All Rants

On paper we’re all good. Married. And everyone see’s him as a good guy. He is! But just not good to me. His stress level and his job determine how he treats me. He’s short and snappy and rude and shows his annoyance with his facial expressions. I wish I could say he says nice things to me at the very least, but he doesn’t. I have to ask for the nice and communicate my needs. And even then, I don’t get it. But he’s quick to say that he will do fine, he brings a lot to the table and I don’t. I wish he could just have gratitude that I show so much grace and kindness towards him even though he doesn’t towards me. He’s selfish and only cares for me if he has the capacity or patience. I cry everyday. I’m tired. This cycle is so harmful for me. And I have no one to talk to (other than my therapist once a week)

I honestly dont know how to express the way that i feel i never have been good at it and right now i have the weirdest feeling. I had this bf i broke up with him about a month ago and the reason was because he just hurt me and broke me. i dont regret breaking up with him but i have such a heavy feeling in my heart that just craves him the best word i can use for how i am feeling is i feel ambivalence. i still love him so much and miss him but i also feel hate and anger towards him. i am so scared of loving someone again because of him.

Read the top rant this week and I’m proud of them, because I can’t bring myself to not engage with AI Chatbots as a replacement for therapy. Therapy is expensive. It’s such a time commitment. Venting to a chatbot and having it placate me even at ungodly hours in the night when my rumination is at its worst is what’s keeping me going, even if it’s like scooping water out of a sinking ship with my hands. I finally acknowledged that I’ve been suffering from high functioning depression for the past year from my old job fucking me over and my new job disrespecting me and my time. I worked myself to the bone in university for this? I have wonderful family and friends, but I turn to AI because I’ve already exhausted them with my troubles. I don’t want advice, or even comfort, I just want my life to get better…

god i hate my roommates. they smoke weed everyday and i swear to god. most of them only seem to have conversations about men and relationships. one of them has a dog that loves to go outside and play yet they never interact with her outside of petting. i can tell she wants more interaction. im likely neurodivergent and i can feel that weird hostility you get from someone who can sense you're Different and somewhat mentally exclude you. i hope next year i get better roommates who have interests similar to me cause these ones have no hobbies aside from watching popular tv shows or scrolling social media. im probably being angry for the sake of being angry but man do i hope i get someone who arent as shallow as these people

I am tired of bringing balance to my relationship. I feel like it always should be me that talk through problems and my partner never try the same. And if I stopped he wouldnt reach to me. I am sure what we have is real and sure of his feeling toward me but I just dont know how to fix this..

after scrolling through everyones rants in this category, I feel like my problems are fucking miniscule compared to others. I wish I could help all of you guys but I can't. :(

i feel like i'll never be what i was supposed to be. i'll never find someone who loves me like i love them, and i know that

i have anorexia and i dont know what to do about it

Iran response to America ongoing illegal threats from a Narcissist, should be 🖕🖕🖕🖕

I hate my friends they make me feel like im so stupid and i want to die

I think my mom is effecting my social life. Like in a manipulative way. She is like "oh you should make friends and socialize more" and when actually make friends she makes me overthink by saying stuff like "Why she hasn't called you for weeks? Maybe she is angry" ",Oh they both went out together? Without you? I wonder why" which eventually at some point makes me lose my friends

I have been feeling like shit my dad kicked me out and I have gotten depressed and started sh again and idk it's just hard I lost all my friends and I'm like 3 hours from my mom dad and sister

I don’t understand why nobody wants to be with me. It doesn’t even matter if its in a romantic or friendly way, Im always alone no matter what and im so tired of it. I just want to be normal.

My friend randomly ghosted me. But I feel like I should be fine since she talks shit on the person who’s supposed to be her best friend and talks about another friends kids behind their backs

I'm just sick and tired of how negative she is. How she's always antagonizing any person in her life. Like you could look at her funny and she would think you hate her.

I guess I’m an emotional person, in a way. Even when people aren’t yelling at me and are just talking to me (or someone else in my vicinity—like my teacher talking to the whole class) sternly, I start tearing up. It gets really hard to hold them back so I just wipe them as fast as I can. Even if it’s not a firm tone and it’s just a kind of stressful topic, I guess I subconsciously think I’m in trouble and start tearing up. It comes from constantly being yelled at when I was younger, and so my emotional restraint has weakened because any time a firm tone is used or it’s a touchy topic, I start tearing up and it’s difficult to control. It’s annoying to myself because I know there’s no actual real reason to cry when no one’s yelling at me.

I don't want to take this course, but I have no other choice. It's difficult motivating myself to study for something I'm not even interested in, even if I try. I feel so stuck and mourn the idea of chasing my dreams.

I just feel down 24/7. I feel like my feelings aren't valid because I have such a happy family and a decent life. I'm not struggling with anything like money or abuse from family. I guess it's just something more mental? In 8th grade I've lost my best friends who always talked beind my back, but I didn't mind because at least I had someone to be happy with. Then I got kicked out the friend group and I never had anyone close since then. I'm went on a class trip to disney world and just didn't feel like I belonged anywhere. I feel like anyone I talk to now just finds me annoying etc. I'm sorry if this doesn't make since to anyone reading this, I'm crying currently for no reason idk. I feel stressed from finals and I keep telling myself I'm doing my best but I feel it deep down I'm not somehow. My brother also just got into a great university and I can't help but feel upset for some reason. Like yes I'm happy for him, but I feel like a disappointment now to my parents. I just feel empty.

and i've been feeling like this for months. sometimes i will wake up and i'm nervous and my chest is too tight for me to eat food but i have to force it down my throat anyways. i'm fat and i could do something about it if i tried but my first hobby is always eating food. maybe if i had an ed or was more healthy i'd have more motivation and my friends would talk to me without me texting first and life would be better. there's also a specific person whose every message has me debating whether they hate me or not, and i can't talk to them about normal things because i don't know how close we are. they seem like the one person in my life who would be able to tell me things about myself if i opened up but i don't know what i feel about them, but every time i think about them hating me i get this feeling of anxiety. everyone else probably wouldn't care, and i can't bring up anything without intentionally making it sound like i'm joking.

and i don't want to die but i don't want to live either. everything is such a chore to me and i'm so tired all the time but i can't sleep early because i'll start reading something or scrolling something else and it drags me until 3 in the morning where i go to sleep and wake up at 7 again. i'll nap my time away when i get home after school anyways, its not like i have anywhere to be. i wish i was terminally ill then people would care and ask me what's wrong when i'm quiet and i say i'm fine, i wouldn't have to do anything at all, and the people who care too much for me to die suddenly can come to terms with my death. it's the perfect ending see. i tried hurting myself for the first time last week and i dont think ill ever do it again but i loved the way it looked bandaged up or bleeding on my wrist, in the perfect place for anyone who ended up seeing it under everything i wear to have no other explanation. and i imagine showing someone the scar, imagine the way they'd pretend to care.