Recent Rants
my (23f) boyfriend (26m) of 3 years wants to move in together but only if we move to big city 5 hours away with 2 or 3 other of his content creator friends. i dont know how i feel about it. immediately i am repulsed as they my bf & 1 of them have lived together 1 yr ago and they would showcase their living situation on their socials (they all work as influencers) & it was just so bad. i cant imagine myself living with 3 other men in a FRAT like house. it sounds so disgusting. on top of that.. THEY ARE NOT MY FRIENDS. i made my 1st friend in their influencer circle and my bf's "friend" spread rumors to his friends that i was "dating someone he knew" and how i was essentially a whore for having a male friend. like what??? why would i want to live with someone like that? why do i want to be the ONLY woman in a house full of men?? i am fine with him and i living together especially since we would be paid enough to support ourselves. but. im just so conflicted.
one of my friends is rlly judgemental & makes comments abt my appearance. when we scroll on yt shorts or smth she is always like, "ew, her nose is so weird" or "ew, is he gay?" We watched the summer I turned pretty yesterday and she refuses to refer to Skye as their pronouns, as she refers to Skye as a female and female only. I also tried to open up abt family issues but she ignored me and told me that it was bad that I felt the way I do and tried to get me to change my mind in a very un-comforting way. She makes me low-key uncomfortable when she is like this and its so draining, any tips on what I should do??
I miss you I'm sorry, i cam finally understand why i was such a bad bf and there are no second chances I'm sorry please leave me alone now and die from my memory
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the thought of when my dad used to hit me and the fact he hit me recently kills me i hate that he hit me again it feels like i'm walking on eggshells everyday i'm so careful to make sure he doesn't get angry at me or my sister...
He’s seen me numerous times and still thinks I’m ugly, or maybe he does it to make her feel good, I’m not sure. No one has ever called me ugly before which is why it upsets me when it’s coming from someone I admired for years and assumed was the sweetest person:/ It pains me so much, but then I get hit with whatever happened during the month of December, when he spent his entire time relentlessly abusing me in their own slang under her x account. The tweets were so uncomfortable I started to question if he’s the same guy i interacted through out all these years. Maybe it was a lesson or maybe it was a blessing? I’m not sure, but that exact day I saw what the real monster looked like. He was always there and I was never aware of it. I try my best to block out the painful memories during the time of December, but I could memorise each and every word he said to me under her tweets back then. They really did ruin an innocent person who didn’t know their game.
i feel sick my mom asked me if i could forgive my cousin that sexually assaulted me when i was 7 bc we were were both kids like i understand we were both young but that doesn't make it any better i still deal with the pain of it today .
I'm so fucking tired of AI. I yearn for human connection. For the simplicity we held not that long ago. I enjoy being online (or I used to) but everything is filled to the brim with AI and I cannot stand it. I just want things made by humans. No stolen content. No misinformation. No destroying the Earth at an irreparable pace. There is no place for it. I wish we could just unplug it. Remove it from the world. Instead it is shoved down our throats for the sake of billionaires making even more money. Meanwhile Colorado (among other states and countries) are seeing real effects of global warming and climate change every day. It barely snowed this past winter. There is a record breaking drought here in Colorado. I see the lack of water. I hear of water contamination in Cheyenne. And of course this is just on top of all of the world falling apart otherwise. ICE killing people in the streets, constructing concentration camps, renamed as detention facilities. ETC ETC. Fuck. Im so tired.
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I don’t feel real anymore and I have lost so many of my friends in the past year from things that they have done but it just feels like everyone around me leaves now and i genuinely don’t know how I’m supposed to keep myself going if everyone leaves and time flies by without any semblance of myself feeling human and actually there in the moment.
my dad used to hit me when i was little and he hit me last week and im still pissed of abt it and i dont wanna live with him anymore i have nothing here and it fucking sucks he hit me over a disagreement btw it was over two cosplayers my sister liked and my dad talked shit about them for 20 mintues to my grandma and she didnt even say anything because she doesnt see him the wrong i said " stop talking shit abut two people who did nothing to you at all " and then he said your "jokin right" and then i said yeah bc i was scared ,super scared and he slapped tf outta me and i curled up in the car and cried bc why would my mom send me to his house and i even told her abt what happened and she doesnt even care :/
My dad threw water at me mid zoom call cause I told him to stop singing, and it honestly js shows how insecure of a 45 yr old manchild with a high ego he is, like god forbid he has to constantly seek validation from his 6000 college friends every day and works from home so can't even do shi off his lazy bum. Always argues everything with logic which is acc annoying af.
Sometimes I want to just try to kms just so my parents see how bad it is. Even if it doesn’t work just so they know I wasn’t ok.
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TW: SH I just realized that it would be like so fun to like die you know because like the guy I like probably doesn't know I exist and every struggle I have is like overturned by my 16 year-old sister's anxiety (I'm 13 by the way) like my struggles don't exist. I might have depression or something but my sister's like "Well only if you haven't been finding joy in previous activities you liked for more then two weeks." And I've been able to help my two friends from Self Harm. I don't care anymore. I'm laughing while I'm writing this. I say I hate the world and my other friends are just like "Well you say that but your always so happy." Like I don't fricking care. Like I go to LDS church and the guy I like is gonna be a freshman and hour also goes to my church. I almost Self Harm relapsed like 5 minutes ago (I'm 3 months clean by the way). My mom like almost committed suicide like 3 years ago but my dad stopped her I walked I on the knife to her thoat.
I feel like everytime I say I, not ok or I try to ask for help I’m being selfish or lieing that I’m not ok. I don’t know if I am or am not ok but something is wrong. But everytime I say that I feel like I’m being rude to the person I’m talking to. Or like I’m fakeing it
I feel like I’m the reason I’m alone. All my friendships or relationships end because I end them. I mess up all the time and I just want one thing to work out but I mess it up everytime. Then complain abt it like it’s someone else’s problem
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help i need advice so basically one of my friends is a they them and has a girlfriend but i still txt them like good morning and good night and shit like that but idk if im overstepping but they didnt tell me til like a wk ago and i do that shit cus im scared they gonna kts cus they have attempted before... and im hella scared... but like im a hypocrite cus i nearly attempted for the past like 10 days and i wanna tell them but i feel like a burden
I want to tell my brother (one of the only people I can trust really) that I’m struggling but I don’t know how. He struggled with a lot of the same things as me I think talking to him would help. But I think he would tell my mom or dad. He also is always busy and lives far away so I don’t have time to talk to him. How can I?
so... this week, i lost my phone in a lyft and the driver wouldnt return it so i had to buy a new one. then someone stole a whole load of my laundry. i dont own that many clothes as it is, i think like three and half loads worth of clothes so a whole load is a lot. i walk 2.5 hours to work everyday in humid 95+ degree weather. i got hit by a car the other day crossing the street. the car didnt stop. nobody did actually. nobody rolled down their window to ask if i was ok or even honk at the car. on top of that my credit card got sent to the wrong address and i need to order another one, but i didnt budget fir it to take another weej in the mail. i live in a hotel room with my mom, i have for a year. i moved to this state three years ago, i have no friends or family and no money for hobbies to even do by myself. everytime i speak the room goes quiet. i dont even try to make friends anymore, im so far from the person i used to be. im afraid to pray to god because i dont want to be let dow