All Rants

I am working in a government agency and we have an individual performance rating every 6 months. Unfortunately, I being true to myself declared some of my missed deadlines because I am loaded with other support functions. This made my score lower than the usual but still VS. Then, I saw how my supervisor accepted my coworker's misdeclared score being higher than me despite not doing his job properly. Even other sections knows about it but when I saw it. my supervisor defended this co worker just because they are drinking buddies. After half a year, I raised the concern pointing out that it is not healthy for the team not to supervise or help team members that are under performing. Turns out, I am the bad guy now, being nosy, and my supervisor frequently gives remarks that are sarcastic about it. Also, she played the victim after I build boundaries on work (not joining their night out bc my co worker/ drinking buddy is sad).

I want to die

I cry over stupid reasons

I'm going thru a break up. It hurts

I feel like im constantly third wheeling. Seeing other people cheer my friends up where I couldn’t. Seeing them smile towards someone that isn’t me. Seeing them spend more time with their own than me. And honestly, I just wish I could stop working so hard to appease others. A big part of me tells me that it’s okay for people to be happy without me. It’s never their fault or mine. That same part tells me that they’re in good hands, and they know what they’re doing. That they don’t really need me. And Yeah, it hurts. It sucks trying to be the one person that someone can share equal love to. That someone special. But I’m still happy that they’ll be happy too. Even without me, you know?

I genuinely want to kill myself so bad I don't know how to make my days feel good again, it's the same every single day and i dont know how to change it or if i should simply just end it and find peace

I can’t do this anymore my older sister and me have a terrible relationship I need to get out of this house or I need to get out of this life the only way I know how to. I can’t do this and I’m sobbing my eyes out I just had a “conversation” or more like an argument with her and it hurts. There’s all those names I want to say about her but I don’t have the energy to not the mentality, every tear drop make me feel disgusting. My throat hurts from everything and I’m having those shaky breaths idk what those are called. I don’t know why I’m still alive.

I'm 8 months pregnant and I've been in a relationship that's a year and four months long now. I hate myself for putting myself in this situation. He's the worst partner you could ever think of, he knows how much he hurts me emotionally and mentally all he does is just apologize and my stupid ass believes him and he ends up doing the same thing. After a recent big fight he promised a date and flowers something he's never given to me and it was supposed to be tomorrow.. we decided to book an Airbnb instead.. I wanted nothing but a hug from him because it's been really hard for me with this pregnancy. And guess what, since he can't be strict with his family they used his money and he can't even look for his fare to come see me after I offered to pay for the stay and meals for two nights. It's too much for him and after that I'm mean and inconsiderate.. I wish there was a way to fall out of love I can't do this to myself anymore. I'm just worthless and stupid at the end of it all.

I used to write fanfics, and they were totally original stories that I came up with. I’m underage (not an adult) and the stories I wrote featured people who were also underage engaging in sexual activity which is legal. It is. And I included gifs of people who were ADULTS having sex. It is not illegal to do this. I included things saying that all the gifs featured people who were 18+ because I know this isn’t wrong. If it was most people on AO3 and other websites would be locked up. But my fanfics got deleted for sexually explicit content of a minor, and I got so scared that I would be arrested for a crime I didn’t commit. Ive been under so much stress and i just want it to stop. I havent done anything wrong. Im aroace, I don’t even like smut. Just because I wrote it doesnt mean I will do it

i feel like i'm wasting my teenage years. and its so difficult being homeschooled. im in such an amazing place with people that would get me, but since im homeschooled, i never get outside to meet anybody. its so depressing. my current friends are in different time zones, and they all are fun, but i dont feel like i can speak about my loneliness and pain to them. i wish i could just have friends that would listen. i wish i had people to talk to. to connect with. some people to just be around and laugh like i used to in elementary school. im so tired all the time, and i feel lik music and my unhealthy tendancies are the only things that get me. i cant bring myself to get out of bed most days. im better than i used to be, but im still bad off. i tell everyone im doing better, but am i really? i dont think so. but i dont have anyone to talk to. i just wish things were different. i wish i could just be happy.

im never anyones first, second, or third choice. even my bff is with someone over me but thats fine cause its understandable. am i lonely? i just wanna be someones bff... but i feel so unwanted and awkward i wanna disappear eternally. its like im feeling two completely opposite shit at the same time. 1. im over my old shit friendship but the aspects of it still haunt me?? 2. idc being alone but i dont wanna be left out 3. i wanna be close with everyone but im so tired and exhausted from having to try so hard every damn time 4. worried they dislike me but i cant just assume and even im aware okay if they shit talk thehre just not good people but woah wtf 5. pls just once just once in my life i want to feel safe and truly comfortable just once i want to trust a friendship without ever having doubts i want my presence wanted i want to stop trying so hard i just want to cry and yell but i cant cause i always vent im a loser

I can't stop having sexual fantasies..and it has just grown worse and weirder over the past few days...I can't concentrate in class because of this! *sigh* I miss my old self she ..was.. realy..better..

I noticed we cant respond to vents so im just hoping that the person who wrote abt not being able to stop manstrubating sees this. If you're seeing this just know its not your fault, you are probably hypersexual, i am too, i know the feeling, its a coping mechanism, while hypersexuality is usually caused by seeing porn at a young age or getting sexually harrassed,abused, or raped, it can have more causes, remember hypersexuality isn't jerking off once in a while. Hypersexuality is not being able to stop at all, like doing it every day and then feeling sick to your stomach about it, im not the best at explaining but please do research on it, also i suggest going on this site called ventscape.life, ik this probs sounds like an add but its not lol, it genuinely helped me, you dont HAVE to check it out but you can! Sending hugs and i hope u recover

Relapsed like 10 mins ago, im literally barely 13 and i feel like everyone thinks im attention seeking fr

I can't stop the feeling of lust! I cat STOP masturbating. I don't like it I wanna stop it but can't I love the pleasure at the same time I hate! it. I feel like my brain power has gone done over the years... Its too much... I'm texting this right after I jerked myself off and guess what its by looking at rape porn videos. I feel sick at myself but can't change my taste. I have other kinky fetishes too, fetishes that just has grown strong over the years.... my hand hurts when I jerk myself off it doesn't even feel good anymore but I can't bring myself to stop! Whyyy I just don't get ittt! Stop it alreadyyyyy!!

Life is so stressful and empty. I can’t talk to anyone about how I feel. My boyfriend does the bare minimum, doesn’t even engage with me physically half the time. I’m weak and tired, and can barely bring myself to do anything. I enjoy writing, but even that has dulled significantly. My parents aren’t there for me how I’d like them to be. No one ever takes what I want/need seriously. I’m ugly and fat, and get worse every day. I can’t tell my boyfriend how horrible I feel because he always has a bad reaction to it, yells and screams at me. I hate going outside, interacting with people, having them look at me and judge me. I hate not having enough money to feel secure. I hate trying to find a new place to live that won’t drain my expenses or fuck me over. I wish I could be someone else, or disappear.

There is so much happening. My bf broke up with me after 2days and now tells me I'm overreacting for needing space. I'm being bullied on the school bus, having people scream, "Lily Scott is a bitch." I feel drained, and every day I feel tired and stressed. I keep having toxic people befriend me, and I don't know how to set boundaries. I don't know how to lose toxic friends without lossing all my friends

My boyfriend recently told him that be being super affectionate (my entire personality) was an issue and made him feel terrible. He told me this after almost 8 months, and now Ive started getting rid of things that make me happy and make me myself, just so that hes happy.

really liked a girl who moved away. no way to contact her, no one knows I like anyone and not planning on letting ‘em know. people have openly stated that im one of the happiest people they know, and i want it to stay that way without worrying anyone. i haven’t been able to talk to anyone about the girl, and I can’t contact her so it’s just me and my brain. sometimes i feel like i could cry, but i don’t because either there’s no point or I just don’t have the energy. from time to time she comes back to my town, and I only know this from her friends saying she stayed over. i never see her when she comes to town, i wish I could at least know she’s there while she is and not be notified after she’s left. i never told her I liked her, so obviously im worried she never liked me in the first place, or even if she did is already moving on and talking to someone new. hell, maybe she’s forgotten all about me. There’s not a day I don’t think about her, and I might never see her again.

Im at that stage where I just suck it in. Up to you. Whatever you say is correct. The only answer.