All Rants

I hate looking at myself in the mirror I hate my scars and cuts. I've been so anxious lately I'm not hungry anymore I just don't want to feel. I don't want to move honestly I say it's okay but no it's like when everything starts getting okay something else just has to happen. It's been 3 years when will I get better I feel like everyday has been the same I wish I was 5 again. I wish I didn't invalidate my feelings by saying someone else has it worse and I'm probably doing just fine compared to other people I'm tired of holding everything in and always acting like everyone's okay why does everyone else get to vent to me but God forbid I ask someone to listen God forbid someone checks up on me how I do them. When will I be able to find someone who will listen to me really? Anyways it's probably never unless I start healing from what ever is wrong with me since I don't like talking how I feel to real people anyways. But who ever read this to the end, thank you.

I honestly don't even know where to start I feel like I'm just doing the same thing everyday. I'm always so anxious about something. I hate self harming the scars cuts and burns make me sick to look at but it's the only thing that makes me feel better, nothing feels the same but I wish I could stop.

I'm just tired, everyday there's a new issue that I'm not let in on. Everytime he drinks or takes drugs there's a new lie or some BS he makes up or Carey's on with to make himself the victim. Everyday there's a comment , everyday there's a fkn problem even if there actually isn't. 3 years of this man cheating , sneaking around , lying , abusing , just fkn everything and even still ... Somehow ...some fkn how I'm always to blame. Ofc he denies it later , makes me out as insane or a liar. I don't know what to do , I'm just so tired

Hey you, how are you? You know I love you. I love you so so much. I hope you get everything in life. I wish you immense success. I hope you make it in life. One day, I'll be loved for who I am, not for how I make others feel I am extremely worried about the exams this month. I hope I make it in life. I pray I can be a good father to my kids. I pray I can provide for my wife and kids. I want nothing for myself, everything is for them. One day, you'll see me in live tv for everything I told you I'd achieve!

I love you and I miss you, but I don't want you back. You hurt me in myriad of ways where my intention was to just love you! You didn't love me, you just loved how I made you feel! You loved the attention, not me! You disrespected always! You didn't want me to leave because I was so easy access to you. You used me. And now you miss me? Wouldn't have happened if you treated me right yeah??? I still love you and wish you happiness god i fucking love you much come back to me

Where did the time go when sir/madam was earned?

i haven’t brushed my teeth in years,horrible decay..severe toothache today,I’m going to a dental hospital later today but I’m so embarrassed,like I can’t look at myself. I wanna smile again but I’m in tears blaming myself

When I'm with my siblings, or my gf, the protective instincts come out of me intrinsically. Like no one taught me that. Maybe it's in the biology of men to be protectors. It guninely makes me happy. It's as if I have a purpose

I hate my fucking life, y'know? its just...oh darn it, i feel so bad because of my own mother and father because y have to handle with a lot of responsailites but IM JUST A KID

My life is fucking shit toxic family, everyday fights & arguments, school life is shit, my diseases make my life dark shit I feel like I am a sex doll with no value only insult and torture

I feel like they all hate me. They all blame me for it all. It's 3 against 1, they must be right. Something i'm not seeing. i don't want them to be right. Why can't he see he projects hatred!? That he claims to read body language but won't ignore it when i tell him otherwise. He takes everything I say and turn it into something vile "You hate me" "you don't want me as your father" "most insulting thing you can say to a parent" I try to keep my tone calm but I rarely ever can. They all cut me off and demand I stop talking. "You never know when to shut up" Why should i stand by and ignore the hatred, the mischaracterisation, sexism, misinterpretation of so much of what i say? 3 women in the car tell the man double shampooing has been a thing for a long time, he says 15-20 years isn't long enough. I search it up and bring up how it was started in the 1970's with an ad to convince people to double shampoo. He always denies. Everything is new when it isn't from his childhood/experience.

There is a girl in my office and her taste match with me. We do flirting with each other whenever we meet. Now I in love with her but don't know how to express.

ok so theres twogirls at my school there les i reallydont give a fuck what they are as long as there happy. so they broke up cuz one the girl asked for GUM ikr over GUM is crazy thegirl that broke up w the other girl. walkedinto the locker room and kissed they other girl .

I had a hookup with a guy. I’m gay and I’m the kind of person who falls for someone easy because I’ve never actually been in a relationship or have been treated right, romantically that is. I want to fall in love, I was to receive flowers. These kinds of stuff happen a lot for me, the straight guys come and go because they want to experiment with themselves and I hate myself for allowing that, for having little self respect. I just want someone who wants the same things I do, I hate stopping myself from falling in love because with some people, it just willing never end up right. I don’t ask for much, I think I’m a good person, I’m just not right for some people I guess.

ok so I'm bailey (fake name) me and my boyfriend have been dating for 8 days so basically what im ranting abt is not him but other people . ok we start dating ofc half the school finds out fine all a student there are gcs one called bailey dating a gay man .One called bailey and ehr boyfriend did it last night . Ok so at lunch I pass my boyfriend that says ok so jst so u know people hhave cheated gcs call me at 6 today love u. The kid takes the note out of his hand and u know what he does brings it to the teacher.so imgetting written up and my mom called.

is something wrong with me if I wish for my parent to be deceased? my mom treats me like shit, she doesnt care about me or my feelings and ive been to a psych ward because of this. Ive hated her since i was 9 i wish for so many bad things to happen to her like shes done to me. I love my dad tho I wish for him to never die and I want to live with him but she wont let me (legally its not her choice) she also is choosing the people to go to my graduation (also isnt her choice) if i could choose i would uninvite her and my stepdad.

i hate my job cuz no one likes me there

i create all of my porblems, i dont have an authentic version of myself and i fele awful when i speak to people. i used ot be sooo social but woah! all of a sudden im fucking scared of ppl and what they think of me and i am so utterly emberrased by aveerytging relating to me! like my social skills dorpped, my throat hurts when i speak more than twice a day at shcool. my classmates have even fuckng given up on talking to me lwk and i hate that i cant do anything abut it becasue they are all already well integrated!!! like i cant even vent ot rant to them because then that would be thier first true intention of me, of my inside self. like imagine i go up to someone and say "oh!! i wanna kms" cool girl i dont know your favorite season of the year. like i dont have a person i have said enough about myself ot anymore and because of that i cant even connect with ppl because im too far behind and i feel like saying anyone evn to my best friends is like ripping a part of myself and showing it

When I move out I’m getting as far away from my family as possible. My dad is transphobic but denies it. He says stuff like “transgender women aren’t actually women” and usually calls them transgender males. Like hello.?? Also I’m trans (ftm) and bi and he knows that. He also says I’m “too young”. I’ve known since 5th grade. My mom rarely ever gives me freedom and always makes me go to places that make me uncomfortable, and overstimulated. She’s not that transphobic or homophobic though, so she’s better. My sister is pretty nice and usually uses my correct pronouns but she also agrees with my dad that trans women shouldn’t be in women’s sports (wtf?) and is rly anti therian and furry (im a closeted otherpaw). I hate this family so much. They all think buying me stuff just fixes everything and I hate it. My dad is absent most of the time because of work trips but when he’s not he’s transphobic/homophobic, and has said the n word several times. (He’s white)

i wish i didnt have such a weird mental health i push others away yet crave the affection its confusing in a way but honestly? i think im just weird..