All Rants

I am extremely exhausted of questioning if my coach Maya and Sydney love me or not because it’s so hard to tell. I’m so tired of crying over my coaches. It’s so frustrating and annoying. I know Coach Simo and Katie do because they have told me that they do but Maya and syd haven’t said anything so it messes with my head

I have been in a very healthy and happy relationship and i wouldn't trade it for the world. However, Ive been wanting more, i want another partner. I want a 3rd person in our relationship. I have so much love to give and I love my husband but... i want a wife who will love both of us and be there for us.

I never want to seem ungrateful when complaing about my family, even though whenever I think about it, it always feels like there's dysfunction(?). I also feel like I either can't process anything or process to much . This is just me spitting an unorganized thought process idk..

someone confessed a really big secret of my bff but they dont know what s flying around them

I really started to like him and he led me on for a week, I didn’t even know him he showed me he was interested and promised so many things and acted like he wanted me and now he said we should stop talking and I feel so bad I keep crying and he was the first guy I ever talked to and I’m just so confused on why he did that he said he was scared to go further into the relationship but I wasn’t ready either we just started and he hurt me so bad everything reminds me of us and him and I can’t stop thinking about him

No one ever listens to me, they don't care about my boundaries, and they don't care about my feelings. I just want someone to listen. My dad is especially the worst, I just want him to stop existing at this point. I wish he wasn't my father. The worst part is that I'm homeschooled so I don't even have somewhere to go to be away from them.

I'm really angry with you… Is anyone really that busy? What sort of office project is this that even after a ‘good morning’ text you don't have time to call during your lunch break? And you used to say that if I didn't speak to you at night, the day didn't feel complete… Now you don't even call anymore... I called you during your lunch break today too, but told myself it was alright... you must be busy with work. Last night, when you said to my face that you couldn't give me the attention I needed, I was glad you'd realised, But please, just call me once. I'm not even doing the things you don't like anymore; I'm becoming the way you want me to be. I'm trying to talk less, but how am I supposed to tell you all this? I'm trying to be understanding too... but please, just be the way you were before... I know you're busy, but just a quick text in between... even ask how I am sometimes. I had a fever two days ago, I even wrote it in a text but let it go, thinking you were busy and that was why you didn't ask.

i just feel mentally drained and dont wanna exist

my fucking teacher is just so annoying he doesn’t ever explain what the work even means and it’s like hes never even been to school genuinely like he expects some middleschoolers to do full pages of work in 45 minutes with no explanation and barely any help??? like i genuinely think hes fucking stupid and hes such a useless teacher??? like i had to wait THREE WEEKS FOR ANY OF MY ASSIGNMENTS TO BE GRADED LIKE??? HUH??? i am so glad i dont have to deal with him next year but istg he should genuinely fired.

Ive been dealing with being a germaphobe, like it gets to the point where I just absolutely can’t grab anything dirty and not try to clean it or use excessive hand sanitizer. It started a 1 year ago but my mom thinks it was for Covid when it just started out of nowhere. She keeps telling me to get over it and it isn’t normal, im aware it isn’t and she doesn’t help with it and makes me stress over it more. I genuinely can’t talk to her about trying to understand why I excessively wash my hands, clean everything, and despise it when people touch my things with their hands being dirty. Maybe it’s just me but I really don’t know. I’m trying to understand it and maybe work through so just wanted to get my thoughts out.

I hate how it feels like my friends just don’t care. It really sucks. I’m a senior in highschool along with my friends and I’ve been putting in the effort to hang out with friends more and more because we are all going to separate colleges and there is a good chance I will never see some of them again and it feels like I’m the only one seeing that. No one else seems to care. I’m the one putting in effort to meet up, the effort to talk, the effort to do ANYTHING. Anytime I bring it up it’s “No we do like you, we’ll put in more effort” and then it’s nothing. Also, it would be nice just to have someone ask me how I’ve been. I’ll even take a fucking “How was your day?” At this point. It’s not even like I don’t do anything. I just went to a state tournament for speech and debate and got 5th in one event and 2nd in another. Only one asked me about it. One. It’s not like I kept it hidden that I was doing it. Not at all. No one seems to care.

I am so tired. I can’t tell if my supposed friends even like me. One of them ignored me for a whole week and then got angry at me for not asking her if she was okay (I did several times.) another just doesn’t seem to want me there and acts as if I’m just an outsider. I’ve been working with my attachment issues and I feel like the more I hang out with them the more I feel dependent. I enjoy their company but I really don’t think it’s healthy for me to keep trying to be someone else just for them. I’m really trying.

On paper we’re all good. Married. And everyone see’s him as a good guy. He is! But just not good to me. His stress level and his job determine how he treats me. He’s short and snappy and rude and shows his annoyance with his facial expressions. I wish I could say he says nice things to me at the very least, but he doesn’t. I have to ask for the nice and communicate my needs. And even then, I don’t get it. But he’s quick to say that he will do fine, he brings a lot to the table and I don’t. I wish he could just have gratitude that I show so much grace and kindness towards him even though he doesn’t towards me. He’s selfish and only cares for me if he has the capacity or patience. I cry everyday. I’m tired. This cycle is so harmful for me. And I have no one to talk to (other than my therapist once a week)

I honestly dont know how to express the way that i feel i never have been good at it and right now i have the weirdest feeling. I had this bf i broke up with him about a month ago and the reason was because he just hurt me and broke me. i dont regret breaking up with him but i have such a heavy feeling in my heart that just craves him the best word i can use for how i am feeling is i feel ambivalence. i still love him so much and miss him but i also feel hate and anger towards him. i am so scared of loving someone again because of him.

Read the top rant this week and I’m proud of them, because I can’t bring myself to not engage with AI Chatbots as a replacement for therapy. Therapy is expensive. It’s such a time commitment. Venting to a chatbot and having it placate me even at ungodly hours in the night when my rumination is at its worst is what’s keeping me going, even if it’s like scooping water out of a sinking ship with my hands. I finally acknowledged that I’ve been suffering from high functioning depression for the past year from my old job fucking me over and my new job disrespecting me and my time. I worked myself to the bone in university for this? I have wonderful family and friends, but I turn to AI because I’ve already exhausted them with my troubles. I don’t want advice, or even comfort, I just want my life to get better…

god i hate my roommates. they smoke weed everyday and i swear to god. most of them only seem to have conversations about men and relationships. one of them has a dog that loves to go outside and play yet they never interact with her outside of petting. i can tell she wants more interaction. im likely neurodivergent and i can feel that weird hostility you get from someone who can sense you're Different and somewhat mentally exclude you. i hope next year i get better roommates who have interests similar to me cause these ones have no hobbies aside from watching popular tv shows or scrolling social media. im probably being angry for the sake of being angry but man do i hope i get someone who arent as shallow as these people

I am tired of bringing balance to my relationship. I feel like it always should be me that talk through problems and my partner never try the same. And if I stopped he wouldnt reach to me. I am sure what we have is real and sure of his feeling toward me but I just dont know how to fix this..

after scrolling through everyones rants in this category, I feel like my problems are fucking miniscule compared to others. I wish I could help all of you guys but I can't. :(

i feel like i'll never be what i was supposed to be. i'll never find someone who loves me like i love them, and i know that

i have anorexia and i dont know what to do about it