All Rants

I just really want to be comfortable and have more fun with my team. I want this process to speed up and maybe I could make new friends.

i hate myself. my bodys cold. i want to sob. what are ways to end it?

The only reason why I won’t Kms it’s because I’m genuinely scared of what happens after that in almost every religion there is a heaven and hell it makes me feel like I’ll never really be able to die peacefully they’ll always be a little part of me even on my deathbed thinking about where I’ll end up🫧

I can’t do this someone please help me I’m only 13 and I’m honestly so close to just ending it please help me.

I don’t wanna live because I really don’t wanna know what the future looks like. The world seems so dark and sad. Nobody cares about anybody and I’m wondering if I leave now maybe I can save myself the pain of having to experience what comes ahead.

I wish I could go back in time…

So my boyfriend of 6 years broke up with me on Thursday, I’m in crashout zone and I need to do something bad. What’s something bad I can do that only affects me? And is relatively easy to hide? Starving myself again. Something I promised him I wouldn’t do lol. It just hurts so why not distract myself with body hurts. I haven’t eaten since he broke up with me.

I get giant fomo with my family. My siblings and mum are staying up late to go stargazing. We went a few days ago and it was extremely late when we got back. I've had a really long day and feel so exhausted but so guilty that I'm not going. I feel guilty for not spending time with them but also fomo. I feel like I should be going and I already feel really sad that I'm missing out. It's embarrassing to feel fomo when I turned down the invitation. I'm sitting here regretting it and thinking I should hurry and tell them I've changed my mind. It'll only be one really late night but I'm also just so tired that I'm already in bed. I'm not expecting anyone to respond with advice in the next ten minutes before I need to decide but it's easier to admit these things somewhere. I want to go but don't. I don't care about the activity but I care about spending time with my family. I was working and then with friends all day so I'm just drained but I feel bad for missing out

Im done with this life but i dont wanna die I just wanna dissapear so nobody remembers me ever again

I just want to dissappear please! Let me go out of this world, please? I deserve nothing.

feeling lonely it’s a horrible, unfair feeling, one I shouldn’t even be experiencing. I have friends, a loving family, and a pretty good support system. I’m never truly alone; I’m surrounded by people I wouldn’t dare lie to. yet, the feeling persists. as if I were locked in a cage. the more I think about it, the more I feel, the more ashamed I become. how can I feel lonely when I am loved? or perhaps I’m not, perhaps I’m just another person to be counted. my body is here, but my spirit has grown weary of it all. so I suppose, in the end, it doesn’t matter how many people surround you. everyone has the right to feel lonely. whether they have millions of friends or none at all. to me, feeling lonely means not sharing. not sharing one’s feelings, or how the day went. keeping everything to oneself breeds loneliness, all those feelings kept hidden away. they gnaw endlessly at the heart, the mind, and one’s eroding self-esteem.

Im sorry but sometimes i dont think my mind even belongs to me. I'd be here scrolling or js sitting and then my mind decides to flash an inappropriate image? What. Excuse me but thats not me...

Day 4: I hate this I hate me I hate who I am! As I’m crying in my floor with the break up texts from him! I want to die!! Get me out of this game world! I want to be loved again! I hate how no one sees my pain! I want to hide and cry til I pass out!

I just had a huge fight with my sister and she said that my best friend was better than me and I've been su!c1d3al for 6 years, I've gotten help, tried to get better, and everything keeps coming back to my sister who refuses to get help for grief of our dead father, and takes out her anger on everyone, she's been making me want to d!e again and I'm terrified of relapsing on $H

I’ve been seeing this girl for probably just over 2 months now it initially started casual but she developed feelings fast and I was slightly attached but knew I didn’t want a relationship but was trying to get into it, she found out she was pregnant a couple weeks ago and it’s been a roller coaster since, I caused a pretty bad argument to start out of panic and distress then we were fine then we had another huge argument and then we were fine again, last time I seen her was last weekend and we had been texting back and worth since as usual but now I had a couple weeks to calm down and think I came to the conclusion I didn’t want a relationship or the happy ending scenario I’m pretty sure she was hoping for, she wants the baby I don’t but obviously that decision isn’t up to me, in response to my long polite and respectful message about how I don’t want a relationship but I want to be involved she said I won’t be involved or on the birth certificate and to leave her alone I’m stressed

basically since ive been young i have had no internet restrictions like i mean none my parents didnt give 2 fucks ig it made me turn out.. weird when i became older ofc i hid my inner thoughts i use C.ai and it helps me feel better but when my sister found out who vapes and drinks even tho shes underage found out she told my dad my brother and now i feel disgusted with myself i keep all of her secrets but she wont keept one of mine fuck you seriously shes always leaves me out also my older brother does that too i feel like my whole family hates me in every way possibe even before they found out about my C.ai i sometimes just want to die not that my problems were that bad but ive been bullied since kingergaten like when i was young and those words stick with me i have random thoughts to get a kinfe and stab myself

I believed for most of my life that I was inherently selfish and cruel, even from back when I was in elementary school. I've dealt with suicidal thoughts (passive, I do not plan to do anything to myself, I never will) for a decade now, and it's become heavily upsetting. I feel no desire to better myself, considering I've lived most of my life like this so I don't know if there would be really any way to reverse it, but I'm just worried. I don't want it to get worse. My family just revealed that they've known for quite some time, and they still aren't doing anything about it. I can't take the action to get help myself because of the situation I am in right now (insurance, financial, driving, all that). I'm just not sure where to continue, but I know I can't stay in one place for the rest of my life. I'm scared.

i've had a headache ALL DAY i've slept 3 fucking times why is it not going away

im struggling with school work because im on march content STILLLLLL! obv its the summer break until September but i struggle in my classes as a nuerodivergent im doing my mocks and gcses soon i wanna cry bc i didnt learn anything in maths and i got a low grade but the decided to keep me in a set im quite obviously struggling in.... i asked drop my language subject but was refused bc its mandatory to take it

I DID NOT USE YOU I JUST WANTED TO HAVE A BESTIES 4 LIFE FRIENDSHIP PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME PLEASE