All Rants

help i need advice so basically one of my friends is a they them and has a girlfriend but i still txt them like good morning and good night and shit like that but idk if im overstepping but they didnt tell me til like a wk ago and i do that shit cus im scared they gonna kts cus they have attempted before... and im hella scared... but like im a hypocrite cus i nearly attempted for the past like 10 days and i wanna tell them but i feel like a burden

I want to tell my brother (one of the only people I can trust really) that I’m struggling but I don’t know how. He struggled with a lot of the same things as me I think talking to him would help. But I think he would tell my mom or dad. He also is always busy and lives far away so I don’t have time to talk to him. How can I?

so... this week, i lost my phone in a lyft and the driver wouldnt return it so i had to buy a new one. then someone stole a whole load of my laundry. i dont own that many clothes as it is, i think like three and half loads worth of clothes so a whole load is a lot. i walk 2.5 hours to work everyday in humid 95+ degree weather. i got hit by a car the other day crossing the street. the car didnt stop. nobody did actually. nobody rolled down their window to ask if i was ok or even honk at the car. on top of that my credit card got sent to the wrong address and i need to order another one, but i didnt budget fir it to take another weej in the mail. i live in a hotel room with my mom, i have for a year. i moved to this state three years ago, i have no friends or family and no money for hobbies to even do by myself. everytime i speak the room goes quiet. i dont even try to make friends anymore, im so far from the person i used to be. im afraid to pray to god because i dont want to be let dow

Any tips on how to make carbon monoxide in a small room without a car

Should i block all my friends because keeping up a friendship is so fucking draining and it just makes me feel worse im always ignored and alone and im asking my bf for a break soon

i cant remember the last time i was truly honest about how i felt with anyone. then again, i can’t remember the last time someone took me seriously and cared when i opened up about how bad everything feels. it’s funny how people say they’re here for you but suddenly become deaf and blind when you need them.

i keep thinking about my future, not just in the ‘what will i become’ but rather realizing all that comes with getting older especially as a woman. i’m expected to have kids with my current partner. i’ll have to raise little people and try not to fuck up. i’ll have people relying on me that i don’t want to rely on me. appointments, payments, credit cards, work, money, all the shit that comes with adulthood is so daunting and scary. i’ve continually made plans to bail out of life in september because i honestly don’t think i can do it. i’m too big of a wuss to finish life to the finish line. it’s too much work. it’s too much pressure. i don’t want to finally get comfortable living at some point just to accept that i’m going to die and i wasted much of my life wishing it would happen sooner. it’s ironic though, the thought of being taken out against my will terrifies me, but i’m deeply comforted by having control over ending it myself. i’ve lost where i’m going with this, living is scary

My wife of 7 years told me that she is in an emotional affair with someone from work and told me she wants a divorce. She said shes had feelings for this person for months. He quit. She told him how she felt, he told her he also has feelings. I am a pretty emotionally detached person. I am working on that in therapy. She told me that she feels like she doesnt know who i am because i dont talk about my feelings and my thoughts. She told me even if our marriage was rock solid she would pursue this guy. She does not want to try counseling either. I am so lost. Broken, I do not even know what to think right now. We are still living together and she still tells me she loves me too. Cuddles up to me. Its all so conflicting. I am trying to work on myself but I really only have her as my only friend and she has been being cold to me some days and doesnt want to be around me. I still want to be her friend but she is so infatuated with this other person that she only talks to me about the divorc

im actually like spiralling so bad, i have cut myself 124 times in the past 8 days.... i didnt even do it on one of the days.. like shit got so bad i started writing my letters and i mean like i have drafts on my laptop but i started writing them out by hand, in swimming my 'friends' saw my cuts and scars and started questioning me, i just stuttered a shit ton and then i dropped 2 kg in 2 wks idek whats goin on like i calculated how much shit i need to die as in like meds and like how to strangle myself and all that shit like im only alive cus i told myself that one of my friends is worse than me... i js wanna fucking die.. i dont wanna be here anymore i need help pls.. any advice?? ill take fucking anything atp im so done.

Lately all I’ve been thinking abt is killing myself. The Olny reason I think that I haven’t is because I don’t want to be the first call that my sister gets from my family in years being abt me being dead. I can’t really talk to my friends because they have their own stuff going on and all my family has stuff to deal with.

Crazy how ill spend the entire day in my room without motivation to do ANYTHING. and my parents will have the audacity to say that I'm lazy and make fun of me for it. Like that will make me want to be w/ the "family" more... But no one my age can be depressed no I'm only in middle school I'm too innocent.

This happend less then 10 minuets ago. So my step mother brought out a box and keep in mind i hate girly things. Like necklaces and stuff like that. Im not saying all necklaces are girly im just saying i hate them. Anyways she brought out this box and opended it. My brothers got MODLE KIT CARS while me and my sister got NECKLACES. I hate this really much. She also said after giving them to us 'The lady said there real silver. You can put little charms on them!" Im really pissed because she went out of her way to get my brothers something like that and then something like this for us. It seems like im being ungratefull but you have to see it from my perspective. Its Bullshit. Really it is. I am not going to wear it as i dont like stuff like that. And my younger sister had a birthday and when she asked her pink or purple my little sister answered 'Yellow!" and the party was pink and purple. ABSURD. -A

My 13 YEAR OLD brother who i younger then me is a dope head. He got a weed vape pen from a new girl in his class and ive never been more disquisted. Me and my grandma searched his room after we got home from the school and he stayed home. IT WAS ALMOST EMPTY. He has NOT faced sevear punishment at all. He is only getting his electronics removed and i think his door removed. My dad had him take a drug test but i am pissed. I do not worse stuff and get punished more. I hate this thing and have ot said a word to him and i will not. -A

I desperately want to ruin the life of the guy that groomed me in high school. Or maybe not ruin his life, just write out some of the absolute abhorrent ways he helped warp me for the worse and get it to him somehow. I want him to feel like shit, forever. This cropped up because my goofy self decided to look him up on facebook after about a year of ignoring anything in my brain related to that trauma. At some point I decided not to look at anything related to him because anything he does is not my responsibility. I wanted to move on, and about 95% of the time I have. But I get genuinely terrified he's doing it to some other poor girl. And that I do carry blame because I'm not screaming from the rooftops that he's dangerous. I'm of the belief a predator is always a predator, there's a reason so many reoffend. And I get so scared Noone will believe me or care. Or that my personal mistakes and failures mean I don't deserve to be heard. How do I hurt him.

How do you open up to people? I've always been really scared too pretty much all my life and I've faked how I've felt pretty much everywhere to the point where I mask even when im by myself but I wanna change that but I dont know how.

See the weird shit with me is that ill be able to hold my tears back during the day but I feel like I'm gonna full out bawl my eyes out if someone asks me if I'm doing ok. Luckily no one really gives a fuck about me anymore.

I hate toxic but loving parents because I know my mom genuinely hates me or something but she done so much for me. like we’ve had so many arguments and she keeps calling me an ungrateful little bitch and siding with my brother with everything??

um so a guy replied to one of rants like panicking and hb that wasn’t about you trust🥹 it was like some guy jerked off to me even tho I said no. ur good broski if u see this, wish I could reply to notes💔💔

If he still abuses me after 2 months of taking his new antidepressants, then I'm leaving his ass for good and I don't give a shit if he threatens to kill himself for the 200th time. I tried to be supportive but he needs a doctor, not a girlfriend.

Bruh I’m so done cus my moms yelling at me bc I’m tired of cleaning up after my brother constantly and I’ve been putting off my necessities for DAYS because of it