All Rants

My friend just said, “oh but maybe let’s not go” to the concert I already bought tickets for, because it may possibly rain. I will bring a freaking umbrella. No, it wasn’t terribly expensive but it was still almost $100 altogether for our tickets, and at this point they’re non refundable.

Fuck my mom and her husband. My mom lives at her own place with her husband and I live with my maternal grandparents because it’s more convenient for me. A relative of ours decided they didn’t want a cat and guilt tripped my family to take the cat and my mother was like sure. And while me and my sister were overseas to visit our grand aunt, that cat lived at our mother’s house. But as soon as me and my sister came back home, my mother said she’ll pick us up but she came w her husband without informing me or my twin so that was annoying on it’s own. But then her husband started talking a lot of bullshit to us saying how he never liked having animals at his house and how cats shouldn’t be domesticated and how cruel it is to keep a pet. Mind you he knows that we’ve had a family cat for years. I ignored whatever he said and suddenly a few days later, my mother kicked out the cat she took in and threw the cat at my maternal grandmother’s house and made some BS excuse when I confronted her.

Be with me till I wed another man. Be with me till I take another man’s name. Be with me till our last moments, because once I’m devoted to one man, I’m never leaving him. One last kiss, One last hug, One last moment to spend time with you until we go back to our lives. There’s a future awaiting for us; Lest not ruin any moment till our last. My time is short. Be with me, because any moment can be our last— We will never be here again💗

Gender confused and really going through it right now. I don't want to be trans. It's hard, it's expensive, people would treat me like a freak. The stuff that makes me happy is mostly presentational. Gender is about how you feel on the *inside*, they say, not just how doing your nails or shaving your legs feel. So how do I feel inside? I dunno. I don't see a guy or a girl in there. I see emptiness, confusion, and frustration. Been anxious and depressed my whole adult life. Not dysphoric, though. Could be repressed dysphoria, they say. But what if it's not? What if I go through all this time and effort and find out it doesn't make me feel any better? That it was all a dumb phase? That I just wind up as an equally depressed & anxious woman or enby, only even *more so* because now I'm also a social pariah? I just want to close pandora's box and go back. I mean, I don't, I was a worthless, depressed, anxious mess before, but at least it was familiar. I'm so fucking tired.

I’m sorry for acting like a maniac or maybe because I do not have much time. I wanted to spend some lovely time with you before I settle down with another man. I kept telling you we share a different future. Your dreams are different than mine, and it was never going to work out—I knew it from the beginning. Maybe this is why I keep pushing you away even though it hurts and pmo. I ghost so you’d forget me and move on.

My BROTHER pulled down my BH then my parents started screaming at me for SEDUCING HIM WTFFFFF HE‘S MY DAMN BROTHER AND HE‘S LIKE 9 BITCHHH I HATE THEM ALL FUCK MY DAMN FAMILY

I love school but this one teacher makes me sick to my stomach I even thought about changing schools even though this would mean leaving my crush behind and he‘s really the only thing I hold on rn

Days go by and I don't even notice. I wake up, blink, and all of the sudden it's time to go to bed again.

I am always there for everyone when they need me but nobody understands me and when I need my friends back, I am just a money bank to them. Only time anyone talks to me is when they need something from me. They only want me to listen when they go through something but when I am going through shit no one cares. I have drained myself to be there for everyone

Just gotten called selfish and told I don’t provide by my father. I work very hard and recently turned 19. I work full time and go to school full time and help my family out much. It’s got me in a really bad mental state. To make things worse, after the fact; My younger brother who I used to be close with just walked into my room looking got my wallet. I asked him what he was doing and he said “he thought I was at work.” I feel like no one wants me in this house but I have no where to go. I’m in a really bad mental state right now

this is probably really nasty but i have severe depression which makes it hard for me to take care of myself. That being said when i get my period (I don't use tampons but I probably should) I don't always change my pads when i should especially at school because i have so many classes and social anxiety and hate to ask for a pass (for the bathroom). so the other day it was day 2 which all the girls out there know is the worst day. I didn't change it at all at school. i bled through my favorite jeans and nobody told me. I only found out when i got home. Granted, I don't have friends but i feel like its girl code to tell a girl when shes bled through her pants no? Anyways my mom called me lazy and irresponsible and told me that i need to take better care of myself and i just sat there trying not to cry because shes not wrong. I'm disgusting. she told me herself. It's just so hard and I feel like a failure. And I''m constantly tired and i just cant. I know I'm not making it past 16.

I feel like everyone has it worse than me and I'm still doing like shit and i don't deserve to be doing this bad because technically my life is genuinely good

i have outgrown all of my friends and i feel so alone. i have no one to play games with or share my interests with. it's stifling and soul crushing

I think I might have an eating disorder…I quite hesitant to say this because I don’t want people to accuse me of “faking” it. I’m scared of gaining weight. And when I say scared I mean I’m legitimately petrified of gaining weight. Every time I eat something that’s more than 100 calories, I force myself to thr0w it up. Sometimes I double down from stomach pain. I’m constantly filled with the thought of being disgusting and gross for eating. I can’t stop counting my calories, and it’s getting on my nerves. I’m not overweight, I guess *underweight*, so I have no idea where this insecurity of eating food came from. I have pretty bad social anxiety, so I guess that could be a root cause? I don’t know if eating has anything to do with it, but more and more frequently I’m getting these reoccurring high pitched ringing noises in my ears, and I’m tripping over my own feet a lot more than I used to. Im starting to find my way out of a depressive state, and I don’t want to go back. plz help

I just listened to like an AI generated 'playlist' and feel sooo horrible. I didn't realise it at the time because all the other hours long playlists on YouTube kinda looked the same, and I mostly just used it as background noise and stuff,I don't know how I didn't notice it,and as a artist myself (not music) I feel so fucking terrible. I have listed to playlists like these before but with real songs so i just sorta guessed it was one of those , but i just feel I shouldve been more preventive when the sounds sounded kinda wacky. I just feel so fukin awful for a moment i felt I lost something deep within me.

I was making this fucking dish on my moms fucking stove which is half gas and half ceramic and when trying to switch a pan cause it was too small I dropped thje fucking pot with rice and boiling water all over that shitty stove and the floor. Why the fuck does she always need to make shitty choices, like she shoiuld have gone full induction. I know I sound fucking ungrateful, I love her and she gave me a place to stay after my breakup (in fact she wants me to never leave) but fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Was at Kroger getting stuff for a friend group picnic and the self-checkout clanker accused me of theft no fewer than 4 times. "Please ensure all purchased items are placed in the bagging area" blah blah that's a dog whistle and we all know it. So I went to the human checkout, friendly talk, not a single accusation. In another 10 years that won't be an option anymore. Hope the clankers are smart enough to detect an abandoned cart and restock it before the perishables spoil. I'll be hiding them under the nonperishables so their camera tokens will need to have kept track beforehand. You techdouches better make sure that's coded in the algorithm. I AM the malware now.

Men are so disgusting in general. I hate how everyone seeks sex and not emotional connection

I wonder who’s gonna take my virginity hmmm might be my arranged marriage husban san

Being a virgin is so scary in this impure world