All Rants

Highschool is hard. Growing up I've never had a guy ask me out or even spark interest in me, but it was completely different for everyone else around me. All of my friends, peers, and classmates had or have partners and I really feel like im missing out. Im tuned in with socializing, and I do make attempts at putting myself out there, but it feels hopeless almost every time. It might sound like being desperate to some, but overall its just a fear that im behind or im just hard to love. I dont need male validation at all, but relationships have been made to be so important in highschool. Because of that, its always been one of my highest priorities, and im trying my best on figuring out how to prioritize myself first. Any advice for the following and coping with FOMO?

I can't even begin to just explain how PETRIFIED I am. 2-3 months shouldn't be horrible, but I wont see my boyfriend for THAT LONG. It seems silly but I genuinely cannot fathom who I am or what I look forward to without him. Even 10 days shouldn't be horrible, but it IS horrible. I'm in love and I cant explain how much I am. My home life sucks and most of my family sucks (a lot of the time) and he is one of the very few people I actually trust. I wish I could show him off to the entire world. I'm writing a book on him. I've BROKEN DOWN at the THOUGH of him leaving. I don't even know what I'm gonna do!!!! AUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I feel empty inside. I’ve been through so many hardships, and I don’t even know if it was supposed to happen now or not. I feel like I’ve become too strong for myself, to the point where I don’t feel anything anymore. I don’t know what to do with my life or what I have left to give. Since my mother passed away, I feel completely broken. Before that, I got married young, then divorced, and found myself alone in a country where I knew no one. While I was trying to heal, my mother got sick, and losing her made everything even harder. I thought being with someone would help, but I realize now I was just trying to forget.

I'm drowning in my thoughts

I've been struggling these past few days, writing this now, I still don't have the right words to use. But one thing I know is it isn't going well. Everything is piling up, I feel alone. Perhaps the changes I'm going through is what's causing it, my grade 8 year has finally ended, so many memories, meaningful people, and I'm scared of what's ahead, how my life would be next year. I feel so numb, I'm slowly going back to my old ways, it's like I'm back in the dark place I fought so hard to get out of. I want to reach out so bad but I can't. No one can understand, I was raised to carry all of it alone.

I had a really weird dream and I woke up and felt good but I shouldn’t feel good I should feel bad I feel like there’s something wrong with me, my gfs ex boyfriend came to my school his name is Zeno, he was sitting with us at break and I was playing hand ball in the ace square and he walked up to my gf and she walked up to me and I stood in-front of her between them and told him to get lost and he said ‘I just wanted to say hi’ and I said ‘well clearly she doesn’t want you to say hi, please leave’ he said ‘what’s your problem’ is said ‘you mate’ he said ‘whatever fat bitch’ and turned around and leaped at him and hit him in the back of the head with my elbow to which he fell and tried to get up but grabbed my gfs sister water bottle which is metal, and continued to bang it on his head even after he knocked out but I kept doing it and doing it over and over and his head started to cave in and my gf was screaming in the back covering her sisters eyes and all my other friends had backed a

Hello!! I m very sad today!! Anyone there to help me?

mom doesn't let me drive to school when I shown i can already. its her cars but its frustrating. Reason is she wants to spend time with my dad who drives us to school when my dad is fine with me driving. i just dont want to drive with my parents. My mom comes to me and i keep hearing complaints or just getting angry at me for what others did

Today’s my mum’s birthday and I’m angry bc she killed herself

I’m freshly an adult and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I just wanna feel alive and not like everyday is a constant battle. I feel lost most days and weak in my faith with God. I question if he’s even there and what my purpose is. Like I’m constantly having an existential crisis. I’ve never felt more disconnected with the people around me. I don’t feel grounded at all. I want a way out but my brain keeps drawing blanks. I wanna be impulsive and see if it gets me out of this slump and so I can finally feel like I’m fully here and present. I feel like there’s things I could do but I don’t feel capable. I feel like a waste of space. Like nobody really cares about me that much. I feel like a burden. I don’t wanna die I just wanna feel alive. I think imma shave all the hair off my head tbh

i don't get why people don't care for me, i feel like i have no reason to be here anymore, i just want to be actually loved for once. i feel so unlovable it feels like i always was meant to feel this way, maybe everyone would be happy with me gone??? idont know. i just can't do this anymore, i want to feel seen. every day when i wake up no one texts me and it's so embarrassing.

i feel like i'm worse than how i used to be. i feel like i have no motivation to do anything, compared to how well i used to manage my schedule. i have about a week worth of overdue lessons. the earliest i wake up is 12 pm (i'm in online school) and even still, i end up staying in bed for around ten minutes longer. i either don't eat all day, or binge-eat like a maniac. i can't remember the last time i took part in a hobby besides editing, but even then, i only do it every so often. i don't know what happened to me.

Life feels strange at the moment. I don't know why, but I feel like... I'm not right, I don't feel well. My chest hurts; I had something like an anxiety attack, and I shed a couple of tears before I could get back to “normal”.

I don’t know why I feel this way… I haven’t really achieved anything in life at 23; in fact, my only ‘achievement’ was graduating from high school, and I can’t even really see that as an achievement. I haven’t got a girlfriend, I lost my virginity at 21, God… It feels so strange being me. I’m second-rate at my job; I work for my own brother, and my father died when I was 17, but at his funeral I couldn’t even shed a single tear, as I never got on well with him – we never understood each other in the slightest. What else could I vent about? My preference for porn – I’ve masturbated so much that the porn I watch seems grotesque to me. I’ve often thought about ending it all, killing my whole family and committing suicide, yet I often can’t quite bring myself to go through with it. Sometimes I feel like my life doesn’t matter; I’ve got 950 dollars in my bank account, but it seems like such a small amount... My hair started falling out when I was 12, but I never got any help.

i’ve lost weight before and i’m not sure how since i was eating fast food and then a little sweet treat; but i would only have one meal. for this lenten season, i decided to give up sweet food/ added/processed sugary stuff, limiting it which increased my cravings for it; i ended up breaking my fast and just eating chocolates and such; i then, it’s not diagnosed, but i feel as if i developed binge eating disorder since i would eat a BUNCH of snacks, so i tried to get into a calorie deficit, which i’m trying to do rn, in which having fruits for breakfast and lunch and having my mom’s dinner she makes when she gets home from work, but i end up binging which might be because i’m trying to limit of foods and having to low of a calorie “meals” for lunch and dinner; then i can’t eat my mom’s delicious dinner 😔. it’s been going on for more than a week or so and i’m afraid i’ll end up gaining back all my weight; i’m just scared cause i feel out of control; i’ll try my best to not binge!

I miss my ex gf

I get jealous way to easily oh my GODD. My boyfriend is making new friends and I’m happy for him yeah like why wouldn’t i be😭😭 but I’m scared he’ll leave me for some other person one day…………..this happens EVERY TIME he mentions someone……. I WANT him to make new connections and stuff but UGH DUDE I CANT WITH THIS ANYMORE IM SO DONEEEE. -K

So I've been in love with this guy for three fucking years. I love him. I can't get him out of my head. Not because of his appearance or his money or looks it's because he treated me so nice. Every time we meet I feel like I'm on cloud 9. I didn't seen for 16 months once and still couldn't get over him. I feel this pull every time we're around each other. He notices me, he makes me feel seen and heard and cared about while my own family didn't. But I can't be with him. I can't make it work because apparently he was thinking of me like a little sister. Now I'm just left feeling ugly, unlovable and pathetic. I have never had a guy who likes me for me. I really thought he did but he didn't.

I don’t understand whats wrong with me. On one hand, Im too scared to date, or feel like I’m not ready, but on the other, I feel like I’m missing out, or feel alone. Everyone I know is getting into relationships, getting married, and I feel like I’m getting left behind. I’ve had people interested in me and try asking me out, but when I agree, I feel like I’m put on a leash. I don’t know whats wrong with me, or why I feel the way I feel. Why am I like this?

umm so there is a guy whom i like a lot like we met online . He was interested at first but later he started distancing . He never mentioned he liked me . It's just me whom feelings grew louder and hard for him with the passage of time cuz i didnt had anything to do. I dont know what i even like in him like i am obsessed with him to the that it affects my mood. we talk only once a week now . I never told him my feelings. I think abt him a lot as he is my exact type and he has no idea of it