musk rants on Tiktok, the facts are your opinions was bought with money from the gun lobby as you can't speak for yourself and those who don't like The PM sorry idiots congratulations it is proven that you no opinions of your own and you only believe the media, Liberals, Nationals and the racist Pauline Hanson.

Make America Great Again, have Trump, other Republicans and those who voted for Trump in the Electoral College, arrested, charged and sentenced for encouraging domestic terrorism, crimes against humanity, illegally attacking other countries, going against Congress, going against the Constitution, threating to take over other countries, not taking responsibility for increasing prices, not caring, having a smug look, not doing anything about his Narcissistic personality disorders etc etc etc etc

i just feel like i can only make relationships through connections. im never brave enough to reach out to someone completely new and start a friendship with them. i just feel like a parasite, and i dont want others to think im just barging my way into a friendgroup. im not loud and i dont want to be, im just scared because i want to be the person people like, not secretly hate.

I don't wanna continue living, Bein the oldest is hell even more “Hell” than it self. Parents expected my grades to be all good while stress from academic thingy is bothering my mental health, Being trial parents for my siblings because they keep fighting like a piece of sh*t they are and don't forget they force me to go both work and study at the same time. . im selling foods at my school while studying it's tiring. it ain't stoping there, When i came home i was greeted by loud yelling and my dad won't let me slide. Sometimes he came to my room to beat me up and release stress he said, i don't know anymore. I just wanna be loved, appreciated and cared. if my life turned this way im not gonna last long, Even self harm not helping me anymore. what's wrong with me?. i got sa'd twice by my cousin when i was 6 and i have no idea it's sa till now, i tried to explain and tell them but no one believed me. ok

Well, First off. Work is frustrating. If you ever work for a company that has blind spots in its policies. Question the hell out of them. I just don't get it. My Job is built on Economics to the extreme, where it is blind. No one is going to know its blind spots. Very Smart though because it makes you use your brain, but... WTF..... It is kind of scary. This company is a huge company, and they have guidelines where they are not responsible or held accountable for anything that is pretty scary. If you know, then you know what business I am talking about. I am sorry. This could possibly be a couple of big corporations that are made like this. It's crazy out there. Business owners are getting smarter. Do we want this for our future? Where corruption and manipulation can easily be done!!!

I'm feeling insane today, the morning was great, the evening was hell. I've been struggling with depression, anxiety, ADHD and OCD all my life, now that I have hormonal issues it's even worse. I'm really scared about an OCD flare up. I'm not feeling like myself anymore.

My friend is about to be kicked out of the room he's renting. He doesn't have a job, he has a dog that his friend left him. I offered a room in a 3 room apartment where I'm renting of the rooms. He agreed, said he's 100% sure he wants it. Didn't respond to my messages for a week or two, I got worried. I spammed messages to him today and he finally responded, he says he feels like shit and not like himself at all, he's mentally in a bad place and trying to get money, and the room that I offered him is his only option or he's gonna live in the streets. I need to give my landlord an answer tomorrow if he's taking the room or not. He did bail on me about 2 months ago when a different room was empty. I'm scared he's gonna do it again, and the landlord wants to get a complete stranger into the free room. When that happened before, the guy turned out to be a 50 year old creep. Since then, I'm finding roommates myself. Hope he's not gonna bail this time, but I'm scared sh*tless

i know just how terrible the idea of attempting murder against myself is. The problem is the thoughts come and never leave. Even if they go for a while, they do not leave. They'll come back after circling for a while. i hate myself every day more and more, and i hate that i do. All of this mixed with my beliefs just make me feel so awful... How can i feel like this believing in what i believe...? But i really have no control over these thoughts and feelings... i have no idea of what to do... Just want them to stop for damn once. i know writing this won't help on anything; no one will reach out, nothing will change. It's an anonymous platform, after all. i just feel like i'm going to explode sometimes. It's so much i want to bang my head against something, anything, to shut this thing up finally. i am sorry i had to become like this. i don't know what made me become this. i just hold onto that small hope that i will get out. If not today, another day.

i think im js gonna kill myself