All Rants

I’m on one of my heaviest period days, taking care of 2 kids, potty training one of them, homeschooling the other, doing all of the household chores, dealing with PCOS and thyroid problems and trying to diet/supplement to support it. Here comes my husband, playing with a pretend telescope saying “land ho” while looking at me, to show his attraction to me. When I say that I don’t like that and it doesn’t make me feel attractive, he says, “at least I tried”. I am just over it. I want to yell and scream that he has no idea what I’m going through. He doesn’t understand that I’m struggling with my self image because of all the health stuff and I’m tired because I do everything around the house. I’m sorry for not trying to make him feel sexy more. But I’m literally bleeding while keeping the house going. Please let me scream and cry and feel like a regular woman, not someone who has to be a slut for my husband to love me.

I feel like I am being overprotective by my parents. I totally understand that it is only for my good and for my protection but still I fell like it is restricting my freedom. Whatever others are able to do at my age I am not able to do. My live location is being shared to them , they check my live location from time to time, if my locating is off they would literally call me and ask why is it off. Okayy since I am studying out of town they do it for their satisfaction that I am safe. But even when I came home and go out with my friends he would literally check and call ask me as to why it is off even in home town ..... Whyyyyyy😭😭 Nobody else get this treatment in my fam only meee why. I also want to go out freely. One thing I regret to be born as a girl is this thing.

Im always so lonely.. i always feel like im the friend that people go to when their actual friends arent around and the problem is i get so happy and attached and i see them as very close friends when they dont even see me like that , it really crushes me. im always the left out one and it devastates me everyday. my phone is dry no one texts unless i text and i dont know how to live with the fact that no one wants to actually be my close friend. even the two friends i consider my best friends have their own actual best friends and lovers and im just there. even when i text in our gc they usually ignore me or reply dryly but i let it slide because who will i have besides them

I'm scared to go to school after a long holiday, but idk why this happens to me. I think I'm gradually forgetting my childhood (even when I try to remember it, I can't tell if it's real or just a dream), along with some of my jhs experiences. I can barely remember anything from primary school. Somehow, when I was in 11th grade, I either couldn't or refused to recall most of my memories from 10th grade. Now, I'm starting to forget things from 11th grade too. It feels like things got worse when I entered high school, especially during 10th grade. Maybe something happened back then, but I didn't realize how serious it was. Lately, this has been bothering me a lot. For example, when I try to remember my childhood, I can’t clearly tell what’s real and what’s not, and it gives me an unsettling feeling that sometimes scares me. It’s starting to affect my daily life, and I don’t really know how to handle it. Idk whether i should see a psychiatrist, a psychologist, or just leave it as it is.

These days I've been feeling like I need someone in my life. Not like a friend or family, but like, in a sense of romantic feelings. I want to have someone, but I feel it's near impossible because I'm a girl, and I think I like girls too. Like, I went to a trip a few weeks ago, and there was this girl, and she was so nice and a good vibe, and oil so pretty and everything. But problem was she's 18, and I'm 16. So that's one problem, but then of course, she's straight. It's like, what's the point of even trying to talk to her if I know there's no chance? lIKE, IT FURSTRATES ME SO MUCH.

im so useless, even tho i try my best to help i fuck it up everytime

I can't eat anymore.

Once at school I started hyperventilating from sobbing so hard because my thoughts were getting to me I felt like a failure that doesn't deserve life and I still do

At school there's someone hacking our computers and are anonymously telling ppl inappropriate comments and is specifically targeting GIRLS (me included, I got many comments...)

I have been feeling so stupid. I thought I could work in a long distance relationship. After feeling neglected for months I finally told her how I felt, and that something needed to change cause I can't keep crying over this. Jokes on me, cause yesterday she was barely online at all and I spent the whole morning crying anyway. Today is a new day where she hasn't texted me during her day cycle, and again, I am spending the morning crying. I worry that now that I've expressed a need, she'll dump me. I worry about that every time I express a need to anyone. I just want to be loved, I want to have my emotional needs met. I need to feel like someone cares if I'm down or if I haven't been eating, if I've been waking up to nightmares for three nights in a row. It always feels like a sin to need comfort, worst of all to ask for it. Like a sin to voice a need. I love her, and I need her. I need her to care like I care for her. Am I so unlovable I can't ever have that?

Highschool is hard. Growing up I've never had a guy ask me out or even spark interest in me, but it was completely different for everyone else around me. All of my friends, peers, and classmates had or have partners and I really feel like im missing out. Im tuned in with socializing, and I do make attempts at putting myself out there, but it feels hopeless almost every time. It might sound like being desperate to some, but overall its just a fear that im behind or im just hard to love. I dont need male validation at all, but relationships have been made to be so important in highschool. Because of that, its always been one of my highest priorities, and im trying my best on figuring out how to prioritize myself first. Any advice for the following and coping with FOMO?

I can't even begin to just explain how PETRIFIED I am. 2-3 months shouldn't be horrible, but I wont see my boyfriend for THAT LONG. It seems silly but I genuinely cannot fathom who I am or what I look forward to without him. Even 10 days shouldn't be horrible, but it IS horrible. I'm in love and I cant explain how much I am. My home life sucks and most of my family sucks (a lot of the time) and he is one of the very few people I actually trust. I wish I could show him off to the entire world. I'm writing a book on him. I've BROKEN DOWN at the THOUGH of him leaving. I don't even know what I'm gonna do!!!! AUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I feel empty inside. I’ve been through so many hardships, and I don’t even know if it was supposed to happen now or not. I feel like I’ve become too strong for myself, to the point where I don’t feel anything anymore. I don’t know what to do with my life or what I have left to give. Since my mother passed away, I feel completely broken. Before that, I got married young, then divorced, and found myself alone in a country where I knew no one. While I was trying to heal, my mother got sick, and losing her made everything even harder. I thought being with someone would help, but I realize now I was just trying to forget.

I'm drowning in my thoughts

I've been struggling these past few days, writing this now, I still don't have the right words to use. But one thing I know is it isn't going well. Everything is piling up, I feel alone. Perhaps the changes I'm going through is what's causing it, my grade 8 year has finally ended, so many memories, meaningful people, and I'm scared of what's ahead, how my life would be next year. I feel so numb, I'm slowly going back to my old ways, it's like I'm back in the dark place I fought so hard to get out of. I want to reach out so bad but I can't. No one can understand, I was raised to carry all of it alone.

I had a really weird dream and I woke up and felt good but I shouldn’t feel good I should feel bad I feel like there’s something wrong with me, my gfs ex boyfriend came to my school his name is Zeno, he was sitting with us at break and I was playing hand ball in the ace square and he walked up to my gf and she walked up to me and I stood in-front of her between them and told him to get lost and he said ‘I just wanted to say hi’ and I said ‘well clearly she doesn’t want you to say hi, please leave’ he said ‘what’s your problem’ is said ‘you mate’ he said ‘whatever fat bitch’ and turned around and leaped at him and hit him in the back of the head with my elbow to which he fell and tried to get up but grabbed my gfs sister water bottle which is metal, and continued to bang it on his head even after he knocked out but I kept doing it and doing it over and over and his head started to cave in and my gf was screaming in the back covering her sisters eyes and all my other friends had backed a

Hello!! I m very sad today!! Anyone there to help me?

mom doesn't let me drive to school when I shown i can already. its her cars but its frustrating. Reason is she wants to spend time with my dad who drives us to school when my dad is fine with me driving. i just dont want to drive with my parents. My mom comes to me and i keep hearing complaints or just getting angry at me for what others did

Today’s my mum’s birthday and I’m angry bc she killed herself

I’m freshly an adult and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I just wanna feel alive and not like everyday is a constant battle. I feel lost most days and weak in my faith with God. I question if he’s even there and what my purpose is. Like I’m constantly having an existential crisis. I’ve never felt more disconnected with the people around me. I don’t feel grounded at all. I want a way out but my brain keeps drawing blanks. I wanna be impulsive and see if it gets me out of this slump and so I can finally feel like I’m fully here and present. I feel like there’s things I could do but I don’t feel capable. I feel like a waste of space. Like nobody really cares about me that much. I feel like a burden. I don’t wanna die I just wanna feel alive. I think imma shave all the hair off my head tbh