All Rants

I had a hookup with a guy. I’m gay and I’m the kind of person who falls for someone easy because I’ve never actually been in a relationship or have been treated right, romantically that is. I want to fall in love, I was to receive flowers. These kinds of stuff happen a lot for me, the straight guys come and go because they want to experiment with themselves and I hate myself for allowing that, for having little self respect. I just want someone who wants the same things I do, I hate stopping myself from falling in love because with some people, it just willing never end up right. I don’t ask for much, I think I’m a good person, I’m just not right for some people I guess.

ok so I'm bailey (fake name) me and my boyfriend have been dating for 8 days so basically what im ranting abt is not him but other people . ok we start dating ofc half the school finds out fine all a student there are gcs one called bailey dating a gay man .One called bailey and ehr boyfriend did it last night . Ok so at lunch I pass my boyfriend that says ok so jst so u know people hhave cheated gcs call me at 6 today love u. The kid takes the note out of his hand and u know what he does brings it to the teacher.so imgetting written up and my mom called.

is something wrong with me if I wish for my parent to be deceased? my mom treats me like shit, she doesnt care about me or my feelings and ive been to a psych ward because of this. Ive hated her since i was 9 i wish for so many bad things to happen to her like shes done to me. I love my dad tho I wish for him to never die and I want to live with him but she wont let me (legally its not her choice) she also is choosing the people to go to my graduation (also isnt her choice) if i could choose i would uninvite her and my stepdad.

i hate my job cuz no one likes me there

i create all of my porblems, i dont have an authentic version of myself and i fele awful when i speak to people. i used ot be sooo social but woah! all of a sudden im fucking scared of ppl and what they think of me and i am so utterly emberrased by aveerytging relating to me! like my social skills dorpped, my throat hurts when i speak more than twice a day at shcool. my classmates have even fuckng given up on talking to me lwk and i hate that i cant do anything abut it becasue they are all already well integrated!!! like i cant even vent ot rant to them because then that would be thier first true intention of me, of my inside self. like imagine i go up to someone and say "oh!! i wanna kms" cool girl i dont know your favorite season of the year. like i dont have a person i have said enough about myself ot anymore and because of that i cant even connect with ppl because im too far behind and i feel like saying anyone evn to my best friends is like ripping a part of myself and showing it

When I move out I’m getting as far away from my family as possible. My dad is transphobic but denies it. He says stuff like “transgender women aren’t actually women” and usually calls them transgender males. Like hello.?? Also I’m trans (ftm) and bi and he knows that. He also says I’m “too young”. I’ve known since 5th grade. My mom rarely ever gives me freedom and always makes me go to places that make me uncomfortable, and overstimulated. She’s not that transphobic or homophobic though, so she’s better. My sister is pretty nice and usually uses my correct pronouns but she also agrees with my dad that trans women shouldn’t be in women’s sports (wtf?) and is rly anti therian and furry (im a closeted otherpaw). I hate this family so much. They all think buying me stuff just fixes everything and I hate it. My dad is absent most of the time because of work trips but when he’s not he’s transphobic/homophobic, and has said the n word several times. (He’s white)

i wish i didnt have such a weird mental health i push others away yet crave the affection its confusing in a way but honestly? i think im just weird..

My sister and I live together in an appartment, she's been unemployed for a good time. I know that's not her fault, but I've reached a point in my life where I feel like I'm only living daily for work. I have to pay for everything: the rent, grocery, household items, my own bills (phone, transport,etc.) and some of our shared bills. I feel guilty when I order food cause I know I can barely afford stuffs without using my credit card but then again that's the only time that I can get some kind of pleasure back from myself. I don't go out, the only time I go out is for work, run some errands and appointments basically. I already told her that I've reached my limit and starting from the next month, I won't be able to continue paying the full rent because I need to live my life too. I don't want to have to continue skipping enjoyments because I have to worry about having to pay for everything in this household with my small salary alone.

anyways, back in highschool, i used to have this really good friend. He was always nice and supportive. I would share almost everything to him. Knowing each other for 3 years, he confessed. Maybe during that time, I wasn't sure with my feelings but didn't want him to be dissapointed or lose him. Despite not being ready for a relationship, I agreed. Through out our 1 year relationship, we never went physical, we talked more than usual, had deeper conversations and even buying each other gifts. I thought he was the nicest dude ever and since i wasn't even ready. The thought of our relationship going over a year scares me. So for the sake of both of us, I broke up with him and didn't wanted to waste his time. We still remained as friends. Soon, we started college and we used to be in a group of friends we always hangout with but he stopped hanging out and went to joined those groups where vape, drank, going out with girls at night. He changed for the worse, mind you he is just 17.

i feel like this isn’t as serious but it’s something i want to get off of my chest. i just feel really lonely lately. i never get approached by people. and i just feel like idk…like i wont find my person. i feel too ugly and weird. i’m young i know it’ll hopefully happen someday. it’s just so dejecting seeing everyone but you get romantic attention. especially when one of those people is your best friend and they tell you everything (because of course). i’m not holding it against them. i’m really happy for them actually!! it just makes me feel like shit when they have guys chasing after them…and i’m just here. getting nothing. dealing with a guy that texts me like he hates me. and i have to listen to all of it and act like it doesn’t crush me on the inside knowing that no guy has ever liked me enough to do that. it makes me feel like something is wrong with me. and i just feel so behind.

i just want my husband to love me :/ i feel so annoying just talking to him im sad i just miss him but i just wish he misses me like i miss him

I HATE MY LIFE!!! WHY DO I HAVE TO LIVE IN FEAR? WHY DO I HAVE TO BE POOR? WHY DOES MY LIFE HAS TO BE SO HARD?!?!?! WHY???? WHY DO PEOPLE HATE ME? AND APPARENTLY THE UNIVERSE SEEMS TO HATE ME AS WELL!!!! I HATE THAT MY FAMILY HAS TO SUFFER BECAUSE OF HOW SHITTY OUR LIFE IS! I HATE HOW UNTALENTED I AM! I HATE THAT I NEED TO BE THE BEST WHERE I KNOW I DON’T LIKE!! LOOOOORD! PLEASE!! MAKE ME FEEL YOUR LOVE!! PLEASE IF THERE IS SOMETHING THAT IS REALLY DIVINE PLEASE HELP ME OUT! TOUCH THE HEARTS OF THE PEOPLE THAT SURROUND ME! PLEASE TELL THEM TO BE KIND! TELL THEM TO BE GENTLE! TELL THEM I NEED THEIR HELP! BUT I NEED THEM TO BE KIND! I NEED THEM TO HELP ME PLEASE!! I’M BEGGING YOU! HELP ME!!

Actually, I was blinded by greed; I bet 100k and lost it – and it was my mum’s money. I don’t want to tell her I’ve lost it; I’m underage and I’m not supposed to be betting, I know. I want to borrow some money from a friend to make up the shortfall.

my gf is rly condescending and aggressive and makes me feel rly bad Abt myself. I feel like everything I do or say around her is wrong. and I wanna b a good gf for her but y does she make it so hard all the time...I just wanna b happy for once. that's all I want. y does she do this to me...? Imma fucking kill myself, I'm so pathetic

i feel like i really wasted my time with him. i should’ve known better and it’s not my fault he’s dense and everything. but i can’t keep wasting my time and energy hoping he comes around. idk. i thought he liked me but now i feel like i misunderstood everything and my whole miserable act im having right now is all my fault. i did this to myself technically once i decided to excite myself with the idea that someone might actually like me. i’m just so tired of feeling like no one will ever choose me.

i feel like im a bad person deep inside. my dad or whatever is in jail in anoter state and like he was using drugs for 2-3 years and he'd do certain things like break into my house or tell me how he wanted to end it all when i was 11-13. a week or so before he got locked up, on new years eve at like 11:50 pm he called me and started sobbing about how he messed up as a father and he misses me and how he wants to end it all, and that he only uses because it makes him feel better. it hurts bc i have sorta been a bad kid. after we moved away i ignored his calls and he'd call me like 100 times a day being so serious and i only saw him once last year and even then i hated it but idk its so weird being with him. hes like happy and upneat and then randomly gets angry atme and screas at me fir no reason anf it sorta sucks. i think even if he did get sober and became good id still hate him, and i guess that that makes me feel sorta bad

I’m so tired. Mentally and emotionally. Nothing helps. I’m just to my breaking point and I just want to end it all. I’m so depressed. I have no family and I only really have one friend. I don’t know. I just feel lonely and sad and I just want to end it all.

i think im going to end it tonight all im going to say is im 13 and im being abused by my parents but as soon as anyone else is around they act like they did care when 20 seconds ago they were calling me fake for saying i was gonna harm myself i know this probably not what this site is for but i needed to tell someone about this someone who might believe me since not even my therapist believes me

Never dated. Finally worked up the courage to put myself out there. Downloaded a dating app, matched with someone and hit it off. Decided to be honest, and say I've never really dated anyone. They immediately unmatched. Not sure what I can even do about it at this point.

I am extremely exhausted of questioning if my coach Maya and Sydney love me or not because it’s so hard to tell. I’m so tired of crying over my coaches. It’s so frustrating and annoying. I know Coach Simo and Katie do because they have told me that they do but Maya and syd haven’t said anything so it messes with my head