All Rants

So I've been in love with this guy for three fucking years. I love him. I can't get him out of my head. Not because of his appearance or his money or looks it's because he treated me so nice. Every time we meet I feel like I'm on cloud 9. I didn't seen for 16 months once and still couldn't get over him. I feel this pull every time we're around each other. He notices me, he makes me feel seen and heard and cared about while my own family didn't. But I can't be with him. I can't make it work because apparently he was thinking of me like a little sister. Now I'm just left feeling ugly, unlovable and pathetic. I have never had a guy who likes me for me. I really thought he did but he didn't.

I don’t understand whats wrong with me. On one hand, Im too scared to date, or feel like I’m not ready, but on the other, I feel like I’m missing out, or feel alone. Everyone I know is getting into relationships, getting married, and I feel like I’m getting left behind. I’ve had people interested in me and try asking me out, but when I agree, I feel like I’m put on a leash. I don’t know whats wrong with me, or why I feel the way I feel. Why am I like this?

umm so there is a guy whom i like a lot like we met online . He was interested at first but later he started distancing . He never mentioned he liked me . It's just me whom feelings grew louder and hard for him with the passage of time cuz i didnt had anything to do. I dont know what i even like in him like i am obsessed with him to the that it affects my mood. we talk only once a week now . I never told him my feelings. I think abt him a lot as he is my exact type and he has no idea of it

My husband tells me "I bought you a present", and about 90% of the time, it's a cleaning utensil. Today he said "Amazon delivered a present for you!" It's a mop. I've learned to not expect any actual presents. Now don't get me wrong, I did mention I needed a small mop for spot cleanings, but don't call it a present. That indicates thoughtful intent. Maybe I'm wrong to feel bummed, but.. whatever.

I feel like such bad girlfriend. I genuinely don't know what to say whenever my gf vents or says any problem regarding her family. I want to be careful with my words as I don't want to say anything that'll hurt her more. I want her to know that I'm always by her side but I feel like my words don't carry much. I'm also very scared as she has attempted before and I'm afraid she'll do it again. I don't know if I'm being selfish by only considering what I feel. I genuinely need help on how to comfort her. I want her to know, and feel that I'm always here for her, and that I love her very much, but I feel like I'm not really doing a good job.

MYY CRUSH IS IN A MIXED FRIEND GROUP AND ITS PMOOOOO

I did some dumb shit with someone younger than me and they completely turned a ton of people against me. I literally feel like my life is over 👎

I need to talk about something with someone, it’s been really bothering me.

I am an addict and I ruined my relationship. I hurt him and now he doesn't want me anymore and I hate the thought of having to be without him

Is it just me or do i hate when one of your friends keep being rude to you on and on, everyday? This happens a lot to me. My friend acts like she has to watch over my weight and be under 21 k LIKE HELLO? my body?? And your 90 pounds, what r u taking abt bro

Ive always felt like an outside inside my own family. today one of the people i loved most just left me alone. i feel a void that no matter how much i try to fill it i cant. i would usually go and run to my partner to seek comfort but at the moment i dont have anybody. everyone just turned... did i do something wrong? why does the person i love most tell me that im such a burden to their life and that they regret having me. i have been nothing but true and genuine to this person i would always have her back and cheer her on wherever she was but she laughs at me at any accomplishment. im so drained that I dont know what to do. im just sitting here going crazy nothing to do nobody to talk to nothing just me and this dam screen. I wish i could have somebody to talk to..... somebody that would understand and not let me down like this... but hey its just life right? maybe if anybody is kind enough to have a chat id appriciate it snapchar- flaqo-mtz

im thinking about getting back onto ai chatting apps again. im losing my friends and my life

I really hate being alive. I’m on a trip to Japan which I’ve wanted to take since I was 6 because my grandma was Japanese but I can’t even enjoy it I just scratched the shit out of my face and it left marks I don’t know why I did it but I’m a self conscious person I get scared to leave my house anyway how the fuck am I supposed to leave th house in Japan now looking like this I hate myself and I hate my life and I don’t know why

I worry that my parents will find my social media accounts. I know I'm not supposed to have them, I honestly don't even know why I made a twitter account of all things, but now it's such a pain to delete everything. I have to wait like a month for my account to actually be deleted after I deactivate it, but if I sign back in on accident, I'll probably start over the timer. If my parents find out about it during that period I'm fucked. I'm trying to mass delete my posts, not because they're necessarily bad, but because I just shouldn't be having these accounts in general. I want to start over, no social media history, but for whatever reason Elon musk made it such a pain to do that. I get people need a grace period just in case, but can't they at least make a shorter version for people serious about it? I hope my parents never find out. they wouldn't have any reason to suspect I'm lying, right? And even if they do, they'll be understanding.. right? I'm sorry for hiding this for so long.

I don’t want to live

I cant fuckin do this shit anymore im so done being treated like complete utter dog shit im tired of being hit and yelled at but I like the pain im so confused by myself that it might just be easier to give up im fighting daily just to get up from bed and open my eyes and smile but no one appreciates what Im doing ever its like im a disposable thing they chose to reuse daily like why cant i just give up I already attempted twice so why did I fail both times its so stupid and selfish of me right but im so tired of being selfless im so done with everyone always having comments about me and making fun of me and calling me shit i cant take it anymore and I want to die but I know when people want to die they say goodbye and thanks and shit but I just want to die in front of everyone and say yall treated me like shit so badly I wanted this I cant hold it back much longer im fed up of starving myself and im tracking my water right but no one can leave my shit alone so whats the point of me ge

Will love ever find me?

I don’t think I’ll come back to this but school is actually ruining everything I’m sooo tired, I have a super important presentation tomorrow and I haven’t done shit, I leave everything for the last minute, I’m super indecisive about everything, and exams are coming soon and I’m lowknuinely tweaking out bro. And the worst part is that I am aware this is happening but I don’t do anything about it, I’m just done and my motivation is gone and I’m this 🤏 close to giving up and just rot in my bedroom forever

I dont know whether to hate or love my mom anymore. She gets mad at the smallest things. Yet sometimes I do really love her. Its just the yelling and screaming that gets me mad or upset. She caused depression for my sister. Its gotten to the point that whenever shes crying over something or apologizing I dont comfort her or say its okay cause it isn't. She's manipulative and selfish. She take my, and my sisters money to use on her own stuff. Sometimes she asks but most of the time she dosent. I literally came home one time to find 20 dollars in my bag. There was 300 in there the other day. Im just so tired of her.

I need a hug, I need to feel like I belong somewhere. (group, society, etc). There's a topic that is so tough for me to talk about and that is my hearing impairment, diagnosis that I have and wearing hearing aids. I know that it may seem cool that they work like normal phones or iPods, but there's a much more worse story behind... I've been wearing hearing aids for years now because of being impaired with "Bilateral Mean Hearing Loss" which isn't such a big diagnosis, if you think about it..But it is...wearing them it always comes as a reminder that the inside part of the ears hurt, that I have to turn them low when I feel like I get too nauseous, etc. Not only this, but like getting used to the fact that they can be chargeable and always having to have a specific routine with them, adds up on that negativity. I've seen them as a positive thing for years, I'm just done with how used to them I got and the fact that I just wanna be NORMAL once..😔