I’m now the only virgin in my friend group. We’ve all graduated and are either 18 or 19, and all of them have done sex stuff (two have PiV’d and one has done everything but— and that counts too). I have done nothing at all. My last virgin friend in our 4 person friendgroup had sex yesterday. And the thing is, I’m Demisexual, so it’s going to be a while before I (if ever) have sex and I know that. I’ve never even been in a relationship before (been asked out, but am picky yknow). It just feels really weird. Idk how to describe the feeling. Off, I guess? It almost makes me feel sad. A year ago we were all innocent and now we’re not. And that sounds strange when I type that out but. It just makes me want to go back before 3/4 of us took this huge step. I love my friends, but now I feel like I’m the out of balanced one. I’m supportive of them of course but. Everything is just different now
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I'm so fricking done with my parents! Mostly my dad, my mom frustrates me somes but she tries her hardest and still loves me even when I'm a bit of a jerk to her cuz I'm like angry or smt. But oh gosh do I really dislike my dad rn, sure he's nice to me and gives me a great life and everything but he keeps judging me amount of food I eat like you have no room to talk and also there has been no change in the proportions of my food! And now I feel bad for eating to much food so I keep eating smaller amounts even though I am still hungry after I eat but I feel guilty any time i eat a normal amount now! And he keeps calling me lazy like I'm not lazy and sorry I feel like I cantvdo anything like if I'm just laying there my brain will be screaming at me to do something but my body just will not respond, bit can I tell him that? heck no! He will call me attention seeking and sa thatvim faking it and "oh your generation-" and it turns into a lecture. I could go on but I'm out of space so byee3
She so petty. Pp cannot even voice out their opinions. Super Bay tahan. Why does she feel like we all need to to be grateful to her? She’s the one who wanted to start the WC rite? Why does she feel like it’s an obligation for A to work there? The feelings is validated. Why can’t she just acknowledge it? And honestly J should just sit herself out. If already not contributing, why still so thick skin want to take part. And make pp feel this way and put it in such a way like you are taking the leftovers. Pls la ah. And it is true you are quite a rider. U want to reap the benefits but not helping. For real.
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Been dating almost 5 months… I’m done being treated like shit .. but it still hurts.. she treats me like I’m one of her ex’s who didn’t have shit going for them and just used her- yet she always tells me how different I am… and don’t deserve that…? It hurts a ton… I love her but I love myself enough to leave when something’s not healthy for me …
I'm so tired of always feeling like a failure and feeling like I have to fake it to everyone I know. Everyone around me thinks I graduated from college while ive been failing to finish the few classes needed to graduate. Every year ive taken classes that make me feel like a failure and a fake while everyone else I know is being successful and moving on in their life. And because I havent gotten work yet, every conversation with my parents is about work and I just want to never hear about a job ever again. I need to figure out how to get out of this house and making money. I feel like every decision ive made to finish something myself has snowballed to the point that I cant do anything in my life anymore. Nothing brings me joy other than doing things with my friends, and its been this way for years.
I am so goddamn jealous of those without the weight of mental illness. Those who see the world through a lens of clean glasses, those with the capacity to believe that one day after the other will bring them some sort of happiness. I look around at my relationships with Hazel and Harper, and I am so goddamn jealous of it. Why is it so natural for them to just talk to one another? Why can it not be with me? I need to feel validated. She is not picking up my texts, how rude. What a fucking bitch. She will pick up for anyone in an instant, but nooo, not me. Prickly bitch. I hate her, stupid cunt. I wish she would die. I need that innocence, that connection. I am so tired of the desperation. I need to be kind to myself, and realize that maybe she just doesn't want to be my friend like that. That hurts like shit, just please tell me so I can bear it a little better. Its not my fault that she treats me like this. I guess I will be just fine. I need to focus on myself. Only myself. Love me.
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What's something you wish you could say to someone but the relationship is too fragile? "I wish we could both be heard. not just me hearing you, not just you hearing me. we can both hear. so why is always only one of us saying what's wrong? Only one person being honest. Tell me what to do better. tell me what I did wrong. I'm desperate. I can't lose you."
I HATE MY BODY!! I STARTED EATING NORMAL AND NOW ALL OF MY WEIGHT IS BACK! IM FAT! HOW DOES MY BOYFRIEND LOVE ME?! IM NOT SKINNY! IM NOT PRETTY! IM FAT! I HATE THIS! BUT HONESTLY?! honestly? If it werent for other people, I'd love my body. cause is isn't even that bad. my gender dysphoria can be handled. but my stomach? 2 inches from the line of my ribs at its BIGGEST? oh thats unacceptable. to others. except my boyfriend and friends. "chubby girls are cute" one of my friends said. but I want to be skinny. but I want to look androgynous. not a girl. not a boy. just neither and both. But I look like a girl. I have a girly face and sometimes that's fine. But right now I just want to be skinny. I want to be enough.
You know what you did. You hurt me. You yelled. Mom never knew. You were DEFENDED but yet you still raise hands that never fall? Im 13. I don't want to sit in rooms and tell another grown up about the way I can't be myself, the way my body looks and feels to big, and you just yelled when I opened up. You broke me. Im scared. Im sad. I cant look at you or hear your voice without being livid or upset. You were supposed to be my dad. You weren't even close......
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I'm on a call with my partner. We are long distance. I was being goofy and sending him funny pictures so we could laugh together. I sent one where my teeth were partially showing, and I told him "look, I have bunny teeth! My front teeth are bigger than the others!" and he asked to see a picture of me fully smiling. My stomach dropped because I hate my smile. My gums are unhealthy/puffy and my chin is a bit longer which makes my smile look even worse. I hate it so much but I don't want to upset him by never actually smiling. I've had zero motivation lately so brushign and flossing has been hard. After that situation we remained on call but he stopped talking. And so I went to the bathroom crying on mute and vigorously brushed and flossed my teeth.
I'm autistic and I have a big relationship problem with my mom I love her but she doesn't I'm under 18 and i can't do much but she blames me everytime I do something it's never enough all I am to her is something to flex "my son is a good artist" and all I am to her in my opinion is not a human but a something to flex and when I have meltdowns and such It always fully my fault and i don't know what to do
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I have a really big crush on this boy in my school but I’m a boy. I don’t really know what to do about it because I don’t know if he’s in a relationship or if I want a relationship but I feel like I have to do something to get it off my chest, so I am venting. I’m probably gay or something along those lines but I don't really know if it’s a real crush since I don’t know if I seek a relationship.
I'm talking to this guy (that I do know irl, I got to school w/him), and i have horrrrible communication and social skills, i was never taught and never really learned. i have been previously like socially isolated and homebound for two months (i was in IOP, having some mental issues and having been groomed online) so that definitely doesn't help. i really like him, but i dont talk much, yk? he told me he hasnt been in a relationship for just abt 2 years, just some causal things. we've been having some problems, bc of me (comm. & social skllz). i told him i was done, cus he's clearly done(never said it tho, js that he'd stop trying and that its up to me now), and he got pissed abt it cus he didnt mean to make it seem that way, and i asked him if he was done, he said he was but he didnt want to be. im clearly an issue, he's trying so hard and im js..not, cus i rlly do like him, but idk what to do, what to say. im stuck and itsd fkcn me over, no US (me n him)
I am in a slump. I can't make myself be disciplined. I can't even imagine myself being disciplined. I have been struggling with loss of memory, attention deficiency and low self-esteem. I have been trying understand and get past it by trying to write about it, watch videos, articles, read books but end up not solving it and getting stuck and frustrated. So, I end up playing games or doomscrolling social media.